My Fallen Angel
Chapter One - The Open Door
By Chaxra-san
This is a XionSaix fic. Xion is mine, so don't steal her! Saix belongs to Disney and Square. Oh how I wish he were mine. The bit in italics at the start is completely made up by me. It's not from a song or anything... Meh. Tifa belongs to Square. Xion's description will come next chapter.
My name is Xion. This is my story.
You reside in the darkness, away from the light that harms you. You think that if you go to it, that it will blind you, drown you forever in your sins. But you hide yourself from the truth. The light that hurts you is also the light that will heal you. Come with me...
We'll go together
Falling forever
Hand in hand
Through the crimson sky.
Wiping away our fears
And all our tears
Stains of the past
Washed away.
No matter how long it takes
We'll wait for the new dawn
That melts the snow away
And sets us free.
Soon I know you'll see
That there is more to this life than darkness
And I know you'll look up and smile at me
Finally unbound from those chains of grief.
XION
I stagger sideways, colliding with the wall. I am still dazed from your attack. But who are you? You're wearing a black cloak, which is very soft. I know this, because for some reason, I'm wearing one too. You have spiky blue hair that reaches your shoulders. You have amber eyes, and an X shaped scar on your forehead. I could have sworn that you have pointed ears as well.
I grope along the wall with one hand, using it to support myself. I am in a tunnel, in a place I don't know. I use my free hand to grip my stomach. I can feel blood oozing through my fingers. I stumble out of the end of that cursed darkness, into the light. It's so bright that I pull my hand away from the wall to cover my eyes. A stupid mistake. I collapse to my knees. I distantly hear someone asking me if I'm okay. It is a man's voice, but it's not yours. Yours is deeper, quieter... colder. I nod my head slightly. "Are you sure?" came the voice again. I nod again.
"Well... Alright then. You look after yourself now," he said. I hear his footsteps moving away. I don't think he could see the blood from my injury against the black of my clothes. I stay there, unmoving. Now the only thing I hear is my breath catching in my throat.
I feel someone pulling me onto their lap. I open my eyes slightly. I'm surprised to see you there, kneeling next to me. I seem to be paralysed now from blood loss. Suddenly you raise your hand. I flinch, fearing that you will hit me, but the blow never comes. Instead, you start stroking my hair. All my thoughts of defiance vanish as I gaze up at your face. A single tear runs down my cheek, and you gently wipe it away.
"You don't have to fight anymore. Just let go of everything," you whisper softly, all traces of hatred gone from your voice.
I shut my eyes again and allow myself to rely on you, as I slide back into the darkness.
I wake and find myself in darkness. I slowly sit up and look around, but I can't see anything at all. Silently I wonder if I had died. I stand up, preparing myself for pain from my wounds. Only, nothing comes, and I touch my stomach carefully. There is no ripped fabric, or slashed skin like before. I discover that I'm not wearing the black cloak I had been; instead I am wearing a dress. You are nowhere in sight.
"Hello?" I call into the space in front of me. There is no answer, and I step forward. As I do so, I realize that I'm standing in water, somehow not sinking. The water lights up under my feet, and the light spreads out, moving outwards in a circle. Beautiful white birds fly away and vanish; yet I don't know where they came from. The water still covers the floor, which has a colourful insignia on it. I know I've never seen it before, but it feels so familiar... I keep walking, until I see a white creature moving towards me out of the corner of my eye. I turn around to face it, half crouching as I glare at the only other sign of life since the birds. It's mouth appears as a zip opens on it's face, and it says, My liege, you have nothing to fear. We will protect you.
I let out a cry of surprise. I can't understand how it can talk to my mind like that. Then the thing moves, sliding forward gracefully on pointed white paws. It raises one arm and silently gestures towards a glass door in front of me. I think it wants me to go past the door. I reach for the handle and turn it. There is a soft click as the door swung open.
I passed through the doorway with my eyes closed, as if I was expecting some kind of attack. I open them again suddenly as a sharp smell of fire enters my nose. I stand staring in horror at the burning house in front of me. It's only then that I remember it as being my childhood home. I pull my gaze away from the terrible sight and I try to go back through the door, but it's locked now. I slowly turn back. A girl staggers forward. I run towards her, and catch her as she falls. We're both on the ground now. I recognize her. She's my younger sister, Tifa Lockhart. There is soot and blood all over her face, and I can see burn marks on her arms.
"Nio... Please don't let me die alone!" Tifa whispers, clutching my sleeve with tears pouring down her face.
I am crying too, and I hug her close to me. The fire races up the grass towards us, and soon the flames envelope us, dancing like messengers of death. Tifa goes limp in my arms then. I stare at her lifeless body with shock. I just sit there, even as the flames flare higher around me. I barely register the fact that they are not hurting me.
Small black shapes start to travel forward and encircle me, their movements jerky and un-coordinated as they begin to chant softly, while their yellow eyes glitter evilly in the glow.
Hearts, hearts, a monster lies there, but only you, only you can it see? Let go, let go of life, deep in sleep, waiting, waiting, for a key? Where is a key hiding? In Kingdom Hearts...? They whisper as they dance.
I don't understand them, nor do I want to. I don't feel anything now.
Something changes inside me. I rise to my feet in one fluid movement, and start to dance with the creatures. It isn't me moving, it's something else, the darkness that had been contained in my heart for so long, now overflowing into my mind. It's taking my soul, twisting it into something that I can't control, but I don't care anymore. All I know is that I want to let the things I'd locked away, forgotten and denied, all out. Somewhere in my mind, a voice tries to stop the invading shadows, but I push it away. I can only hear one voice now, calling to me, telling me to follow.
I start singing in a language I never knew before, and the flames consume everything around me, as my voice rises higher still.
"Lead me into everlasting darkness!" I hear myself say.
A shadowy figure steps forward. It smiles at me and says, My child of darkness, come with me now.
Then it's claws sink into my chest. I scream, but I can't move, and I can only watch as it rips my heart out. I sink to the ground, exhausted.
I can hear screaming distantly. Someone grips my hand, and says, "Shh, it's alright, you're safe now."
I dimly recognize your voice, but I don't know why you told me to be quiet. Now I realize that it was me screaming. I start sobbing, trying in vain to stop the tears flowing from my closed eyes. You prop me up slightly, and a wave of nausea crashes over me. Something cold and wet touches my mouth. It's water, and I drink it, all at once trying to un-dry my throat.
You pull the glass away and say, "Stop or you'll be sick. Now stay there a moment."
You lower me back down onto the bed, and I hear you get up and walk away. The door opens and shuts again. I lie there quietly, gulping mouthfuls of air. I don't open my eyes, I'm afraid that if I do, I'll be in another nightmare.
You come in again, this time with two other people.
"Saix. You said she was awake," says a smooth male voice to my left.
"She is, Vexen," comes your reply.
I wonder, is that your name? Saix?
The one called Vexen moved closer. I hear a clinking sound and then he says to me, "Relax your muscles. It makes it hurt less."
He then sticks something sharp in my arm. I moan and try to move away, but you stop me.
"Hold still," says Vexen irritably.
Finally, after what seems like ages, Vexen pulls the needle out of my arm.
I open my eyes a little bit, and see you on my right, holding my hand. Vexen is somewhere to my left, at a bench. His back is turned to me, but I can see his long dirty blonde hair. The last person steps forward and speaks to me for the first time.
He is taller than you and Vexen, and has tanned skin, and orange eyes. He has long silver hair that is even spikier than yours.
"My name is Xemnas. I am the leader of Organization 13. You are currently staying in our residence at Castle Oblivion. Since you no longer have a heart, you are a Nobody, like us. Will you join us so you can get your heart back?" he asks.
"Yes," I find myself saying.
"Good. You should get some rest," he says and then walks out of the room.
You smile at me and then follow Xemnas.
Vexen simply says, "Welcome."
He then walks away, turns out the light and leaves.
ARGH! That is going to be HELL to print out... Goodness, that took 5 & a half hours to type. Reviews? Be nice, as this is my first first-person story. It will swap around with the alternate views of the other Organization members, mainly Saix. Heh... I'm really evil... HAH, DOOM!! The insignia on the floor is the Nobody sign, at the Station of Serenity. You all remember that, right?