Let go
Disclaimer: I don't own NLT, the song, or life with Derek
AN: Inspired by my ipod and NLTs song.
Enjoy

She said baby can you please just stay
It ain't too late to work this thing out
I said girl this ain't easy for me
At least the truth is coming out
She said why can't we make up like the last time
I'm just afraid to hear you say go
I said baby I'm sorry
I think its time we let go
Baby don't leave don't leave don't leave
Tell me you'll stay can you stay can you stay
I gotta leave gotta leave gotta leave cause
I think its time we let go

See these teardrops falling from your eyes
That don't change my mind, oh baby
Please don't make things more difficult than they gotta be
I can't take no more this is killing me
Every time I look at you
I see more reason of me to leave you
And its causing me too much pain

NLT: he said, she said.

He really wasn't a bad guy. He did love her, but things have changed, they changed. Problems every week, they brake up to make up and after a year he knew it was time to give up. Of course she wasn't going to be happy about it, hell she wasn't even going to believe it, but it needed to be done.
There were alone at smelly Nelly's, they were suppose to lock up. But during his shift a (very attractive blonde) customer gave Derek a 20 dollar tip along with her number, which was the topic of tonight's argument.

"I mean really who does she think she is? Dose she really thing your going to go off with a 20 something year old? Oh my god- you would wouldn't you?" She yelled pacing in front of him. He was straddling a chair with his head on the table, this was pointless.

"Derek."She yelled hitting the back of his head to get his attention "God you're not even listening to me! You never listen to me."

He looked in her direction. And it hurt. It hurt him to look at her and not see what he once wanted. And it really sucked because he remember when he actually looked forward to going to work cause he knew he'd see her face and the looks shed give him from across the room along that smile, he loved it all of it. And now he hated going to work because it meant arguing with her. He looked at her and didnt see what he wanted and that truly sucked. "I'm done sally."

" You're done, with what?" She asked.

"Us, this whole thing." he said.

She laughed."Derek you're not done. By now I thought you'd be use to this. This is what we do Derek. " She said getting a chair and sitting next to him.

"I know Sal, but I'm tired of it. I'm tired of making up to brake up to hook up to get into an argument again. Sally we've been at this for a year." he said pleading his case.

"I know that Derek, a year, you're really going to walk out on us?"

"Sal, a year is more than enough time. And we still can't get it right, which says something. So I'm done, I'm sorry."

"There someone else isn't there?" She asked

"You see? You don't even trust me!" he yelled.

"I do trust you Derek!" she yelled back.

"Then why do we get into this every time sally? Cause you don't trust me. You get jealous because you think I'm going to run off with another girl. You don't trust me and if after a year you can't, then you're never going to trust me." He said, his voice held a trace of hurt.

"It's not that I don't trust you Der, you know I've been hurt in the past." She said quietly, tears forming in her eyes.

"Look Sal, I'm real sorry Patrick hurt you, I've been trying to make it better but I can't cause I guess you think I'm like him, I'm not, damn it Sally I loved you!" he said slamming his first into the table and getting up, she didn't even flinch.

"Loved?" she repeated.

"Yeah loved sally, cause you're not the same as you use to be. Before you didn't give a fuck who even looked at me because you knew I was yours. You weren't clingy, you respected my PDA rule. You had me sally, I loved you for all that and more. Now you need be all over me to claim me? And you get mad if a girl says my name, or anything that sounds like it. Next thing I know you're already on my case about how I know her and if I cheated. It's too much Sal." He said sighing out of relief, he finally let it out, he finally told her.

"Do you want me to say I'm sorry for wanting to be your one and only?" She said sobbing looking at him.

"Damn it Sally don't do that! It's not going to make me stay okay? No I don't want you to apologies but you should have known I was yours all along. And I'm sorry your crying okay, you think it's easy for me to leave the first girl I loved?"

"You sure are making it seem that way Der." She whispered quietly.

"Well it's not, but Sal I'm sorry its time we let go. And if I have to see you cry because of it, well then I guess ill have to get over it, but don't think you can just use my weakness against me to make me stay."

"You really don't think we can work this out Der?"

"No Sally I don't think we can. By now were just holding on to something that's not there."

"How long have you felt this way?"

" A while, I thought it would go away but it hasn't."

"So you're really done huh?"

"See Sal you see this? Old sally wouldn't react half the way you are now."

"What are you talking about Derek?"

"Old Sally would tell me to go on my way, to hell if she cared, and I would stay cause you were a challenge and you know I live for that."

"I'm sorry, I guess I changed."

"And all this apologizing, stop it! You killing me Sal."

"What do you want from me Derek? Do you want me to beg you to stay cause if you missed it I'm trying to do. Do you want me to just agree with you and leave. What Derek what the fuck do you want from me?" She yelled.

"Sal all I want for you is to kiss me goodbye and go home, ill lock up."

She didn't want to but she couldn't help it. A part of her wanted to kiss him because she thought that maybe just maybe it'll end up with him realizing they still was something there. Something worth holding on to.

So she kissed him. She poured everything she had into that one kiss running her fingers into his hair and he knew it, even he was looking for something in that kiss but neither felt it so they pulled back.

"You're not going to slam me against the wall and kiss me senseless are you?" She asked with a hint of laughter, trying to make the best out of the situation.

"I wish I could say yeah Sal." He said sadly, still holding her. "You know I really loved you right."

"Yeah I know. I loved you to Derek." she said pulling out of his warm arms. "So one last time, please stay."

"I can't sal" He said looking down cause it really did hurt him too.

"Bye Derek" She said softly.

"Bye Sally" He said watching her walk out the door.

A few minutes later he dialed a familiar number.
" What do you want Derek, I'm kind of on a date you know?" came her frustrated voice.

"Case, do we have ice cream?"

"Um no Marti ate what was left of it, why?" she asked worried.

"We broke up, for good this time." He said sadly looking around the empty restaurant, all that was left to do what walk out, but he knew once he did that it was real, and that did scare him just a little bit.

"I'll be home in 20 minutes. Mint chocolate chip or fudge?" She asked.


"Both." He answered before hanging up.
Walking out and locking the door. He had left whatever was left of their relationship inside, it was time to they let go.

AN: Loved it hated it? Review it!! I hinted some dasey in there i hope you caught it. Maybe a 2 shot.