Nothing Left
She was expecting me to be horrible to her. To be afraid of her, like everyone else was, just because she was in prison. But I could see that she was just another woman, another patient, and I could see that that could have been me lying there with a prison officer by my side. Me that could have been in prison and resorted to swallowing razor blades just to get out of there. She didn't want to take her life, she just wanted a change of scenery and a few new faces. I didn't fear her, I empathised with her. She was doing a twelve-year sentence for manslaughter of her husband. That was nearly me. I heard what Kelly said to her. 'It must be strange being out'. How insensitive can she be? She doesn't understand. Why would she? She's only 24 years old. She hasn't got a clue what it's like in the real world. Not a clue.
That's why she reported me to Helen Grant. It's all very well knowing the latest text book off by heart, but it's different in the real world. My blood boils just thinking of Helen Grant. She had it in for me as soon as I walked in there. She knew who I was, knew what had happed with Terry, and so she thought that she could blame every single death on the ward on me. People die, it's not nice, but it's a part of life. Angel of Death. That's what they call me, and I could tell that's what she was thinking. Just blame it on Kath. She can take it. She killed her husband. But I only did what Terry wanted me to. I did it for him, because I loved him. I didn't want him to die. But I didn't want to see him suffer and die in pain anymore either, so I carried out his last wish for him. It's what he wanted.
I didn't expect Lisa to be on my side. Why would she have been? I took her father away from her. It was probably her that twisted the knife even further when they were talking to Kelly. But the one person I thought I could count on, would be on my side let me down too. Ric. I thought I could rely on him, count on his support. How wrong was I! How could he have just sat there and let Helen Grant say that to me? Accuse me, and blame me. How could he? I trusted him. I thought he was my friend. Show's what sort of judge of character I am!
And now I have nothing. Nothing. No job, no husband, and no friends. Nothing. Not even Danny. Maybe he had the right idea. Maybe I should go to Australia too. I've got nothing left to keep me in Holby anymore, so why not?
She was expecting me to be horrible to her. To be afraid of her, like everyone else was, just because she was in prison. But I could see that she was just another woman, another patient, and I could see that that could have been me lying there with a prison officer by my side. Me that could have been in prison and resorted to swallowing razor blades just to get out of there. She didn't want to take her life, she just wanted a change of scenery and a few new faces. I didn't fear her, I empathised with her. She was doing a twelve-year sentence for manslaughter of her husband. That was nearly me. I heard what Kelly said to her. 'It must be strange being out'. How insensitive can she be? She doesn't understand. Why would she? She's only 24 years old. She hasn't got a clue what it's like in the real world. Not a clue.
That's why she reported me to Helen Grant. It's all very well knowing the latest text book off by heart, but it's different in the real world. My blood boils just thinking of Helen Grant. She had it in for me as soon as I walked in there. She knew who I was, knew what had happed with Terry, and so she thought that she could blame every single death on the ward on me. People die, it's not nice, but it's a part of life. Angel of Death. That's what they call me, and I could tell that's what she was thinking. Just blame it on Kath. She can take it. She killed her husband. But I only did what Terry wanted me to. I did it for him, because I loved him. I didn't want him to die. But I didn't want to see him suffer and die in pain anymore either, so I carried out his last wish for him. It's what he wanted.
I didn't expect Lisa to be on my side. Why would she have been? I took her father away from her. It was probably her that twisted the knife even further when they were talking to Kelly. But the one person I thought I could count on, would be on my side let me down too. Ric. I thought I could rely on him, count on his support. How wrong was I! How could he have just sat there and let Helen Grant say that to me? Accuse me, and blame me. How could he? I trusted him. I thought he was my friend. Show's what sort of judge of character I am!
And now I have nothing. Nothing. No job, no husband, and no friends. Nothing. Not even Danny. Maybe he had the right idea. Maybe I should go to Australia too. I've got nothing left to keep me in Holby anymore, so why not?