Dedicated to one of my best friends: Sakura2234, for introducing me to Twilight. Thanks! Please check out her fanfics! One of them, "You Belong to Me" will be published soon, and it is amazing (She let me see the first part of it and it's brilliant).
Summary: The anguished thoughts of the vampire who both saved and ended Alice's life. He knew what he was getting himself into, but he willingly sacrificed himself for her.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters of Twilight or any aspects of the book. All rights belong to Stephenie Meyer.
I know what he wants.
Her.
I know who I must protect.
Her.
I know what I must do to her.
Kill.
I know what he will do to me, in turn.
Kill.
But I will do it anyways.
For her.
I know what she will become.
Like me.
I know she doesn't have much time.
He waits.
I don't know if I'm strong enough.
But I have to be.
I wish there was another way.
I hate myself.
I wish there was another choice.
There isn't.
I wish that I didn't have to kill her.
To save her.
I know that I'm saving her.
In more than one way.
I'm ending her life.
To give her a new one.
So she can truly live.
And find acceptance, in this new world.
For her, I give myself.
I pray she will find her way.
For her, my soul will perish.
It is well worth it.
From the moment I set eyes on her, I knew.
I would do anything to protect her.
My sweet, lovely, beautiful, pure one.
How I hated what they did to you.
It pained me to watch.
Knowing I could stop it.
But I didn't know.
I wasn't sure.
If I could stop before I killed you.
Your agony became mine.
My poor dear child.
I did what I could.
I shared my gift.
I hoped that you didn't feel anything.
That I was able to block off that sense.
I did all I could.
I am sorry.
----
And now, I watch you burn.
In agony inflicted by me.
You aren't moving, not speaking.
My gift works better than I thought.
He is near, and he is displeased.
But he is unable to hurt you.
I have done my job.
You are safe.
----
Even in my final moments,
isolated from you,
lying on the ground,
my limbs mangled,
the remains of my torso
stinging from his venom,
ready to leave this world;
I don't regret it.
Not even for an instant.
It was all for you.
I gave my life,
my soul,
for you.
Everything that I had.
For her.
My angel.
My reason.
My joy.
My love.
For her.
For Alice.
A/N: I hope that turned out okay. This is my first Twilight fanfic. I got the inspiration to write this when I was re-reading Twilight and got to the part with James talking about Alice and it got me thinking about the old vampire he mentioned. I don't know anything about this vampire, since he was mentioned very briefly. I wasn't, though it may seem like it, trying to make this into a romance. More of a father-daughter sort of relationship. Also, I have no idea what this vampire's gift was so I made it up for him. I modeled it after Alec's gift of being able to numb a person's senses, but instead, his gift was to be able to block out one person's sense of feeling. Hope that makes sense.
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Thanks everyone! ~Melody