I Want You to Want Me

Four Part-er.

Inspired by the episode, Farewell, My Pet. & the song I Want You to Want Me by Cheap Trick

Chapter One: I Want You to Want Me

Summary: After Lorelai and Christopher's split Lorelai leaves the house while Christopher packs his things. With nowhere to go in the meantime, she goes to the town square to think… Eventually a LL Story, 'cause really, what else is there?

Disclaimer: I do not own anything to do with Gilmore Girls, or Cheap Trick. However I'm doing my best to work on it…I'll keep you updated.

When most people think Lorelai Gilmore, they think "happy, cheerful, witty, and quirky" right? That was the old Lorelai Gilmore. Now when you hear that name its most commonly associated with, "sad, unfortunate, and distant". That's not generally something you want to be associated with. So tonight, she did something about it. She stopped lying to her husband, her daughter, her best friend, and most importantly…herself. Tonight, for the first time in a long time she said how she truly was feeling. She did what she now knows was the right thing. She broke off her marriage. While some might see that as a horrible thing that should take a lot of time to get over anyone that knows Lorelai is silently jumping for joy. Giving her a round of applause for her … achievement.

After sitting for a moment of somewhat uncomfortable silence Christopher, for once in his life said something helpful, "I should go, um, get my stuff."

"Sure, yeah. I'm gonna go out, for…yeah. Okay. You get your stuff. I'll be back in an hour or so," Lorelai said after regaining composure. Wiping her eyes and grabbing her coat, she walked out of her house. Not taking a single look behind her as she went. When she started walking she wasn't exactly sure where she was going, or what she was doing. When she closed the front door behind her she had one of those, 'wait, what the hell just happened?' moments. Before realizing, what she did was for the best. He wasn't happy and in the long run, she wouldn't be either. So, for a minute, she just walked. Straight ahead. No looking back, 'cause there are no regrets.

"Hey sugah! What's goin' on!?" Babbette greeted while Lorelai made her way down the front porch steps, pulling her coat closer to her. Babbette was sitting on her porch nursing a cup of coco enjoying the company of her husband Morey.

"Nothing Babbette, just going for a walk, that's all." Lorelai shouted back, pulling her coat tighter around her. She tried to mask the pain in her voice but Babbette caught on.

"Alright sugah, call me later, kay?"

"Sure, sure." Lorelai nodded her head and began walking down her road. When she finally made it to her destination which she decided was the gazebo, she was forced by her subconscious into tears again. Why me? Why couldn't I have just followed through with something for once? Because it didn't make you happy. She answered herself. Great, now I'm talking and answering myself in my head. Its official, I'm crazy. Lorelai sat in a comfortable silence for a little while. Occasionally folding and unfolding her hands trying to keep herself busy so she doesn't drive herself clinically insane. She was so lost in her thoughts she didn't notice someone walk up the gazebo's steps and sit beside her.

"Hey, you alright?"

"Luke, hi. Yeah," She sniffled, "I'm fine,"

"You're not fine. What happened?" He asked kneeling down in front of her, placing his hand lovingly on her knee.

"Nothing, I swear. Its fine, I'm fine, everything's…fine." She suddenly felt the need to burst into tears again.

"You're not fine. Something's wrong, you're crying and I can see it in your eyes." He gently pulled her chin up to face him, "Lorelai, tell me what's wrong."

"Christopher and I are over."

"So naturally you're upset. Come 'ere." He said, pulling himself up to join her on the bench. She, not knowing what else to do let him embrace her like he did three years ago when she asked for the 30,000-dollar loan to open her Inn.

"That's the weird thing, that's not what I'm upset about. Sure, that's big and not good, and I should be…I don't know, heartbroken! But I'm not. I'm upset because…no, never mind. It's not important."

"If it's making you this upset, it's important. You can trust me Lorelai. You know that."

"I do," She cried, placing her head on his shoulder and in her hands. "I know that now! If I trusted you then, then I wouldn't be in this situation. I'd be happy! I'd be…I'd have my whole package!" She somewhat screamed.

"Okay, calm down and rewind for me. What are you talking about!?" Luke begged for an answer, it wasn't often he was confused when talking to Lorelai Gilmore, but he was rusty, having not had a good in depth conversation with her, in over six months.

"You! Luke, it's always been you! Not Christopher, or whoever. You! I've been lying to you, and Christopher and myself! I just- I can't do that anymore. I love you Luke it's always been you. It'll always be you! Sookie was right, and, and everyone else was right. God, my mother was right!" She spat, running her hands through her hair.

"Lorelai…" Luke reasoned, "you're just upset…"

"No I'm not! Luke, just listen to me. We were talking and-'"

"Who?"

"Christopher and I, we were talking and he said stuff about you and I said 'if it were just feelings, we could fix it, with time' and he said 'but we can't.' See! He knows and I know, now you just…you need to know. It probably can't work now and I know that, but I just, I need you to know that it's you. It'll always be you." Luke said nothing after that. He just sat there, comforting his sobbing friend. "You, Luke…you…" She whispered into his green jacket. Luke still said nothing, just held her close and stroked her hair, just like he did before.

"I'm sorry," Lorelai apologized about an hour later. "I didn't mean to dump all that on you, I shouldn't have…I'm sorry," She got up to leave, but the hand grasping her wrist said otherwise. "Luke, really, I should just go." She said wiping her eyes with her free hand.

"Sit." He commanded almost inaudibly.

"I shouldn't…"

"Lorelai, we should talk…"

I Want You to Want Me

Just so, you all know, these will mostly be short. I have my reasons. And will probably be updated quickly. I don't have any of the other chapters written yet, since this was kind of impromptu but, I know where it needs to go. This should be complete in about 1-2 weeks.

Alaina Rose