Blades, Guns, and Lipstick Intro
When I wasn't paying attention he took over my life. I soon found myself stuck on a dark path, and worse thing was no one was there with me. I felt sad and cold towards everyone who tried to help me. I wasn't sure what to do. He made me do what he wanted. I felt useful. I soon understood that you can hurt the ones you love, and I did. I hurt my sister Torrie and my uncle Bruce. I lost my friends. I lost Harvey and Rachel. I took lives of the innocent, and the not so innocent. I killed my friends. They trusted me. I did all of this and I went insane as soon as it ended. It was over.
When it started, I was very normal. I had short black hair and green eyes. I had a family who didn't want me to be locked up in a mental hospital for the rest of my days. I changed my fate and switched the way my boat was sailing. I found blades, guns, and lipstick through the path I picked. I washed my hands with their blood. I can still hear them scream in my head. The non-stop cry of "Don't!" or "Please don't kill me." is heard everytime I wake up or sleep. I don't get a break.
I'm always on fire, and thats because I'm angry. So are they. Torrie was messed up thanks to me. I wanted to bleach her mind from the pain of it all. Bruce would have said it was a great idea but it won't work. He found it easy just to dump me aside even if he is...was my uncle. I wanted to end my life when it was over. It was always going to be over. I saw to much and now my soul is praying to keep me in God's favor. Torrie would had laugh at my insane ways, but the man who made me this way wouldn't. He would of thought I was like him in every single detail. I always look at my arms since his name is on them. The Joker was painted in my blood back then, and it wouldn't bug me. I can't go back to those days since it'll kill the rest of Torrie's heart. She is so upset with me and she wants me to come home to say sorry. I'm trying to make it all better slowly, so it'll take awhile to get to her wanted sorry.
When it was school time it was my time. Magical powers making me go around and around until I couldn't stop. My brain was always on a high and my eyes making the world darker, dimmer, and lamer than it was. I had no fun in my old life until he came along and made me part of him. I may have joined freely, but that was because I was dumb and foolish. I'm sure he'll kill me when he sees me again. I hope he does. I deserve it, and its true since I killed all those people laughing and what not. I'm sorry that my life was ruined because of every single thing I did was what he said to.
When we got caught the first time we got away, and so did Lau. He didn't die thanks to me and Torrie. I wonder if he thinks about her like I always do, but not in the like like way but the family way. When we got the money, we were on a high. We just had to get Bruce to take off his bat mask, but Torrie had to stop me in order to get me sane again. They gave me a lot of shiny pills but sometimes it doesn't work, and that was it. It didn't make me feel any better or worse, but the same. The Joker forced the pills down into his mouth by making me force it, but after that he would beat me almost to death. I'm so crazy since I stayed with him even if he did that to me.
Blood was something that I hated before hearing about him. I first saw him fighting Bruce one night before school. He captured my mind and then used me against all of the odds as his playing card. I recieved tons of note cards from him during my time at school. All of them the same lipstick mark was on it. My friends divorced me and I became the frozen in time girl. I lost myself in a storm that couldn't blow over.
This is how my story begins, and this is how it ends. I want to erase it all from my mind so I must share it with the others so it may happen.