Today was a lot of things, but for one thing it was not bad. I decided to go shell collecting. For a place with no normal animals there sure are a lot of shells. I also found a blade of grass that resembled a string. Man, everything is so weird in the digital world that I am not surprised that there is string grass. But this necklace that I am making, I hope it will be beautiful. I am making it for him. I have decided that tomorrow will be the morning that I finally tell Koji Minamoto how I feel about him. Sure at first I thought he was rude. Every time we would run into him he ignored us. He thought he was way better than us. Well he eventually warmed up to us, and I eventually warmed up to him. It was a very strange feeling that tightened my goggles. I mean the idea of having these feelings for another boy is crazy. Besides I always thought that he and Zoe would end up together. But now that Koichi is part of the team, I see hope for Koji and me.
I really hope that no one approaches the fire to see what I am doing. Hopefully, they just think I am staring at fire. I swear there is nowhere better to get lost in thought than in front of an open flame. I never thought of that until I became Agunimon. Why did I think that like it was a completely normal sentence? I guess it is.
I am just busy looking at this fire, and making the necklace for the man of my dreams. Okay, that is not a normal sentence. Speaking of him I just heard him scream Zoe's name. Oh no! I thought that these two were done. Well, at least that is what I was hoping. I mean they never actually said that they were together, but with the amount of time that they hung out it was obvious. The smile that should put on his face was one I that I never saw beforehand. However when Koichi joined the group she slowly but surely shifted towards him; which was something that I had prayed for throughout our time here. Not necessarily that, but I just wanted her away from Koji. I mean I didn't get on both knees and say: Dear God, please give him a long lost twin, so that she could leave Koji alone. That would have been a tad bit weird.
I look over to see her stomping to him, so that could be a good sign. What am I saying? She might hurt him. Time to spirit-evolve. What am I saying? I might hurt her. Oh, love is more complicated than the movies make it seem. I am sure that this is love. I mean I have never felt this way about anyone, let alone another boy. Maybe that's it. Because Koji is a boy, my feelings are amplified. This is such a new concept that I am thinking too deep into it. Although that one time when I caught him looking at me sleep was most definitely one of the best moments of my life, for sure. But he just gave me a mean face, and turned around. I will admit that hurt a lot. I almost cried. Thank God, he did not see my face. Still, I pray that it happens again every night. We always sleep so close together, and each night is a sweeter dream about him. I swear there is nothing more heavenly than dreams about the person you love. Scratch that it would be better if those dreams come true. The other night I dreamt that we were in a cave, alone. I took off my goggles, gloves, hat, and coat. Then I approached him and took off his bandana and jacket. We stared at each other intensely. I grabbed his face, and he grabbed my hips. We pulled each other in for a kiss, but before our lips could meet I woke up. I swear one more second is all I needed. Still I woke up to see his face. How bitter sweet!
As I am lost in my many thoughts I fail to see the Legendary Warrior of Darkness sitting right next to me. Oh no! I take my hat off as quick as possible, and throw it over the necklace. Honestly, it was not worth the trouble. He obviously saw it. He just sat there, with a blank look on his face.
Koichi: Takuya, will you ever forgive me?
Takuya: For what? When you were Duskmon? I forgave you already.
Koichi: You know that is not what I am talking about that. I mean, I know as Duskmon I did terrible things. I know the one thing that is still in the back of your head.
Takuya: Do tell.
Koichi: Those moments that I almost killed Koji. When he jumped in front of my attack trying to save you, I know that you have yet to forgive me. When I almost obliterated him, and you had to push him out of the way. And it is okay that you don't. I mean if you attacked Zoe like that I probably wouldn't have forgiven …
Takuya: Whoa, you are comparing Koji to Zoe? Why is that?
Koichi: I know how you feel about my brother. I mean, who else would be the owner to that necklace you are making?
Takuya: What necklace?
Koichi: The one that you are making for my brother. You know Koji, the man of your dreams. You were looking for shells all day, Takuya. I saw it, by the way. You attempt to had it under your hat was pretty humorous.
Either he is a genius or I am an idiot. Was it that obvious? Wait, he has feelings for Zoe. I hope she has feelings for him too. Oh God, did I just say that out loud. I look at him with a smile on his face. Yes, Takuya, you said that out loud. He then hands me a pen and a paper. Where he got them from I will never know. He tells me to write a letter to Koji with the necklace. That is not the worst idea that I have ever heard, actually. Then he runs dashes into the woods. I look over, and no one is in that direction which is strange. Zoe and Koji were over there a minute ago. I swear it. They can take care of themselves. I have a letter to write. How do I start?
Dear Koji, I love you. No, absolutely not! Dear Koji, as my best friend, with whom I share a completely platonic relationship with, I give you this gift. Okay, that is definitely worse. I got it!
Dear Koji,
Is love blind? Does love at first sight exist? I do not know the answer to either of those questions. What I do know is that we all experience love differently. The way I love is intense, and it is painful. The thought, no the certainty that you do not feel the same way as I do kills me. I understand that we are two boys, and there is no possible way that you could feel the same. I often wonder if I was a girl if we would already be together. Please love me. Each and every night I dream of you. When you are not looking I stare at you. I don't know when I started loving you, but I know I love you more and more each day. Is there a stronger word than love? There needs to be. Because that word just does not do the trick. But for now, it will have to suffice. The first dream I had of you was after we were in that toy land. I dreamt that it was just you and me behind a waterfall. You had a smile on your face, and a reflection of me in your eyes. We did not talk. We just sat next to each other. Soon enough, your hand grabbed mine. Then we got close to each other. We were one. It was magical. I am not going to go in detail about every dream, although I could. I know as you are reading this, if you have not already thrown it out, you are getting creeped out. You probably will never want to be around me ever again! But if I never let you know how I feel, I will never live with myself. I asked if there was a stronger word than love, and since I do not know any it will have to do. Koji Minamoto, I love you. My heart beats for you. My brain thinks of you. My lungs breathe for you. My life is you. Again I say this, I love you!
With nothing but love,
Takuya.
I will do it. I am going to give him this letter. It is time that he knows how I feel. There just is nothing else to do. With the way the knights have been thrashing us we could go at any moment. So, I have to make sure he knows. Let me go back to making this necklace. I look over to see Koichi. I hope that everything is okay. I am sure of it. Unless the knights are there everything is fine, and since we all are still alive everything is. To my luck, I feel a pain. I look over and see a heart shaped shell. It is glowing with a color that I have never seen before. It was next to the fire; which is odd. I have been staring at this fire all night, and not once have I seen this. This will be the last piece to the necklace. Maybe this is a sign. The heart shines bright next to the flame. How romantic! If only life revolved around romance.
So, I am done the letter and the necklace. Although, there is so much more to put on the letter there just is not enough room. This whole writing thing has really done wonders for me. I hope he likes it. Now I am thinking what to write to other people. Like will I tell my mother that girls just are not for me through letter? What about my father? I am certain that he will not be so happy. He had a plan for me. And of course it ends with me having a wife. Well he will have to just adjust to Koji. Look at me saying it like Koji wants me, if he does feel the same as me that would be amazing and just amazing. Did I mention that it would be amazing? I swear he is all I think about at all times.
I continue to stare at the fire. I swear I see his face in it. This really hurts. I think this as I start to cry. If I were to tell me I am certain that he would feel betrayed. If I were him I would feel that way. I would try my hardest to get to keep my distance. I would probably even try to get back to the real world. Well, I will see tomorrow. Like I said I am telling him the morning.
As I look up at the sky, I see that I am running out of time. Morning seems to be approaching faster than I expected. I cannot believe that a world with three moons has such short nights. It is time to sleep. I wonder what amazing dream that I will have tonight.
It is the real world. I do not believe that I am in the real world. I am in my room to be exact. Oh my God! Koji is sitting on my bed with a smile on his face. Okay, this is a dream. I am asleep. He is just smiling at me. He is getting up and coming towards me.
Koji: Takuya, I am so glad that you told me how you felt. This has been the happiest that I have ever been. You see, I was too scared to tell you. When I found out that you feel the same I-I was so happy. It was an emotion that I had never experienced before, and each day it gets stronger. Takuya, I love you!
Takuya: Well Koji, I just could not keep it a secret. I felt like you and I were meant to be. Whoa, that was corny. But you understand. I love you too.
Koji: I know the letter made that clear. I cried while I was reading it. I know that is so out of character for me, but it happened. They were tears of joy of course.
Again we were about to kiss, then I woke up. It was Koichi trying to wake me. He told me I was talking in my sleep, and it got pretty weird. I am grateful that it was Koichi that heard me, and not his twin. I am a little angry at him. With all these dreams I had of him, not once have we been able to actually do it. I just stare at him with anger. Then Koji calls him over.
It seems like the two are having a pretty intense conversation. Then Koichi runs off to Zoe. The two seem pretty happy. This means that Zoe does not want Koji. This has to be the best thing ever! I am too happy at this point. Of course, that is impossible to last.
I guess that the wind blows. I see the necklace fly. It goes right into the nearby lake. I do not believe this. The necklace that I made Koji just fell into the lake. How is the wind that strong? I made the thing out of shells. Well I have to get it. I will not be stopped by some wind. That just is not possible. It is time to take off my gloves. I just cannot get them wet. They have been through too much in the digital world. It just drifts away. If only Ranamon was here. I am sure the legendary warrior of water would help me. It still shines bright, but it is too far for me to get. Of course, this means that my dream will never come true. Not one of them. This is too much for me. I fold up the letter, and put it in my pocket. At least, that has not gone away. I look over to see Zoe and Koichi kissing. I think to myself, "Congratulations Koichi. At least one of us is happy."