Author: Bethaney
Copyright: 2009
Title Song: Can't Stop The Rain by Jennifer Hudson
Rating: PG
Pairing: Glen/Madison, Madison/Kyla, Spencer/Ashley
27th of January, think he died a year ago today
Screeching tires and broken glass
Loud sirens and bright flashing lights
Rain and muddy puddles
I shake my head to rid it of those thoughts
I can hear the sounds of clapping thunder approaching as I stand here with a bundle of flowers in my hands.
Dark shades cover my wet sunken eyes.
Just over a year ago today and the memory still plays in my mind.
She's crying on my shoulder and begging me to make the hurting go away. Pretty brown eyes. Tears full of guilt. A heart full of pain and fear. I wanna tell her its okay but we both know she's the reason he's not here.
A small shuffle reminds me that I'm not alone and the tears on my shoulder and arm around my waist really aren't doing much to comfort me.
Faded picture in a little gold locket, and she never takes it off.I know it's small but it's heavy 'cus it's filled with the guilt of knowing she's why his life is lost
She has her gold pendant clutched tightly in her palm.
The one that HE gave her.
I glance at her young hands and she shakes while running her fingers over the pictures inside.
One of our "family," the Carlins, Davies & Duartes.
One big happy family.
Until...never mind.
The other picture is of my HE.
Glen Carlin.
I was so in love and he was my world.
Smiling that brilliant smile that could make your heart melt in an instant.
I feel bad for her, but I'm having mixed emotions 'cus he was a friend of mine. Somewhere in the deepest darkest part of my mind I wish it was her that died that night
She took that from me.
She killed him
She's the reason he's no longer here and my heart breaks a little more everyday not being with him.
I just wish that maybe it could have been someone else
Anyone else
Why him?
One rainy Saturday night, a happy anniversary
It all happened the night of Spencer and Ashley's 3rd anniversary.
They had a little too much to drink
They got in the car, and he could barely stand up
So she figured that she'd drive.
We had all been drinking and celebrating the happy couple. It was the best night of my life. I was with the man I loved with all of our family around having a good time, laughing and joking. None of us were in any condition to drive but Kyla was the most stable and a good drunk driver by all standards.
Staring at him I suppose, a sudden jerk of the wheel, and the car flipped about three times
The roads were slippery so we had the music down low and sang soothing tunes while we rode.
Glen had just passed out and Kyla turned to give him a nudge.
One wrong glance at and everything went black.
If I could, you know I would but the try would be in vain.
I can't stop the rain
Feeling a body shiver next to brings me back out of my memory.
I hate days like this because I know that the rain terrifies her.
Times like this I find her shaking and crying in dark, quiet, places with no windows and music up too loud trying to drown out the sounds of rain drops and thunder.
As the clouds darken I know she has nowhere to hide.
We're standing boldly in the rain.
She's left here watching his grave and facing her fears.
A year ago and this is her first time visiting him.
I've been watching her, watching him and she has yet to look me in the eyes.
With every single tear drop, it's like another raindrop falls.
No matter what I do, I can't stop the rain.
Tearfully Kyla turns and one look into her eyes and I fall apart.
So I cry...
"Thank you Madison, for everything." I give her a small smile and now soaking wet we say our last goodbyes and head home wrapped in each other's warmth.