I think I fell in love the moment I met her.
It was wrong – I'm not going to deny that. I had a wife. I still do.
But some things just can't be helped.
Even though we aren't together now, every time I see her my heart skips a beat. I try to hide it, I really do. I clear my throat and look away and act like nothing ever happened.
But, of course, it did.
She made me feel alive. It was so forbidden, so wrong. Whenever I see that small half smile as she looks at me from the corner of my eye I knew that no other woman can make me feel the same.
It's torture, it really is. To know that you can't have the one thing you want most of the world… well, I never thought it would be this way.
I see her every day. I see her and pretend to be fine, pretend that I made the right decision. Then I go home to my wife, the woman I've sworn myself to. The woman who I know is not my soul mate. She's good to me… she tries so hard to make it work for us. She deserves better than a husband who isn't in love with her. But it is what it is.
"Grey, you are the most stubborn, reckless, crazy woman I've ever met… but I'm in love with you." I remember saying those words to her as if it were yesterday. I was a different man then, maybe. A happier man.
Now it's over… it's been over for some time. I know it will never happen again. We just weren't meant to be. There is no "we" anymore. All I have are the memories.
I have a good life, I know. I'm a world-renowned surgeon. I have a wife who loves me despite my flaws. And I also have a woman I love, a woman I've loved for years, a woman I can't have.
A woman who as I stand next to her, I wish with all my heart I could take her in my arms and never let her go.
A woman who doesn't remember my name.
My name is Richard Webber, and I will love Ellis Grey until the day I die.
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So… what do you think? Did I surprise you:)