This is a fanfic I wrote when a person very close to me died…He was my best male friend. And I can say that maybe I was in love with him, that's why I felt a bit…Lost and destroyed when he went away….I guess Sora felt this way in this fanfiction….
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Yamato….I can't forget you, anata…You and me have been friends for so many years…Then we felt in love with each other and became a couple. But one day, you had to leave, ne? You went on a tour with the Teenage Wolves for your live concerts…I was so sorrowful back then, anata…Sorrowful and I felt lonely all the time. Then, the day you came back, when you were on your way from the airport to our place, you had an accident. A car crash. Just a few moments, an explosion and…..Just a few seconds were enough to take you away from me. You died. And I felt even more lost and alone, anata….My heart instantly went stonecold. My blood stopped running and froze. I felt broken and abandoned…I lost my whole world, and I couldn't feel anything good anymore. I had nothing to support me back then. You were the one to give me strength and will to live. You have been everything to me. Now that you're gone, I can't live. I have no reason. So I committed suicide. When they will find my dead body lying next to your grave, these words are written on a paper in my frozen hand. Written with my cold, yet affectionate blood…..
Just try to find a color
To reflect deep sorrow
When two hearts are apart
They are lost
When two souls have been friends for so many years
And fallen in love
And then death takes one away…
…This is my story…
We were both lost and lonely
But when we found each other
We felt happy
These colors reflected happiness
Green, orange, pink, yellow, blue, red, silver and purple
Last year you've gone away
You promised that you'll be with me
…Your spirit was, and that matters
Even though your body wasn't
Your soul was here
And that's what I cared for
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But now, after yesterday,
You are not here anymore, anata
Watashi no kokoro is broken
Not your body, neither your soul
Nothing is here with me anymore
I miss your blue eyes
Your soft voice whispering next to me
"I will always be here with you"
That was a promise, anata
But you died
You didn't keep your promise…
Did you miss me anata?
I'm coming
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I finished. I feel so lost….This friend died yesterday, but still, I managed to find the courage to write down my feelings, form them in a poem and then transform it a bit so it could be this story you're reading. So much sorrow in just a human heart….I want to do the same thing Sora did. But luckily I still have my best friend to keep me alive. If something happens to her, I don't know if I will be able to bear this pain…..