Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters…Stephenie Meyer does…I just love playing with them!

A/N: This idea came to me while writing These Dreams. This is a two chapter short story describing what could have happened if Jasper didn't have control over his emotions during Chapter 13. The first couple paragraphs are a wrap-up, or review, if you will, of the story up until this point. If you do not like the idea of Bella and Jasper getting it on…then this two-shot is NOT for you.

Additional A/N: I pulled this two shot a while ago and thought that those of you that liked "These Dreams" would like to read it, if you already haven't. I haven't given up on "Devil In Disguise," in fact I am currently working on a very pivotal chapter. RL is kicking my butt, and although I know you don't want to hear excuses…life is what it is right now and writing has been taking a back seat. I'm trying to find my inspiration again, and hope that you will be patient while you wait. So here is something to hold you over…

WARNING…LEMON AHEAD!

Chapter 1?-Heaven on Earth

JPOV

I wandered through the forest behind my home and my mind wandered back to the events of the past two weeks. Bella had stumbled back into my life. After three years of roaming the United States and other countries on my own, she had found me, teaching a Civil War Class for college freshmen in Seattle, Washington. At first she had run away, the pain of seeing me too much for her to bare, and being the selfish creature I was, I had followed her scent to her modest apartment to beg her forgiveness for nearly killing her three years earlier.

She had graciously accepted my apology and our friendship had grown by leaps and bounds ever since.

I had to admit having Bella in my house felt natural. I felt more at ease around her than I probably should have. When we first met, I had to hunt nearly every day to even be around her, let alone the other humans we associated with at Forks High. Now I barely noticed the burning in my throat when she was near me. I had come a long way, and if I was being honest, I was proud of myself for it.

As I ran to my hunting grounds, the events of the past couple of days played themselves out in my mind. The last person I had expected to be living across the street from Bella was Irina. Then to find out that she was keeping a watchful eye on her for Victoria was just too much for me to handle. This revelation had sparked new meaning to my dead life. I had a purpose…to protect Bella no matter what the cost. I would keep her safe.

The sweet smell of deer caught my attention and I immediately moved into hunter mode. I let my senses take over and before I knew it, I had drained three deer. I looked up in the sky and realized that I had been gone for at least two hours. I felt uneasy leaving Bella alone for one minute let alone two hours, especially considering the situation she was in.

I laughed at the change my life had made in a few short weeks. I never thought I would ever be the type of being that would be protecting a fragile human girl; but Bella had somehow let me back into her life and I was going to do everything in my power to keep myself there.

I ran swiftly through the dense woods near my home, listening for her heartbeat to reach my ears. It was just before daylight and I was hoping she was peacefully asleep.

Just before I reached my home, I felt a wave of despair emanating from the window on the second floor…Bella's room.

I jumped up to the balcony and quietly opened the sliding glass door. Bella lay on her side, her face contorted in pain.

"Please don't leave me!" she cried.

Her voice startled me. I knew from Edward that she talked in her sleep, but I had never experienced it for myself. She rolled to her other side while kicking her feet under the covers.

She was having a nightmare…about Edward…about all of us…leaving her.

I soaked up her despair like a sponge. It was excruciatingly painful. I didn't realize someone could feel this much pain. My heart broke for her.

Without thinking, I silently moved toward her and brushed the hair away from her face. I radiated as much calmness as I could accumulate as I gently stroked her hair. I had to control my own emotions as I realized the pain we had caused this poor human girl.

I felt her lean into my touch and immediately she quieted down. After a few moments, I got up to leave and

I felt her gently grab my hand.

"Stay," she whispered. "Don't leave…please?"

I was sure she had awakened, but her steady and slow beating heart along with her smooth rhythmic breathing told me otherwise.

Her grip on my hand wasn't tight - I knew I could leave if I wanted to; but I felt like I would be helping her more by staying where I was.

I moved over to the empty side of the bed and pulled the comforter from the end of the bed over her shoulders. She shivered as she snuggled her back into my chest. I used the comforter as a barrier between us as I continued throwing waves of calm at her.

Her breathing was steady and calm and soon she drifted into a deep sleep.

As I held her sleeping form, my thoughts drifted toward the changes my life had taken over the past few years. I had left Alice with the intention of going back, but after three years, I was finding it difficult to find a reason to return to her. I loved her; I just wasn't so sure that I was in love with her any longer. I knew that vampires mated for life, but if they found their life mate, did they ever question the love for them the way I did? Would a true soul mate be able to up and leave and not look back like I had? Those were questions that I couldn't answer.

I looked at Bella lying so peacefully beside me as she continued to sleep. I never would have thought that I would ever be able to lie next to her without having to fight my natural senses to drink and kill. I could see the slight pulse on her neck as she breathed, and I wasn't tempted. I needed her in my life more than I needed her blood. I smiled as I realized what a milestone this was for my control.

I propped myself on my elbow while I gently tucked her closer to me so I could get a better view of her face.

God! She was beautiful. Her skin was porcelain white with a hint of rose to her checks, her lips were full and red, and if I was being honest with myself, I'm sure very kissable. I had never kissed a human girl before and I found that my curiosity was peaked. What would it be like to kiss her? I desperately wanted to find out. Did she feel the same about me as I had begun to feel about her?

She couldn't hide her feelings from me. I knew she cared for me, I only questioned how much. She felt comfortable around me. We had spent nearly every evening together since my apology. I craved her company as much as she craved mine. I became aware of the fact that I could very easily be in love with her.

Bella rolled over and buried her face in my chest as she began to wake up. I stiffened from her movement and held my breath. The burn in my throat didn't bother me, but the emotions coming off her now were far from innocent. I realized that I had affected her emotions with my own. She took a deep breath and moaned.

"Bella?" I whispered. My hand gently stroked her long brown tresses and her scent surrounded me. The venom pooled in my mouth and I swallowed it down. I would not hurt her. I willed the monster away.

"Hmmm..?" Bella moaned as she slowly opened her eyes. I pulled away slightly so I could see her beautiful brown eyes as she struggled to wake herself up.

"Jasper?" she said with confusion swimming around her.

"It's okay," I soothed, sending relaxing waves at her. "You were having a nightmare and I came to check on you. You asked me to stay…I couldn't say no." The last comment was barely a whisper as it left my lips.

"It's okay. It feels nice…like home," she said quietly as she snuggled back into my chest.

She was right, it did feel nice. She was warm and soft and seemed to mold herself perfectly to my body. She just fit. I felt an attraction toward her that I hadn't known existed before. The feeling I was having threatened to overwhelm me, as she gently pulled back and looked into my soul with her smoldering eyes.

"Jasper," she asked timidly, "what's happening?"

I was sure she could feel my emotions swim around us and I struggled to separate her feelings from my own. I felt her apprehension to what was happening but at the same time, I could feel the want begin to overtake the apprehension as her breathing picked up. Her heart was beating terribly fast and I knew that I needed to calm her before her heart leapt from her chest.

"Bella, I want to try something," I said with bated breath throwing waves of calm over her.

She didn't move or take her eyes off mine. I felt her body stiffen slightly and I thought twice about what I was about to do. Ultimately my curiosity got the best of me and I lowered my lips to hers. The initial shock that I felt from her at first was quickly replaced by a strong passion that I had never felt before.

Her lips were more than soft, they were heavenly. I kissed her softly, not wanting to scare her, but at the same time, I longed to deepen the kiss and taste her. I no longer craved her blood, I craved her body as the desire I felt for her escaped the control I so desperately needed to hang on to.

I pulled away, missing the contact immediately. "Bella, please tell me to stop because I don't know if I can on my own."

She responded by grabbing the back of my head pulling my mouth to hers again. I could have stopped her - I should have stopped her, but I didn't want to. I felt her desire swirl around me and I wanted more.

She pressed her body to mine and my body responded immediately. I pressed my throbbing erection against her hip as I grabbed her leg and hitched it at my waist to allow closer contact.

My tongue swept across her bottom lip begging the kiss to deepen. Her lips parted and my cool tongue moved into her mouth and tasted her sweetness. As soon as her warm tongue touched mine, a growl rumbled from deep within my core and the vibrations only intensified the longing I felt from her. She wanted me as much as I wanted her.

My hands, which up until this point had rested gently on the small of her back, suddenly had other plans. I needed to touch every part of her. I craved her warmth. I could feel the heat radiating off her body through her thin cotton shirt. I gently rubbed small circles along her spine while I continued exploring her mouth. I moved my hands and swept my fingers along the side of her breast, eliciting a sound I so desperately needed to hear again.

I didn't need to breathe but I soon realized she needed to as her heart began to slow down rather quickly. I pulled away allowing her to catch her breath. "Breathe, sweetheart," I drawled, my southern roots coming through.

She gasped, trying to get oxygen back into her lungs, and looked at me with lust-filled eyes. Her cheeks flamed red and she looked away.

"Look at me, Bella," I whispered. I needed to see her eyes again. I wanted to see into her soul while I felt her passion mix with my own. "Don't be embarrassed." She lifted her face and looked at me again. My hand stopped moving and rested gently against her side. I looked at her and pushed my emotions to the surface. I wanted her to feel how strongly I felt for her. How much I needed her…how much I loved her.

I felt fear mixed with love, lust and longing coming from her the minute she felt my emotions.

"Are you afraid of me?" I asked quietly, hoping I was reading her wrong.

"No," she replied placing her warm hand on my chest. "Not of you, I'm afraid of not knowing how to please you. I'm not a virgin, but...," her voice trailed off as the blush rose across her face again.

Her candidness shocked me. I knew that she and Edward had never consummated their relationship because of his fear of hurting her, but I hadn't realized that she wasn't still pure. I had assumed that she had not experienced the physical part of a relationship. I realized in an instant it didn't matter…I really wanted to share my love with her.

"Bella, I care so much about you," I said hiding my true feelings for her. "If you're unsure for any reason, we can stop. I don't want you to be afraid; I won't hurt you."

"I don't want to stop. What do you feel from me, Jasper? Do you feel that I am unsure of continuing?"

"No," I replied quietly.

"Then kiss me, Jasper. Touch me…I want to feel you. Tell me what to do to please you."

"You don't have to do anything but let me love you," I answered as I brought my mouth back down to hers, my passion for her coming off me in waves.

My hands moved down to her waist feeling the sliver of skin between her shirt and shorts. I gently pushed the shirt up relishing the feel of her smooth skin on my fingertips. Bella broke the kiss grabbing the bottom of her shirt and whipping it up and over her head in one smooth motion before kissing me again.

Her fingers stumbled as she attempted to unbutton my shirt. Not stopping the kiss I grabbed the sides of the shirt and forcibly shredded the shirt from my body, sending buttons and material flying around the room.

"Anxious are we?" she chuckled, catching a quick breath of air.

"You have no idea," I replied pulling her warm body against my cool chest.

She gasped as my coolness touched her but she didn't shy away. Instead her hands began exploring my torso, her gentle fingers touching the scars covering every inch of it. I instantly stiffened, pulling away from her touch. Shame coursed through me.

She placed her hand back on my chest right where my heart would be and tapped her finger until I looked into her eyes. "You are beautiful. Don't pull away from me. When you are comfortable you can tell me how you got these," she spoke as she gently outlined the scars under her fingers. "Please…Jasper…" her voiced pleaded.

Who was this woman? Never in my life had I encountered someone so loving and caring. All of my shame melted away as she continued to trace my scars.

As I relished her touch, I felt her gently push on me forcing me to lie on my back. She sat up and looked at me through her lashes before she dipped her head to my chest to kiss every scar she found. If I thought feeling her lips on mine was intoxicating, having her lips on my body was pure ecstasy. My hands grabbed the sheets covering the bed and dug in tearing the fabric. Each kiss she planted on me was healing every wound from battle. Her love filled me up, healing me from the inside out.

My hand found their way to her sides again and began exploring her body while she continued kissing my scars. My cool thumb gently grazed her nipple immediately causing it to harden.

"Mmmm," Bella moaned sending vibrations through her lips to my chest. That one innocent moan was my undoing.

I quickly rolled her over and attacked her breasts with my lips. Her skin tasted sweeter than honey as my tongue flicked one of her hard nipples sending shivers down her spine. While my icy tongue played with one breast my hand found the other, kneading and rolling her nipple with my cool fingers.

"Unnggh," she moaned as her body began to thrash from side to side. "That feels so good." She closed her eyes and her lips parted as her breathing became more labored.

I lifted my face and kissed her full on the lips. My tongue didn't ask for permission this time. My passion was taking over as I forced my cold tongue into her mouth deepening the kiss. Her hands grabbed my shoulders and pulled so that my chest was resting on hers. God! She felt so good. I had to keep reminding myself that she was human and I needed to be careful with my touching.

I leaned to the side to allow my hand to move down her waist to the band of her shorts. I broke our kiss and looked at her, pleading with my eyes to allow me to go further. The blush on her checks and the slight nod of her head was all the permission I needed to slowly move my hands to the top of her shorts and quickly peel them and her dark blue panties off her hips and down her long silky legs.

As I discarded the last of her clothing I looked at the woman lying naked on the bed. My breath caught in my throat as I murmured, "Exquisite."

Bella looked at me shyly and whispered, "You have too many clothes on."

Bella quickly sat up and grabbed the waistband of my jeans attempting to get the offending pants off of me. Once again my impatience got the best of me and before she could register what was happening, I had ripped the pants clean off leaving only my tented boxers behind.

She looked down when she realized what had happened and her mouth dropped. Pride coursed through me as I noticed her looking at my very erect member. "Like what you see?" I moaned, sex seeping from every syllable.

She shyly nodded her head while she bit her lower lip.

Slowly and without taking my eyes from hers, I slipped my boxers down my legs and stepped out of them.

She lowered her eyes and proceeded in drinking me in. I crawled over her and gently pressed myself against her body, feeling every inch of her fiery skin against mine. I was in heaven.

I kissed her softly on the lips and moved my fingers to the waiting juncture between her legs. I slipped my fingers along her folds, feeling the wetness pool around them. "Mmmm," I moaned softly in her ear.

"You're so wet." I kissed her below her ear and continued my descent down her neck planting kisses along the way. "I want to taste you…" I whispered on her shoulder.

"Can you do that?" she asked innocently as I continued kissing my way down her body.

"Oh, yes, sweetheart…"

When I reached her wet center, I looked at her through heavy eyes and saw that her eyes were closed in anticipation of what I was about to do. Her breathing quickened as I blew on her before kissing her wet pussy with my mouth.

Nothing could have prepared me for what I was about to taste next. It was better than any blood, human or animal, and I couldn't get enough of her juices as I flicked the bundle of nerves between the folds. I teased, sucked, and played with her until I felt her on the verge of coming before I lifted my head depriving her of what she wanted most.

"Gah! Please, Jasper!" she moaned. "I want you in me now!"

I quickly moved over her, spreading her legs and pressing my tip to her center.

"Open your eyes, sweetheart," I crooned. She slowly opened them and all I saw and felt was passion coming off her. "I want to see your eyes as we make love. I promise to make you feel good."

She closed her eyes again and nodded slowly biting her lip.

I gently and slowly lowered myself into her, relishing the tight wetness that awaited me.

Her heart rate accelerated and she stopped breathing. I continued to place gentle kisses on her lips while she adjusted to my intrusion to her body. Her eyes opened, and as she started breathing, I began to move within her.

Her walls gripped my cock like a vice and every feeling was intensified as I moved in her slowly at first. As she started to relax, I could feel the warmth radiating off her body melting me to my core.

She moaned softly as her rhythm matched my own. "Oh…Jasper…" she cried, "don't stop…it feels so good."

I quickened my pace and she followed right along with me. I poured my heart and soul into her as I loved her with everything I had.

The pleasure her body gave me threatened to devour the control I needed to keep to make sure I didn't break her. As she neared her release, I reached between her legs, never stopping my thrusts, and gently played with her clit.

".GOD!" she screamed as her release hit her, milking my cock with every pulse. I followed close behind and with a guttural roar spilled my cool fluid into her warm body.

I collapsed and caught myself with my forearms before my weight could crush her body. I kissed her lips passionately while I rolled off her, severing the connection between our bodies. Her breathing slowed and her heart followed suit. I reached across my body to pull her on top of me.

"That was wonderful," I sighed as I kissed her head lightly.

"Mmmm," she replied sleepily. "Yes it was."

I spread some calm over us as her breathing slowed. Exhaustion overtook her as her eyelids closed.

"I love you…" she whispered so quietly I nearly missed it.

I swore my dead heart skipped a beat at the words she uttered before falling into a deep sleep. I gingerly rolled her off my body, pulling the comforter over her. I tucked her into the crook of my arm and prepared myself for one hell of a long night.

"I love you too, sweetheart," I replied.