When we were young, you in the sticks and me in the streets, did you dream of how love would be?
Was it marriage, was it kids playing in a back-yard, was it hedges and cars and steady jobs?
Or was it broken, was it a fight just waiting to begin, was it hard and fucked up and insane?
But I look at you and I think it was blissful, like dancing down an empty road in the middle of the day.
I think you dreamed of love and saw me long before I ever saw you.
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Spencer Carlin doesn't want to be this way – held under God's thumb, held down by her mother's disapproving eyes – but life isn't easy. And nothing worth having is simple, is flawless.
In her other world, between the ears and a million miles away from L.A., girls come free of chains and fly around the sky and change the world with their passion…
Spencer Carlin wants to change the world, not for peace and not for famine and not for pain – but for Ashley, it has always been about Ashley Davies.
That brown-eyed girl is the war, that brown-eyed girl is the ravaging of the land, that brown-eyed girl is the fucking atomic bomb… and that brown-eyed girl is all three wishes for Spencer Carlin.
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When we were young, me in the shadows and you in the daylight, did you dream of how love would be?
Was it a boy, was it sweet and kind, was it written in the Bible?
Or was it nameless, was it faceless and dark, was it for just one-night and nothing more?
But I look at you and I think it was amazing, like every shooting star from the cosmos going across your face.
I think you dreamed of love and knew me long before I ever knew you.
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Spencer Carlin doesn't want things to be this way – pinned down by everyone's lies, pinned down by bullets in the night – but life isn't easy. And nothing worth having is simple, is flawless.
The dress is torn and the saltwater is fresh and the agony is so damn delicious, so damn wrong…
And the chains snap, the wings flutter to life and Spencer Carlin can't change the world, not this time, not even for that brown-eyed girl.
Spencer Carlin can't change anything, not even this moment and not this love she feels so strongly and not even the beating of her shattered heart.
And if it could be for anyone, it would be for Ashley Davies…
That brown-eyed girl is the catalyst, that brown-eyed girl is always adored by too many, that brown-eyed girl is a silent knife, cutting down Spencer Carlin like dead from a tree.
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When we were young… did you dream of how love would be?
Was it good and wonderful and without trouble?
Or was it full of hatred and indifference, was it full of mistakes?
But I look at you and I think it was so much better than what I am giving you, like every sappy ending to every romantic film that has ever been shown on the silver screen…
I think you dreamed of love and fell for me long before I fell for you.
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