Jacob POV

"You're marrying him?" I look at her in disbelief. She looks up quickly.

"Jake I…" Her voice trails off. She stands still for a moment and then looks accusingly at him.

"You knew he was listening!"

"He deserves to know." The leech murmurs softly. I turn around and start walking away. Away. That's where I want to go. I try to ignore the searing pain in my chest, but it's impossible. Yesterday, just yesterday I thought I might have a chance. All hope is lost now. She is marrying the leech. He's going to turn her into a bloodsucking freak. I refuse myself to cry. Not now. I storm through the woods as she calls my name.

"Jake please!" She pleads. I turn around to face her. Her face is drawn and crumpled.

"I'm done." I'm surprised to find my voice even and strong. "I'm so done!"

"Wha-what can I do?" Her voice is so infinitely sad it breaks my heart again to hear it. But I won't be fooled. As soon as she convinces me to stay she'll run right back into the arms of her precious little bloodsucker.

"You can't do anything!" I clench my fists and try to make myself calm down. Even if she doesn't choose me I could never hurt her. I'd never forgive myself. I love her too much.

"But I can. By going out there and killing something!"

"No, don't do that! Just calm down, you're not thinking clearly!" She looks franticly at me.

"Or maybe I'll just get myself killed and make it simple for you." She takes a quick step towards me.

"No just…" She struggles to find the right words. "Jake, stay!" Her voice is strong, but I can see through her mask so easily.

"Why?" I take a few big steps towards her. "Give me one good reason!" I need to hear her say it. I'm standing so close I can hear her heartbeat. The heartbeat that will about a month from now be quiet.

"Because I don't want to lose you!" I see how she is struggling to not have to say those three words I want her so desperately to say. I shake my head slightly.

"That's not good enough" I stand still.

"Because you're too important!" I look at her, and for the third time my heart breaks. She won't admit it.

"Still not good enough." I turn around and walk away. I feel the tears pricking at the corner of my eyes, but I manage to keep them in. Why can't she just admit she loves me? Even if she chooses him she could still give me something to hold on to. Just the fact that she does love me would be enough.

"Jacob!" Her voice is so full of despair and hurt that I can't will myself to keep walking. I stop, but I don't turn around. One look at her face and I might change my mind.

"Kiss me!" The words take me by surprise. I turn and look at her in disbelief. Her voice was so desperate that it might just be a temporary solution until she finds something else to say, but I can't ignore her request.

"I'm asking you, to kiss me." Her voice is much more collected now. She looks meaningly at me and I take three long steps up to her. I gently grab her waist and look into her eyes for confirmation. She gives a slight nod and I lean in and kiss her deeply.

BPOV

As he leans in to kiss me I feel my heart racing. The kiss is so unlike any other I've had with Edward. Edward's kisses are always careful, but at the same time very urgent. Jacob's lips are soft and warm. It seems as if though he has all the time in the world, only he wants to make the most of it. He kisses me deeply and softly while his hands pushes my body tighter against his. I feel something stirring deep inside me. It's a feeling I have never experienced before. A warmth that has nothing to do with Jakes body temperature spreads through my body. I never want this kiss to end. Something deep inside me is also telling me that this is wrong, that I need to stop, that I'm hurting Edward, but I push it away. For once I don't want to think about consequences or repercussions. I enjoy the extreme heat radiating from his muscular body. Far too soon Jacob breaks the kiss.

"I have to go." I gaze longingly as he disappears down the mountain. A cold wind brings me back to reality. I turn back to the tent while trying to figure out what to say to Edward, if I should say anything at all. I think the thought that I have forbidden myself to think: I love Jacob. It seems rather simple now that I form the thoughts in my mind. I love him, and not just as a friend. But my pressing question remains: Who do I love the most? And I know the answer to that too. But I don't dare to think it. As soon as I break through trees to the clearing and I see Edward's face I see that he knows.

"You saw?" My voice is breaking.

"No but, Jacobs thoughts are very loud." He gives me a half-hearted attempt at a smile, but it only hurts me.

"I don't know what happened." It's true. I have no idea.

"You love him." He looks sadly at me. I know that he wants me to deny it, or say that I still choose him, but I can't. He waits for me to say something and when I remain quiet I see his heart break. All the pain flickers by his face in the blink of an eye, and then his face has the same blank expression as before, only this time his eyes are hollow. That's the thing with Edward; he doesn't get mad. He becomes hollow, which is much worse.

"I'm sorry." Is all I can say. I have some explaining to do.