Summery "There are some people you're supposed to be able to trust, you know?" Warrick told Nick to let it go, but he had no idea how much Nick needed Catherine's trust.
Rating T-language
Comments Just my take on what might have been going through Nick's head in the last half of last episode.
We can't trust Catherine and we can't trust Keppler.
Can't trust Catherine. Three words I never thought I would have to say. She's my supervisor, my co-worker, my confidant, my friend. And as for Keppler, I hate him. It's all his fault. It was his idea. I haven't hated many people in my life, but I fucking hate Mike Keppler. He waltzes in here acting like he's better then us in his fancy suit, then steels Catherine from us. Because of him, I can't trust Catherine anymore.
We trust you with our lives, Catherine. You could have trusted us with this.
Trust. I trusted Catherine. I always have. I have to. It's just something I have to have in order to maintain my sanity. I just told her that I trust her with my life. Well, a long time ago, I trusted her, her, over anyone else in my life, with my deepest, best-kept secret.
I remember the day I confided in Catherine about that damn babysitter. I told her that there are some people you are supposed to be able to trust. I wonder if she remembers. I wonder if she thought about that when I mentioned trust. I hope she did, that way she will know exactly what she did to me, what she took. I was supposed to be able to trust Catherine, but then she sent me to bull shit cases just to get rid of me so she could go behind my back and tamper with and fabricate evidence, she shut me out, cut me off and flat-out, straight-up lied to my face.
I can sort of see the logic in the whole reversed forensic thing. But what I don' understand is why she had to lie to us, and why she had to be such a bitch about it.
Let it go.
Warrick doesn't get it. He doesn't understand. I don't even understand; it's a complicated situation. He doesn't know why I need Catherine's trust the way I do. He doesn't know what happened to me or that Catherine knows things about me that no one else does. I can't blame him for what he said. But I can't let it go either. It will be a long time before I can trust her, hell, anyone, completely. I can't let it go.
I can't let it go.