chapter 1 – I Love You

10/10/10

Wake up
I have been waiting for you
to open your eyes
So that I can tell you

that I think I'm ready
I'm ready to freefall into
into the unknown
if you wanna be with me

Dave Lichen – Let Go

5 weeks it's been...5 weeks since the car/train crash, 5 weeks since that dramatic night the four men had to go through and 5 weeks since Jackson had been laying in hospital. Day by day week by week people surrounded Jacksons bed Aaron, Hazel, Paddy, Chas, Sol, Adam hoping and praying that some light will shine on him that any minute now his big brown eyes would just be staring up at them with that cheeky smile across his face. But it seemed too much to ask for as it had already been 5 weeks since the crash and there was no improvement in Jackson's condition. Aaron was beside his self, filled with worry guilt and anger. Blaming his self, of course he would blame his self his stupid childish behaviour he kept thinking.

'' If I paid Mickey when I was meant to none of this would have happened! me and Jackson wouldn't have fallen out! ... We wouldn't have been at bar west that night... We would of more than likely been at home... in our bed... together'' he kept thinking to himself. He was so scared of losing Jackson he couldn't think how he would cope without him, would I even want to cope without him? He kept asking himself. He felt so helpless he wanted to do more for Jackson do more to help Jackson come round to open his eyes... to smile. But All Aaron could do was sit by his side and hold his hand telling him that he is here for him and that he will get better, praying he would get better.

Everyone else had walked away from the crash with minor injuries why did it have to be Jackson Aaron kept saying to himself ''why did it have to be the man I'm in love with'' shocking himself when he thought of Jackson like that. It was the first time Aaron had actually realise how he actually feels for Jackson which in one way was a relief for him but on the other hand made him angry. Relieved that he could actually have his finger on how he feels for his boyfriend but angry that he had now finally found his love for Jackson, after 3 months of digging deep he'd finally found love for the man that laid in front of him but he couldn't tell him how he felt because of the sate Jackson was in.

Paddy was rather proud of the way Aaron was handling the situation. He was so proud of how much time Aaron would spend at the hospital. He hardly spent any time at home, He hardly eat anything. By him doing these things would mean him not being with Jackson and even known everyone knew how hot headed Aaron could get at times paddy especially he was dealing with this the best way he could but of course he did have his moments. Moments of guilt, Moments of worry thinking his boyfriend won't make it and moments or pure and outer anger. But he was there for Jackson day in day out by his side which made hazel so proud and happy.

He was like a rock to hazel over the last several weeks even know they have never seen eye to eye they both loved Jackson both cared for him and they were the most important 2 people in Jackson's life. The last 5 weeks had been heartbreaking for hazel seeing her son her only son laying in front of her almost lifeless no movement what so ever if broke her heart. When she wasn't at the hospital she would be out buying bits for Jackson or spending some time with Ashley even know she wasn't a very religious person she was praying everyday for her beautiful son to wake from his coma.

Aaron and hazel was the two fixtures in the hospital, hazel would joke ''were part of the furniture up here Aaron'' trying to get the odd smile out of Aaron which was a struggle. She had grown so much trust and love in Aaron they really had connected over the last couple weeks shame Jackson wasn't awake to see them too she would say to herself. Every night they would take it in turns to stay the night as Jackson couldn't be left alone in their eyes. They wanted either one of them to be there when he woke up. It was Aarons turn to stay that night he went to go get a cuppa and couple car mags to pass the time while leaving hazel to say her goodbyes. Hazel looked over her boy leaning forward to give him a big kiss on his forehead and then she would say the same thing every night "Love u boy, see you tomorrow try and wake up for me".

Aaron returned to the room just as hazel was leaving giving her a brief cuddle and promising like every night that he would ring if there was any change. Even know they said that to each other every night they hadn't ever had to ring one another there was never anything to report back to each other. There was never any change.

But tonight...

***Would just like to say i am planing on taking this story further. Taking the story into the new year and flashbacks into J & A's relationship. This is my first story and my first time writtin so please note that, i'm n expert just trying my best :P loool. Reviews would be brillant thanks :)***