Tris' POV

It's really late tonight I believe its 3:04 am everyone is asleep in Dauntless at the moment Tobias wasn't by my side when I woke up so I decide to look for him the first place I will look is the Chasm he probably went out here to clear his mind. Probably couldn't sleep we are training initiates tomorrow.

I can hear my feet smack against the ground as I walk I listen to the pattern as I walk to the Chasm and then I see them together. Tobias' and Christina kissing oh well that's nice how sweet. WAIT! WHAT! I look again to make sure it's them and I see that dark brown skin of Christina and Tobias' beautiful deep blue eyes look up at me and I gasp and take off running to where I don't know.

I can't believe it Tobias he took Christina to our place the first place he kissed me and I can't believe Christina I want to beat her. But all of a sudden I know where I am headed to me and Tobias' apartment.I want to stop myself but I can't seem to I hear Tobias' yelling after me he's all of a sudden on my heels with Christina running very far behind.

I can't let him catch me if he does I know I will cave in into whatever he says. I can tell I have slowed down and I feel Tobias' touch my wrist and yank me back. "No" I yell my voice raspy and scratchy I sound so weak, I shouldn't be surprised I feel weak.

"I hate you let me go you ass" I yell stronger this time I am surprised I'm not strong I'm weak. I have tears streaming down my face I could make a river if I wanted. I try to make a run for the apartment but Tobias' arms catch me instead holding me in his strong embrace. It feels like a jail cell. I thrash around and try to get out but his arms block any possibility of that happening.

Christina races around the corner always the late one I think. Tobias' starts talking "I'm so sorry please there is more to the story than what you saw there I really honestly didn't mean to cheat. Tris you are the only one for me that was a mistake-"

Before he can continue "Really a mistake there was more to the story than what I saw! I saw you smacking lips my best friend Four" I spit the words at him like venom that I'm dying to get out my mouth.

His grip loosens on me I feel a tear slid down his face and it hits my forehead. I'm so tempted to wipe his tears away and make him feel better but I remember what he did to me and I fight the temptation. I slid out of his arms and run for the door and slip inside and lock it.

Tobias' bangs on the door crying and the I remember we have a key hidden on the top of the door frame and I feel the lock turn and see Tobias' walk in head low no tears on his face but in he's eyes. He's so strong I think he won't cry in front of Christina.

As soon as he walks in I run and slap his face then kick him in gut elbow him in the face and knee his gut again and push him out the door. "Should have never taught me how to fight FOUR" I cried with more tears streaming down my face. I pick up the spare key and lock the door.

I head for the bed listening to Christina cry for forgiveness and Tobias begging me to let him so he can explain.

Crying yourself to sleep is the worst feeling ever especially when it was by someone who was the reason I woke up smiling and now the reason I cry myself to sleep tonight. I feel worthless, unloved, and abandoned and those aren't even half of the things that my heart is filled with.

SHIT! I think of tomorrow I have to train initiates with Tobias! I will have to try to train those dumb ass kids but also ignore that I'm doing it with the man I loved more than anything was the first boy who made me feel loved and who I wanted to be the last.

But one thing is clear those initiates won't be the only one learning a lesson tomorrow.

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