Hi, so I'm posting this story for my friend, who is grounded from fanfiction. All of the credit goes to her, (and Gorrilaz of course) and any reviews I will send directly to her. Thanks for reading!

Chapter One: The Little Things

The little things always got to me. The way Murdoc always hit me, and called me names. It hurt so much. Like a knife being plunged into my heart. Each time it hurt so much, more than my migraines, more than the impact of that hit to the face that day.

I always knew that day was special. I loved him. It took me years to come to that conclusion. I just never told him. I knew he would look at me in disgust, snarling and cringe his face as he called me a "faggot".

Today he went too far. He told me to go die. Sure, I think he's said that before, but I dunno I just decided I can't take it anymore. His "hobby" of bullying me…it's not so easy to handle anymore. I used to just take it. I loved him, it shouldn't bother me. But, as I watch him periodically bring whores into the house, and let him beat the shit out of me. I began to break, crack. I knew one day I would shatter.

Cutting could only ease the pain for a day, and it was really hard to hide. My pills were also a deathly problem. I overdosed once and scared the crap out of Noods and Russ.

I always knew I would shatter and today was going to be that day. My life was so insignificant. I had done nothing with it. I just played keyboard and sang songs. Murdoc made it very clear I was a "worthless piece of shit".

So as I raised the gun to my temple, I said my last goodbyes. I didn't bother to leave a note. They know why I did it, or only part of it. 'Goodbye Noodle, Russle, Paula, everyone' my mind scrolled over the people that I know will grieve over me the most.

Murdoc. That one name it haunted me. I know he won't miss me. He wanted me dead in the first place. "Murdoc, I love you. I'll miss you the most," I said aloud. I pulled the trigger just as I heard someone barge into my room.

It was too late, I fell to the floor. Plunk. My head hurt much more than any other headache I ever had. My eyes fluttered and I could see Murdoc come into view. Murdoc was shouting something, I couldn't hear what, but before I plummeted into darkness, I heard him say something, barely.

"I love you Stuart."