Confused
(A confession to oneself)
It's been months and I have done nothing
We held hands today yet it meant nothing
I don't want her
I want her to want
I can't understand it
I promised myself this would never happen
That I won't fall for this
But I did
And am still falling
I want this to stop
This can't be
Yet I still look for her
Wishing she was looking for me
Sometimes our glances would meet
Then for some reason I'd always look away
Ashamed of her finding out
I don't talk to her
Worried she might notice
But I do all that I can for her to notice
Yet all of this is nothing we are nothing
There is no…
And it drives me crazy that she isn't
Not about me
And I in this fragile state
Do everything
All over again
Everyday
Waiting
For her