"Your God."

Aishi-chan

I still wear the cross you gave me.

Your words I will forever hear in my head.

I still don't believe in a merciful, forging, God.

How could I? Tell me.

He toke you both away from me.

I really do love angels,

But I'm sick of my loved ones becoming them.

I need someone to love.

Who is more then a painful memory.

I still love you, don't get me wrong.

Not a day goes by that I don't long to see you.

Sometimes I wonder if you'd still love me.

I have become Shinigami.

I fight for freedom.

I fight to spare others from my pain.

I know you preached understanding, love, forgiveness.

But how can I forgive people who destroy churches?

People who are willing to destroy entire colonies?

People who want to destroy peace we have all suffered for?

Please tell me because I don't known.

I once heard someone say

" There are people who words will not touch."

I believe them now.

Will your God forgive me?

Will your God save my crying soul?

I'm not so sure.

Someday I will see you again.

Even if I have to fight your God.

I WILL say goodbye.

I WILL say I love you.

I WIL say all the things I never got a chance to say.

One day…. One day.

I SWEAR IT!