Notes:
1)I don't own TDI, TDA,TDM or anything related to this series. I'm just a fan.
2)I might make some grammar mistakes and I apologize for them. English is my second Language.
3)This the first oneshot of many I have in mind, I hope you enjoy.
It hurts. Everytime I see you I get hurt. When I first met you I thought I could be your friend. But I screwed it badly by kissing your ear while you were asleep. You told me it was okay. That was just an accident. But I could never overcome it.
Maybe it was my subconscious trying to tell me something. Who knows? After that everything went downhill. I started act like a total jackass and that cost me 100 grand and also the right to stay near you.
Time quite slow at the Playa des Losers, after all, the only thing I did was read my books. Don't get me wrong. I love reading, but I just couldn't take you off my head. Your eyes, your smile. I enjoyed every second watching you on the television. Believe it or not, I wanted Gwen to like you as much you liked her. But the bitch didn't even gave you a chance.
You truly loved her. You gave her to that stupid musician just to see her happy. I just wished you would feel the same for me, but you aren't the same as I am. When you came here I did my best to help you out. Every second, every moment I was next to you was delightful.
I was so happy when you recovered. I wanted to show you everything the playa des losers had, because you had to say on bed until all wounds disappeared.
You always smiled, Even when you were near death. You even joked about your won problem as if they were nothing. I envied that. Your smile shines more than the sun to me. I still can't believe how you wanted to be my friend when no one else wanted. You said to me if the others see a problem in our friendship than they are the ones that have a problem.
I just…don't deserve you. I still can't believe what you told me when I finally confessed to you my sexual orientation. You just said: "So what? I had my suspicious you were homosexual, but I wanted you to trust me enough to tell me. Look, I want to be your friend and I care about you, but I'm not into having romantic relationships with men. I hope you can understand…I'm really sorry." Then he made a sad face.
He was sorry for not sharing the same feelings I have for him. But my heart was glad to see that he has no problems with gay people and also still wanted to be my friend.
I hugged him trying to suppress my tears and surprisingly he hugged me back and told me it was okay. How many straight men can get that close to a gay one without feeling uncomfortable? He was one of a kind…
Ten years passed by and we still talk, mostly through the internet and the phone. Today Cody works at game company called Square-Enix, I'm glad he never lost that child-like way of life of his. Besides, he never forgot about me. Even in his wedding, he asked me if I could be his wingman. I accepted it right away.
I hoped from the bottom of my heart that she would make him happy. His wife was a woman named Alice that he met in college and she seems a normal and kind person. I wonder if Cody told her about what I felt for him, but I could never bring myself for asking such a selfish question that could ruin his happiness.
I tried to move on, but every relationship I had was purely physical. No one wanted to walk on the beach holding hands, or go to see movies or even chat for the matter.
I guess I also am to blame, because I tried to find someone with the same qualities he had. All I can do is keep trying, after all, you told me to never give up searching for happiness even in the darkest moments I should never give up hope.
But I think I'll never forget you…
The end
I hope you enjoyed this first oneshot. I was listening to the song Gentle Hands from the game .Hack//GU while I was writing this.