I can't believe you would do that to me.
I won't believe it.
I saw it. I saw you let go. I felt you fall, fall, fall, fall into
the river. I felt the pain against your back as you hit the river's
surface. I felt the icy cold water fill your lungs. The blackness, the
death. It hurt me. It hurt me so very much. It still hurts. But you did it.
I saw you.
I saw them lean down to help you. They wanted to help you. But you
let go. I saw you.
Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Why did you leave me like this? You know I can't live without you. I
could barely live with you. You are my life. Were my life. Are my life. And
you know it. Knew it. I can't feel you anymore. You're not with me. I don't
feel grief. I don't feel pain. I don't feel anything. There is nothing to
feel. There is only emptiness. Nothing else. I only felt you. Without you
there is nothing.
No.
There is something.
There is anger.
There is hatred.
I hate them. All of them. The ones who offered their hands. The ones
who weren't there to do so. I hate them all. I hate every single person who
did not stop your fall. Each and every one of them. They are the ones who
killed you. I saw you let go. You meant to let go.
But you didn't mean to die.
You couldn't have meant to die.
I won't believe you could do that to me.
I can't believe it.
They killed you. All of them.
And I shall see them suffer for it.
I shall see them destroyed.
