Bo's POV

Any and all mistakes are mine.

Do you know what makes a good weekend?

A party.

But, do you know what makes a sucky weekend?

Your ex crashing that party.

That was exactly what I had in store for me tonight.

Kenzi and I were finally throwing a party. Which felt like the first time in ages because it has been like two years since we last did. We had always been known as the duo who threw the hottest parties. But all of that changed when Kenzi decided to grow up and leave me behind.

Well not that I wasn't grown up, I was just hurting, and when the pain started I kind of started neglecting a lot of things.

But wasn't the whole idea of college that you actually had some fun once in a while too? Of course you needed to study but having some fun was also a must, wasn't it?

I didn't really know what had gotten into Kenzi because she had been acting like my mother the whole week. Walking around the house and finding a problem with everything. She had been nagging and lecturing me about my so called bad choices. It was nothing I hadn't heard before, I just wanted her to stop already.

But you know, I was fine listening to her constant nagging and complaints, but when she announced a few seconds ago that Lauren would be attending our party I nearly lost it.

No, actually I was starting to lose my shit a bit. Over my dead body would Lauren step foot in this house.

I watched as Kenzi stood in front of me with her hands on her hips, and I was doing the same. I really didn't want to fight about this with her, but she left me no choice. If I had to ask her again and again to call Lauren and tell her the party was cancelled, then I would.

There was no way in hell that I would attend a party, much less host it if Lauren was going to show her face.

I honestly didn't have the strength to see her, there was just so much history I didn't know how to handle.

"Bo you can tap your foot on the floor all day. I'm not calling her."

I rolled my eyes at Kenzi, "You have got to be kidding me right? Why do you insist on making my life hell?"

She shook her head and pointed at me, "You and Lauren can't avoid each other forever you know. Sooner or later you'll have to talk to her."

I huffed, "I don't have to do anything. Lauren is the one who packed up and left, insulting me and breaking my heart in the process. She chose a scholarship over me. Don't you forget that."

"I know Bo, but when are you going to stop acting like the world owes you something? It's been nine months."

I shook my head in disbelief, "The world doesn't owe me something. Lauren does, an apology."

"Do you hear how stupid you sound?"

What the hell was her problem? Did she really want to put me in a bad mood literally three minutes before the party was going to start? And I also didn't like the fact that she was making me the bad guy.

"I don't sound stupid." I defended myself as I crossed my arms over my chest.

She sighed, "Bo, you need to find a way to forgive her or to get over her. You can't carry on like this, I've been watching you for months now. You're depressed and in denial."

"I'm not depressed Kenzi."

She raised her brow, "I don't know you anymore, this person you've become. It's all because of your breakup. You need to get over it or do something Bo. Pull yourself together."

Just as she finished talking, the bell rang out, signalling that people were starting to arrive. It was good, I needed the party to begin, and Kenzi to climb off of my back.

She shook her head at my silence and disappeared around the corner to greet whoever was there.

Who was she to tell me that I needed to stop hurting? I would stop when I wanted to. And I was absolutely not in denial, I swear I was on the verge of punching her when she said that I was depressed. I was not depressed, I was merely in a state of grief. And so what if it had been nine months, who was counting anyway?

I wasn't just magically going to heal. Lauren was a big part of my life, and I love... loved her with every ounce of my being. So I refused to forget her just like that, even though I really wanted to punch her in the face.

In the back of my head, I knew I would never find someone like her again. Lauren was the love of my life and I was struggling to erase her from my thoughts. And that was what made me so upset, she broke my heart and left like it was nothing, like what we had never meant anything to her. So, I thought it right if I wanted to take my time to get over it.

People started showing up quickly and time passed within the blink of an eye. The house was packed and people were drunk already.

Kenzi and I had been running around like crazy all night. You know, that quote is true, when you host a party you never do any partying, you're too busy making sure everyone else is partying.

And it was actually not what I had in mind for tonight.

I actually planned on getting wasted and maybe getting laid but that plan clearly wasn't going to happen. Not when things were this crazy, I just couldn't leave Kenzi at her own mercy even though I was pissed the fuck off at her. She would never let me hear the end of it.

But it really sucked because there were so many pretty girls here, and a lot of them was giving me the look, which I had been ignoring all night, unfortunately. All these girls must have already been thinking that I was a stuck up bitch.

I was busy grabbing more beer from our large white alcohol freezer when the doorbell rang out.

"Bo, can you get that?" Kenzi shouted from outside.

"Yeah!" I responded.

I pushed my way through the large crowd of drunk, dancing students in our living room as the music played loudly. There were more people here than I had thought there would be. The house was packed. I honestly didn't expect a lot of people to come because of Kenzi's tendency to say a thing like it is, she had insulted many people because of it. But tonight the luck was on our side.

I threw the wooden, front door open, only to come face to face with...

Fuck, let me rephrase, luck was on Kenzi's side, not on mine.

I sighed at the sight in front of me, I had been wondering when Lauren would get here.

Her face held the same pained expression mine probably was, "Hello Bo."

God, she was still so formal... I felt something in my heart ache.

I avoided her gaze as I held the door open wider, "Come in."

"Thank you."

I closed the door behind her then and started walking back to the kitchen, leaving her there. But she followed me anyway.

I didn't know what I was feeling, seeing her was definitely giving me a feeling that was unfamiliar.

I continued to stock drinks when I heard her speak, "You look good Bo."

I raised my brow at her, was she seriously giving me a compliment? Was that the first thing she was going to say?

Something inside me screamed to tell her how beautiful she looked. Her blonde hair was longer, and it was flowing around her perfect face. Her eyes were still so soft as always. And she was wearing a white button down like she always did.

I felt my eyes gloss over as I continued to take beer from the fridge, I didn't know what to say. So I ignored her until I heard her walk away.

Then the next moment, I heard her and Kenzi talking loudly out of excitement outside. I rolled my eyes at the sound as I listened. I was going to punch Kenzi tomorrow, I swear.

I couldn't believe Lauren was here, after nine months. Honestly, seeing her crippled me. It broke my heart into a million pieces again and she was acting all normal.

The rest of the night consisted of me running around getting everything for everyone. Kenzi left me completely alone to hold down the fort because she and Lauren had been partying with everyone else, downing tequila shots all night.

I didn't know what Kenzi was thinking honestly, I mean, what was wrong with her? She invited my ex, and then she got drunk with her while I had to listen to them laughing and having a good time.

I mean I knew Lauren wouldn't get drunk, that had never been her style. But still.

Kenzi knew that I wasn't over Lauren, this was all kinds of fucked up.

This night was passing painfully slow and as every minute passed, I felt my want to cry increase more and more.

I just wanted everyone to leave already.

I sighed as I threw the last cup from the kitchen into the disposal bag. I had cleaned the kitchen already after everyone else left, and just because I was angry, I was going to leave the rest of the house to Kenzi.

She was passed out somewhere and I was sure Lauren was too.

This night was just a total shitshow and I was ready to go to sleep. I was irritated to the point of no return.

As soon as I finished in the kitchen, I made my way to my room and flopped down on my bed.

I allowed my thoughts to drift to a certain blonde. Lauren was really looking good. Something about her was different.

She was still just as beautiful as the first day I bumped into her at the library.

I honestly didn't know how I managed to ignore her all night long when everything inside me was screaming at me to go and shout at her or something. I did well when I ignored her compliment though, right?

I sighed sadly. Who was I kidding? I wanted to tell her how beautiful she looked and how much I had missed her.

Why did Kenzi have to invite her? I was doing good in distracting myself, I thought that I was maybe starting to get over Lauren, but then bam, she had to show up at my front door and stop my healing process dead in its tracks.

I was convinced, Kenzi had to be mental or something, there was no other explanation. Because she was giving me a pep-talk on getting over Lauren, but then she invited her here... that plan sounded a little ass backwards to me.

I heard a slight knock on my door and it pulled me from my thoughts immediately.

I rolled my eyes, if that was Kenzi, I was not going to help her get to bed.

I stood up and threw my door open, only to feel a sudden pain rip through my chest when I saw who was standing there.

I stared at Lauren, "What do you want?"

"Can we talk?" her voice was low.

"I have nothing to say to you." I moved to close the door but she blocked me and stepped inside my room quickly.

I gave her a look, "What do you think you're doing?"

She was in pain, I could tell, "I just want to know how you're doing."

I huffed, "How I'm doing? Are you seriously asking me that Lo?"

I cringed when I let my nickname for her slip. I didn't mean to do that.

I cleared my throat, I needed to stay strong, "Leave."

"Bo, I am so sorry about everything, I can't even begin to say how much I regret leaving you here."

I froze when I heard her last words.

"You what?"

She stepped closer to me, "I regret the day I left you here Bo. I regret all the hurtful things I said to you and I'm sorry that I made you feel less than you are. I will never be able to fix what I broke and I'm so truly sorry about that."

I huffed, "Those words mean nothing to me now Lauren."

She frowned, "You can't say that. Look around, our pictures are still on your walls."

I shook my head, "Stop talking."

"I miss you."

I rolled my eyes, "Stop it!"

She looked up at me, "I mean it, I miss you so much and I think about you everyday Bo. I can't anymore. I called Kenzi to ask her how you're doing and she invited me here."

A tear escaped down my cheek when she finished her rant. She stepped closer to wipe the tear and I retreated immediately like she was a disease, "Don't come closer to me."

Her own eyes glossed over, "I hurt you badly, I know I did, Bo. Please, can we talk about everything."

I shook my head, "Leave please."

"Baby, can I jus-"

"Don't call me that!" I shouted, "You lost the right to call me that the day you walked out that door. Now leave."

I didn't want her to go, but honestly I wasn't ready to talk about everything. And having her stand here was breaking me into a million tiny pieces.

"No." she said flatly.

I blinked a few times, "Lauren leave! Don't you understand? I don't want to talk to you! You broke my heart that day and you stomped on all of the pieces when you walked away. So forgive me if I don't want to talk to you."

"But I'm here now, let me fix what I have broken." She stepped closer again.

"Lauren stop it! Leave."

She grabbed my shoulders, "No!"

I fought her but she wasn't letting up.

"I mean it!" I shouted, "I'll throw you out myself."

As soon as the words escaped my lips, she moved forward and grabbed my face.

I must have let out a loud sob when her lips met mine because I felt my entire being erupt in pain. It was like everything around me was crumbling down, and I knew that she was crying too because I felt the wetness on her cheeks. Her touch was burning me and I felt like I was going to crumble.

I pulled away quickly, "I'm mad at you for God's sake!"

She rested her forehead against mine, panting, "Then take it out on me."

I knew exactly what she was talking about and it made me furious.

I moved away from her.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Do you really think you can come in here and ask me to sleep with you? What is wrong with you?"

I was seriously losing my shit by now.

She held my gaze, "Take it out on me then. Hit me, shout at me, sleep with me. Just God, don't ask me to leave because I'm never doing that again!"

I let out a sob, "Lauren."

"Bo, show me, show me that you still care about me. Please, just do something." She pleaded.

Her words were enough to send me over the edge and I felt something in me snap.

I grabbed her hips and spun her around quickly, pressing her to the wall and my mouth found hers again. The feeling made me sigh into her. Her lips were still as soft as ever and our kiss was heated, full of lust, and longing.

I trapped her against the wall as I pressed my body tightly against hers, preventing her from going anywhere because God I knew after this Lauren was going to walk out of that door and it was going to cripple me, she couldn't have meant what she said.

Her mouth was hungry on mine and it made every tired cell in my body come to life again.

A muffled moan escaped her lips and it caused me to squeeze her hips. Her hands found itself in my hair as she slipped her tongue into my mouth, and mine met hers immediately with every feverish stroke she issued my way.

My entire being was screaming for her. I had missed her so much and I had been so sad when she left, she was fading away but when she showed up tonight she was burned into my mind again.

I allowed my mouth to move from her lips and trail over her jawline. I knew her sweet spots perfectly well, and when I kissed just under her ear it pulled a delicious moan from her throat.

I shut my eyes tighter at the sound. God I had missed her.

I knew my tongue was wreaking havoc on her sensitive skin and it was exactly what I wanted. I wanted her to remember how it felt to be with me, to remember what she gave up when she left.

It was just her and I now.

If Lauren was giving herself to me now I wasn't going to stand back. I was not going to allow her to set a foot out my front door if I hadn't showed her how I still felt about her. She needed to know.

Her skilled hands pushed at my jacket, and I stepped back a bit as I removed it, I did the same with hers and ran my hands along every exposed inch of her skin I could find.

My lips slammed against hers again with a force that caused her to whimper. I trailed my fingers over her arms and I could swear she had gotten more muscular. The thought and the feeling of her muscles dancing under her skin made my legs go weak.

With one swift move, her hands went around my back and she flipped us, slamming me against the wall as I moaned in pleasure rather than pain. She wanted control. I smirked as I spun us around again, only this time, I wasn't giving her an open window again. I reached for her thighs quickly and picked her up, her legs wrapped aroung my waist instinctively as I kissed her again, taking her in completely.

I held her firmly against the wall as our tongues enjoyed the duel for dominance. I reached up and dipped her head back as my teeth made contact with her neck again, biting and sucking so I could leave a mark.

She was mine! She had always been and she always would be. She needed to remember that.

Another throaty moan filled the room as I bit down again, "Bo."

"Mhmm?" I couldn't form any words, my tongue was too busy teasing her.

She panted and pulled me up to look at her as she held my face, "Take me."

I stopped dead in my tracks and stared at her. Her beautiful brown eyes were filled with tears, desire, need, lust and I was hoping love.

Her words sent me over the edge completely.

I steadied my grip on her and pressed us off of the wall. She grabbed the hem of my shirt as I carried her to my bed. I bit her neck again as my knees made contact with the soft matress and we settled on her sitting on my lap as our mouths desperately met each other again.

Frantic hands began battling with her button down as she tangled her hands in my hair. I never once grew tired of undressing her out of these because they made her look incredibly sexy.

Within seconds I ripped her shirt open and slipped it off her shoulders, my mouth made contact with her sexy long neck again and I moved down, kissing her collarbone and biting down again, leaving yet another mark.

I kissed the dip of her neck and she moaned again, "Bo."

I moved and pressed her down on the bed as I crawled slowly between her legs. I kissed her softly, stroking her tongue with mine.

Oh how I missed her and this.

As I straddled her, she wasted no time in lifting herself off of the bed and pulling my shirt over my head. I loved feeling her doing this again, it had just been too long since I had been with her.

Even though I was enjoying this, a lot. It was taking everything inside of me not to break down and start crying.

I took her wrists into my hands and pinned them above her head as I kissed her again, biting her lip in the process.

Another moan filled the room.

I stared at her, "Where's Kenzi?"

She frowned, "Passed out on the grass."

I smiled mischievously, "Good."

She gasped when I moved my hips against her, I was well aware that we were still wearing our jeans, I just had to feel something to make me realise this was real. That I was laying ontop of her while she was moaning.

I let go of her hands and pulled her up and off of the bed, and in one swift move I turned her around and gripped her waist. She responded by pressing herself against me. I kissed her neck as she dipped her head to the side to give me more access.

The smell of her strawberry shampoo was intoxicating me.

As I placed wet, hot kisses on her neck and shoulder, my hands roamed over her flat stomach and found the button to her jeans. I felt it give under my fingers and I pulled her pants along with her underwear down together. She stepped out of them as I stayed bent at her feet.

I heard her moan when I started slowly placing very, very wet kisses along her leg and to her thigh, stopping at her right ass cheek as I bit down on it and swirled my tongue around.

"Oh God." She tangled her hands in her own blonde hair to keep control over herself.

She tried to turn around but I gripped her waist and held her firmly in place, "Stay still." I ordered.

I stood up again and pressed my body against hers as my hands made work to take her bra off. As soon as I unhooked it, she helped me pull it off her body and tossed it to the side.

The fact that she was completely naked and I wasn't turned me on to the point of no return. I trailed my hands over her stomach and claimed her full, perfect breasts, squeezing them possessively as she pressed herself into me again and arched forward to get more pressure from my hands, the feeling made me smile.

She wanted me.

I let go of her and tangled my hand in her hair, I wrapped my other hand around her neck and bent her forward so that she rested her hands on my bed.

I bent over and kissed along the side of her breast and her ribcage, feeling her breathing heavily.

She was looking so sexy right now and I couldn't control myself.

I allowed my hand to rest on the inside of her thigh just above her knee, and I started trailing my fingers upwards slowly to the place she wanted me most.

Her breathing hitched in her throat completely when I trailed my finger lightly over the length of her core, being careful not to apply to much pressure.

"Oh my God Bo." She let out another very loud moan as I trailed my finger lightly again.

And when I felt her knees go weak I snaked my free arm around her stomach to steady her, I pulled her up with me and spun her around.

Our lips smashed together again and I felt the familiar ache in my chest come back.

I felt Lauren trail her fingers over my back and next thing I knew she pulled my bra off of me. Her mouth left mine then and she stepped back to look at me, taking in my breasts which I knew was one of my best assets.

"God you're beautiful." She spoke as she bent down and kissed right in the middle of the top swell of my breasts. It pulled a moan from me, feeling her mouth on me again, feeling her touch me again, was slowly starting to mend my heart.

She came up again and kissed me as she unbuttoned my jeans. I gasped when her warm, very wet tongue trailed from my mouth, to my neck, through the middle of my beasts, down my stomach and to my belly button as she dipped her tongue inside.

"Fuck." I moaned.

I could feel her smirk against me as she pulled my pants down. Her hands trailed over my thighs, squeezing them and she bent forward, taking my underwear into her mouth and pulling it down with her teeth agonisingly slow.

I nearly blacked out at the sight it was so sexy.

I was convinced that I had never been this turned on by her. Not even in the two years we had been together.

She came back up again and inhaled deeply as she passed my centre and the sight made my eyes widen. She smirked at me and wrapped her hands into my hair as we kissed again.

I pushed her slightly and her back made contact with my bed as I fell ontop of her, wedging myself between her long, smooth toned legs as I laid on her. There was no space between us now as our bodies melted together. They just fit perfectly. And I was convinced that this was all I would ever want out of life, being like this with Lauren, being close to her and knowing she wanted me too.

I went to kiss her again but I got a rude awakening when she suddenly flipped us, smirking in the process, "I can't let you have all the fun."

I smirked back at her as I flipped us again, but as soon as I did, she moved and I was on my back again.

This time I used more force and I flipped us again and held her in place, "Stop fighting me." I ordered.

She tried to move again and this time I spoke with more authority, "Stay still!"

She gave me a delicious smile that compelled me to bend down and kiss her, which meant she was giving in. Her dominant tongue playing with mine again as I cupped her cheeks.

I pulled away from her then and positioned myself as I was still laying between her legs. I kissed her softly then and began moving my hips against her, letting our most sensitive parts meet each other after so much time.

It was perfect in every way.

"Oh fuck." She moaned and buried her head in my neck, biting down in the process.

Our bodies fit perfectly together and I was convinced that she was made just for me as I moved against her.

Soon enough our hips started a perfect rythm as me moved together, moans filling the room.

She wrapped her legs lazily over my legs, "Don't stop, holy shit." She moaned again.

I smiled and sped up my grinds. I felt my own body start to shake.

Lauren looked perfect as the moonlight fell on her face as it came through my open blinds. She looked so beautiful, and her moans were delicious.

I felt Lauren scratch along my back, her nails digging into my skin as she gripped my hips.

We moved together in sync and I almost went over the edge everytime I felt her wetness on me.

Then it felt like the entire world around me was crumbling down as both of us started to shake against each other. I could feel her stomach contract along with mine as we were pushed to the edge of bliss.

Lauren's whole face and chest was red as can be and the sight made me feel even more pleasure. I was making her feel this, and oh God the things she was making me feel...

She bit down on my shoulder and let out a loud moan when she reached her climax. I moaned out loud with her as I kept moving my hips to make the ecstasy last.

My whole body was heating up and I could feel my head pound as I shut my eyes tightly.

My entire body was shaking and I felt myself go numb as I fell forward completely, feeling her breasts press against mine.

We were both panting frantically, trying to compose ourselves and our chests moved together in sync as we breathed heavily.

Then I felt tears escape my eyes as I layed on her, and I couldn't help it as a sob escaped my mouth.

Lauren moved her head a little but I kept my face hidden in her neck, "Baby what's wrong?" She asked.

I felt my entire being erupt in pain again. Lauren was all I wanted, and she was all I would ever want.

I showed her that tonight in the way I touched her, in the way I kissed her.

She was all I wanted and I didn't want her to ever leave me.

I needed to tell her how much she still meant to me.

I knew my tears were falling on her neck and I let out another sob as I whispered, "I still love you."

I heard her sniff and she wrapped her arms tightly around my waist as she held me close to her. Feeling her soft skin on mine, laying naked with her, there was nothing between us but love, it couldn't be anything else.

I moved up and kissed her deeply, putting all of my love and passion for her into this kiss as I mouthed her lips, like I was silently telling her to never ever leave me again because if she did it would break me and I wouldn't be able to come back from it. I needed to know what she felt for me, that she still felt the same. Because if she did we could work on whatever went wrong. I would fight for her and our relationship with everything I had.

All she had to do was stay, and tell me how she felt. I needed her to want me, to love me, not to be here because she was lonely.

If that was why she was here... I didn't know what I was going to do.

This was crippling me, holding her like this, kissing her like this when I knew she wasn't mine anymore. I needed her, I wanted her, I just had to have her again.

It pained me.

Then she pulled out of the kiss and looked at me, with red teary eyes, "I still love you too."

N: Hey guys, hope you enjoyed the short story. Let me know what you think.