Okay, after a lot of thinking I decided to break my heart and write this new story about ALL of the bad things that has happened to Outlaw Queen and what I think the writers haven't showed us or bothered to film and add to the OQ storyline. I'm not trying to spread any hate but I feel hurt of the fact that they made Zelena pregnant and they haven't given Regina and Robin even a 20 second talk about it all, so this fan fiction is going to explore all the things I wish we had seen.

The chapters will probably be shortish because I am busy with school and these scenes doesn't "last" that long.

I own nothing, everything goes to OUat and the writors, BUT I am going to borrow some quotes and scenes from Grey's Anatomy. With that said Enjoy this heartbreaking fanfic!

The pain was indescribable. This is the new reality. I'm with her now.

She's pregnant.

Regina couldn't understand how she was standing there, hearing these worlds, leaving her soulmates mouth. It had been nine weeks. Nine weeks, 63 days, 1536 hours, since Robin had let go of her hand. She understood he had moved on, but seeing he had actually moved on, it killed her.

Regina's eyes were shining with tear as she looked at Robin but the tears faded out his figure and she closed her eyes letting out the tears. She had to get out. She couldn't breathe. Regina left the apartment, rushing down the stairs getting out of the building, letting the cold air hit her cheeks. She heard her name being called, by Robin.

Once who was her Robin. The man she used to tell her worries, press her head against his warm chest knowing he'd listen. Used to, indeed.

Regina didn't look at him, got inside a bar, trying to hide but knowing, he'd find her. And he did.

"Regina I-" But she stopped him by lifting her hand up.

"Don't bother Robin.." She said coldly, not knowing if she should be more angry or sad.

Robin grabbed her hand, and oh how it felt so good t be touched by him, to be held by him, but she wouldn't allow it. He had moved on, he had betrayed her. "Don't.." She hissed.

"Regina I know you're upset but please let me expla-"

"Explain?" She questioned. "Explain? Okay sure, explain to me how you came here to live with her, how you forgot about me, about us. Explain to me how you didn't even try to call or get back to me. Explain how you just let me go."

She couldn't hold back her tears so she let them fall as her voice broke. "I loved you.. And trusted you.. And you just forgot, decided to move on.."

"Regina not a day went by that I didn't think of you. Of us-"

"Robin please.. I don't want to hear it." Regina said weakly.

"But I need to tell-"

"Don't!"

The people turned around to watch at their direction but luckily her back was to them so they turned about to their own things and Robin grabbed her hand and she closed her eyes.

"I- I'm sorry.. I don't know what to- or how to.."

"This is what I didn't want to hear. And I did not like to hear you yell at me that you chose your wife, and the life with her when I came to see you. Or when you looked me like I was crazy, thinking Marian was Zelena.. I know it wasn't probably easy for you.. But it sure as hell hasn't been easy for me.. Or will be."

Robin let her hand go and looked down. He wished this wouldn't have happened. He wished things would have been different.

They sat there, silently, thinking when did they lose each other.

I told you it wouldn't be long but that was the first chapter. These are things I wish they had talked about (maybe not like this, but still) because they just jumped over their emotions and I've gotten the feeling that Regina would be fine with all this, though she shouldn't be.

I hope you liked it and if you did please review.

More will come.

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