Chapter 1

I now know why Mom and 'Uncle' Derek don't want me to be near Cameron. Why Mom doesn't want Cameron to walk around without clothes. Why Derek hates Cameron especially. What no one knows is that day when I ran out without breakfast, after seeing Mom sign over her rights to me, I came back. I've learned from my years alive that nothing is guaranteed and no one is ever safe. I wanted to apologize to Mom and tell her I love her but before I entered through the kitchen door, I could hear Derek and Cameron talking through the open window. Cameron liked to leave the window open because it helped her be alerted quicker to anyone approaching the house.

"I guess you're not hungry either." Derek said, sarcastically. I looked through the window, surreptitiously, to see Cameron pull her plate of pancakes to her, cut and eat a bite, then push her plate away. Derek deadpanned. Silence filled the room but it was tense.

"You may fool them but you don't fool me. I know you." He hatefully spat out. His eyes looked insane.

"I know you, too." Cameron said quietly but without fear. Silence filled again and instead of going inside, I turned and ran towards school. I looked back to see Cameron following me at a distance, as always, alert.

That conversation had me thinking. Who is Cameron? What is she? She's a terminator yes. But she's not a normal terminator. Why would my future-self send her back to me? Why this model? And most of all, why can't I see her as a machine?

Now I know. When my father, Kyle Reese, came to the past to impregnate my mother, he told her something future-me forbade him from telling Mom.

Mom saw me look at Cameron with longing. Well what did she think was going to happen? Cameron is the most beautiful, sexy woman I have ever seen. She would do anything for me and despite knowing that inside she has a computer chip, I long for her. I even think I may be falling in love with her. She's the only thing normal and stable in my whole life. My own mother signed over her rights for me and while I've forgiven her and I know her reasons, it still hurts. But Cameron would never turn on me. She even told me how to kill her. I know how but I know I never could. Being around her as built up a good deal of UST in my system and every time no one is looking, I get to look at her like I always want to look at her. When Mom is out, I watch Cameron get undressed and dressed and in the shower. I'm pretty sure Cameron knows but she never says anything and sometimes I think she puts on a show for me. Anyway Mom caught me. She came into my room later that night, and asked me what the hell I thought I was doing. I just stuttered and tried to come up with an excuse. Mom just sighed.

"I knew this would happen." Mom looked resigned. Apparently I looked confused because Mom continued on. "I didn't believe Kyle when he said you would fall in love with a terminator. I didn't think you would be that stupid. But now I see, nothing I did could have stopped this."

I was shocked to say the least. Mom not only admitted defeat and spoke of my father but her words, her words, I couldn't even describe them.

"So…You're not mad at me?" I asked timidly. I wanted assurance that what I felt wasn't wrong.

"No. Cameron is not an ordinary terminator. There's something you should know." She paused. "You build her from a human. After Judgment Day, you and your team were trying to find ways to save what was left of humanity. You were doing experiments to make some weapon that could defeat Skynet and it's monster terminators. One of your resistance fighters brought back a woman he found. No one knew who she was or how she came to be out there. She was severely hurt and was weaving in and out of consciousness. When she was awake, she didn't remember anything about herself and her life. Nobody thought she would live. Then you, who can't stand to see people die without doing something, thought up a way to save her and that could help our side. You spent five days in a surgery room replacing her skeleton and her body parts that had given up. Her heart was still working but you designed a way that she didn't need it. She still had her digestive system but since she was more terminator then human, she didn't need to eat. Halfway through, her brain crashed. She was brain-dead. So you tossed your team out and holed up in there. Nobody knows what happened in that room except your future-self. But when you came out, Cameron came with you. She had a human brain, she could feel emotions and physical pain, but it was enhanced and rebuilt to be similar to a terminator. She was the first half-human, half-terminator to be build. She obeyed you because she wanted to. You showed others the way to do mechanize others and you build a small army with that knowledge, an army that could fight against Skynet but that wouldn't turn on you, who would feel. You jokingly called them Humanators. I don't know how you did so you're going to have to figure out how to on your own.

Kyle also told me that Cameron and you became very close. That caused a bit of an uproar among some of the fighters. They believed that she would turn like the others. They trusted you to not say anything but when it became clear that you and Cameron were in a relationship, people thought you were letting your emotions get in the way of your logic. It settled down when you made others and the 'Humanators' proved that they wouldn't turn, that they were human in how they viewed things and how they acted. Kyle didn't know that John would send Cameron to us. I thought I could show you how horrible terminators were, to put you off Cameron. I thought I had more time. Then Cameron showed up and there was nothing I could do. Derek knew what was going to happen between you and Cameron in the future. He hates all terminators, not just Cameron. All he sees is the terminator side of her and I guess I'm the same. I don't like it, but I'm letting you make your own choices. Don't do anything too horrible and try not to show it in front of Derek or myself, if you can. I'll let you rest now. Goodnight."

And just like that, she walked out of my room. It was a lot to digest. Cameron was human. Future-me just replaced some things. Nothing would have changed my feelings but that knowledge took a weight off my shoulders. I lay on my back, thinking of how to go about telling Cameron. This took place up to about 20 minutes ago. I'm still lying here. I don't know how much time passed before a knock came at the door.