She turned her face away and tried not to cry. She had fought so hard, for so long. She was so tired. Almost ready to give up. But she was mad, as well; mad at him for being such an idiot. Mad at herself for not being able to fight anymore. And, most of all, she was mad at his Other side. Mad at the part of him who, apparently, made it impossible for him to love her.
"Tonks…" She could hear him hesitate. She turned around, driven insane from rage and sorrow.
"WHAT? What now? Anything else you would like to add? Any stupid, meaningless cliché you forgot?" He looked so sad. Half of her just wanted to hug him, kiss him, tell him it was okay. The rest of her wanted to punch him for being such an idiot. Remus turned his face away. Tonks started to laugh. She knew she sounded like a maniac. She didn't care.
"Oh. Right. Walk away. You're good at that, you know. As soon as anything gets to hard, turn around and walk away. Cause then you won't have to handle it! Nice thinking, Remus. Really n-nice." She hadn't even realised she was crying. Remus seemed mad now.
"But don't you see? Don't you realise?" He was breathing hard. "I've told you so many times. It's too dangerous! I could kill you. I'm a monster. It's just not safe! Get over this, Tonks. I'm too old. Too dangerous. It's not safe." She could hardly belive what he said. Tonks stared at him for a moment, then let out a bitter laugh.
"Oh, it's not safe? I see. Do you honestly think that anybody is safe anymore? He is out there. Do you think that I'll be safer without you? Do you think they won't kill me, just because I'm not with you?" She realised she was shaking.
"What if you die?" She whispered. "What if you die, and I'll never be able to tell you I love you?" Tonks collapsed on the floor, tears flowing down her cheeks. She hid her face in her hands. She heard him sit down next to her. He removed her hands from her face and dried her tears.
"I won't die" he said. "I won't die, and neither will you." Remus smiled. And then he kissed her.
He felt so warm, she thought. He felt so warm. And then she lost herself in the kiss.
A/N: I felt like trying to write my own version of Tonks and Lupins first kiss. I'm Swedish, so if the grammar isn't that good, try and have some patience with me…
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