"Your Love, Is the Only Thing That Keeps Me from Losing Control of Myself to the Demon Inside Me, Who Chains Me Down to the Ocean that Has been Made Inside Me"
(Warnings: Slightly strong sex references, violence and description of blood + Swearing. Plus, one scene of Sexual Assault, also includes Mpreg)
Rated 18 and above only. (Note – when Ichigo refers to "it" he basically means sex.) (Ichigo's Hollow speak, in italics and bold as well as Bond speak between him and Kenpachi)
Ichigo Kurosaki
Race: Human (Quincy + Shinigami, but is also Hollow)
Birthday: July 15
Age: 18 (in this story, but in the manga, is 15 at first than 17, later)
Gender: Male
Height: 181 cm (5'11½")
Weight: 66 kg (145 lbs.)
Zanpakutō:
Shikai - Zangetsu
Bankai - Tensa Zangetsu
Kenpachi Zaraki (Zaraki Kenpachi)
Race: Soul
Birthday: November 19
Age: 24 (in this story)
Gender: Male
Height: 202 cm (6'7½")
Weight: 90 kg (198 lbs)
Zanpakutō:
Shikai - Nozarashi
Bankai - Not Yet Achieved
Ichigo's P.O.V:
Chapter 1
Dream scene:
A gasp escapes from me and I dig my hands into the forest ground as his hands grip my behind, tightly to his muscular back, while his hips slam into mine with each thrust he gives into my body then I feel him stiffen against me, while a rush of warmth - his seed fills me - while I have no time to protest as he flips me onto my back and re-enters me in a single thrust - so hard - that it makes me cry in shock that he has stamina for more. His hand, slides down my thigh and harshly bends it upwards, so now his thrusts are deeper inside me, while I weakly take hold of the back of his head, for support as he jolts my body up and down, hard and fast.
The sound of our naked skin - slapping against each other's - fills the forest clearing, - while moans and whimpers escape me, as this man- Captain of the 11th Division - fucks me hard and raw, making at some point, me cry out as he hits the thing inside me that makes me see stars. My body is on fire, while sweat is running thickly down both our bodies and I rock into him, begging him weakly as tears form in my eyes and run down my cheeks, not to stop what he is doing to me.
"Haa...I'm going to...I'm so close... I'm going to." I pant out, to warn him of what is coming as he bends his head down to my neck, where I feel his tongue lick up and down it, making me tilt my head back as my eyes flutter close at the sensation, while I feel the heat and everything else, he is doing overwhelm me, that I need to release from the pressure that has been building up.
But I can't, its though my body is telling me to wait, but for what?
"You can feel it, can't you? Feel the pressure inside you, building? You want too, don't you? Don't you?" Kenpachi whispers huskily in my ear, while I whimper weakly in reply which makes him chuckle lightly, his breath hot against my neck. " Then do it for me, Ichigo."
As he said though words, my all body goes taught, muscles stiffening as my back arches of the forest floor while I spasm weakly against him then collapse back down on the Captain's haori, that he had placed down on the moss bed. His.
I now lay there weakly, as the aftershocks wash over me then he pulls out my body, only to push back inside me. My body stiffens and I arch weakly, taking hold of his wrists for support, while he suddenly takes hold of me and flips me, so that I now straddled him. He starts to undulate his hips up and down way, that I must ride him like a jockey on a horse, while his hand, slides up my chest to brush against my nipple, which makes gasp at the touch as he now caresses with his thumb. My body tilts back slightly as I ride him, now as small gasps and breathless pants come from me, while both my hands, dig into the Captain's haori, twisting the white fabric of it in my hands for support.
I'm wet, aching and burning up, while he now speeds up his thrusts, sending pleasure shooting up my spine then it happens making a harsh cry come from me as it hits.
End of Dream scene
I shoot up in my bed, now breathing heavily as feel sweat that had formed start to trickle down my body- under my shirt- as everything in the dream, comes flooding back to me, while my breath comes in short gasps as I try to calm my pounding heart.
The dream, had been so vivid, and it felt like Kenpachi, was doing "it" as I now lay back down, trying to think in why, would I dream about him. I didn't know him that well and never had a "wet dream" like this, ever before.
I had been attracted to females, but now ever since meeting the others in the Soul Society, along with Kenpachi, my attraction had shifted to the males. When, I fought him, when saving Rukia, he had looked down at me as we clashed blades and locked them, before both of us fell, exhausted from our injuries onto the ground.
Did I love him? The way, we fought together now, was more Equals then what I was thinking.
Could it be possible, that me and him, maybe could became Lovers? I didn't know the answer to that question and maybe, it would be wise not to.
He could reject me, harshly as his Equal, if I told him the truth and yet deep down inside, I could feel the heartache, start to form as I now rolled onto my side to face the window, when suddenly I got the sense that someone was there.
Outside. Watching me, from afar, so rise slowly as I slide open the window and look out, seeing the clear night sky, above and crescent moon, hanging low. But there is no-one around and sigh softly, while now laying back down, placing my head gently on the pillow then close my eyes, as I allow myself to go back to sleep.
The morning sun, is filtering through a gap in the curtain as I wake up and lay there as I flutter my eyes open then turn to look at the time. At least it was only Saturday, and I didn't have any school then sitting up in bed, stare out the open window.
It is only 5:03, in the morning so the sun was slowly starting to rise over the horizon, making the light mist that had, seeped in, glitter like tiny diamonds. Sighing, I slide out the bed and get out some fresh clothes, then head to the bathroom, deciding I need a shower.
The water is lukewarm, as I tilt my head back and allow it to run down my body, cleaning away the dust and grime from yesterday, while placing both hands on the tiled wall. It felt different, without Rukia, living here.
She would understand, maybe if I told her the truth then off course there was Kon. But he sometimes couldn't keep his mouth shut, so that was bad idea. The others -Urahara-san, Orihime, Chad, Ishida – what would they think if I told them.
Taking my hands off the tiled wall, I switch of the shower and open the door the step out, while grabbing one of the bath gowns and a towel for my hair. Shrugging it on, I open the door and step out into the corridor, just as I hear someone coming up the stairs, but not my Dad.
"Strawberry!" I hear, a familiar voice cry out, as something with pink hair, immediately lunges straight at me and bowls me over in the process, where I land on the floor with muffled thud as I now stare at Yachiru's smiling face, as she giggles at me.
"Yachiru?! What are you doing here…KENPACHI-SAN!" I begin to say, then shout his name, in embarrassment as he appears at the top of the stairs then jolts slightly, while a faint blush rises on his cheeks as he brings his hand to cough weakly as though to cover it.
Idiot. Like, this hadn't been his intention and had set her on me, to see what would happen. Now, I was blushing as well and Yachiru, was looking at us oddly, her head going back and forth between us like a tennis bowl, as she tried to figure out what was going on.
"Umm…Yachiru, why don't you go and see Ichigo's sisters and see if they want to play with you." He said, while I got up and sorted myself quickly, while she smiled at him.
"Okay, Kenny-chan. See you, Strawberry." She says, while running off down the stairs, while I hope that for my family's sake, that Kuzu and Karin, can keep her entertained.
Heading back to bedroom, while he follows me to my bedroom door then waits for my permission as I sit down on my bed. My heart was now thudding against my ribcage as I indicate for him to come in, while he closes the door behind him, quietly then walks up to me.
"I got some news from the Research Bureau that your Reistsu has been fluctuating and acting strange, warping everything around you then settling again, Ichigo." He said, as I wonder if I should lie or tell him the truth, as he looks down at me.
"I'm fine. It's nothing, really." I said, as I stood up and headed to the chest of drawers, to get some fresh clothes, when suddenly I feel him-up against me -from behind, while his large hand covers mine.
It clasps it gently, while I feel under the bath gown, my chest rise and fall slowly as I try to calm my racing heart as I look down at it then lean back against his muscular chest as he slides his other hand around my waist.
The one-handed hug, he is giving me is gentle, which I hadn't expected to come from him. Why was he doing it though? Could it been possible that by fighting as Equals, that we had formed a kind of bond, that made us feel each other's thoughts and feelings. I didn't know the answer to the questions that were in my head.
Suddenly, a large hand, taking hold of my chin and tilting it upwards -brings me out of my thoughts- so I stare into emerald eyes, which I swear that when I had been fighting him and now, could see into my soul then his head bends down.
His lips are only an inch from mine, when suddenly I hear Kon, screaming in the corridor then the sound of him running as he comes to bedroom door. Kenpachi, moves away from me so fast, that I have no time to react as the door slams open and Kon, comes sailing through the air then lands on me, as I find myself falling backwards as Yachiru, giggling stops at the doorway.
"Ichigo…. Please get her away from me." He whimpers, as I sigh and stand up, only to wince slightly as I get up, while Kenpachi, comes over to me then takes hold of my ankle, making me cry out in pain.
"The fall sprained your ankle. "He said, while I wish he would now take his hand off it then I hear Kon, protesting and calling out my name, as I now see that he is being cuddled by Yachiru.
"Strawberry, can we play with him a little more. Please." She said to me, while Kon, weakly shakes his head at me and nod silently, which makes him give me a glare at me.
"Bastard, I get you back for this. No. Not again. Please, Ichi." He begins to say, but Yachiru, has flash-stepped away, now leaving me and Kenpachi alone as he looks up at me, then slides his hand upwards, under the bath gown I wear.
"Kenpachi?!" I weakly say, as my breath hitches as his other hand, parts the gown and I'm glad that Yachiru, had closed my bedroom door, or else this would be really embarrassing if my sisters and Dad, saw us.
His eyes glint, as he bends down and suddenly I tense weakly, tilting my head back as a breathless gasp escapes me then he growls suddenly, like a wild beast when stalking its prey.
I'm grabbed around the hips and he flings me onto my bed, on my front then lifts the gown to expose me to him. I try to breathe, but it likes I'm being choked by something around my throat as I hear the rustling of cloth and a muffled thud as it falls onto the floor then the bed creaks slightly as he gets on top of me.
He was mounting me, like a beast when in Rutting season and I wonder why was this happening now. I wasn't ready for this, I would rather take it slow and get know more about each other first before "it" happens then a harsh shove of hips into mine, makes all coherent thought go out the window, as I now grip the sheets for support as I feel blinding pain, but pleasure as well.
It's fully sheathed inside me, now and I can feel it -pulsating and throbbing- while I quiver softly, as I try to relax my body, like it said in the Sex Education booklets then his large hands, slide down my sides to take hold of my hips.
In the Sex Education booklet, it had described how two men could have sex, without hurting each other, by using a form of lube to make sure that it would be easier. Kenpachi, wasn't using any as I far as I could feel inside me, but he could have put some on without me knowing.
He soon starts to undulate his hips back and forth, slowly and gently, while I now gasp and pant as it moves in and out of me. It feels like nothing, I ever felt before and I find myself pushing my hips back in time with his thrusts as I hold, twist and grip the sheets for support.
Everything is dissolving into something I can't describe and as a heat that has been building up inside me, comes to a climax, I arch my back as a soft cry escapes me as whiteness covers my vision. It muffles out every sound, except the pounding of my heart against my ribcage then as I come down from the high, I've just experienced, feel him grip my hips tight as he stiffens against me.
There is rush of warmth, which makes me gasp softly as I feel it, then he pulls away from me. I now collapse weakly on my bed and lay there, my breathing now coming in laboured gasps, while my chest rises and falls as I try to get my breath back then the bed creaks again, as he lays next to me.
A large hand reaches up and strokes a strand of slightly damp hair as I roll to lay on my back then gently tucks it behind my ear, as I now stare up at him. He bends down and lips brush against mine to test how I will react, but I don't then fully cover mine, as I bring my hands to hold the back of his head, entangling with hair that at some point he had taken the bells out, allowing it to fall over his shoulders like a lion's mane.
What did this mean, between us?
I just had something that felt so different and new to me that I grip him tightly to me. I don't want to let go of me and yet he pulls away from, sighing in certain why then ruffles a hand through his hair.
He slides off the bed, not saying anything to me and picks up his clothes, shrugging them back on as I try not to think that maybe that just been nothing at all. I want to say something, but can't think of anything then he leaves and lay there on my bed, feeling numb inside.
Why had he done that?