hello there! it is my first time writing a fic of ConYuu. I have been in love with this couple for years! and I want to write down my wild imagination into a fic. XD

hope you guys be kind and enjoy this fic of mine~!

Prologue

A handsome gentleman with a gentle expression tried to look away from that view. the view of the one he truly loved with his 'supposed' to be fiancee. Not wanting to get hurt he just muttered few words silently.

he was used to see that moment, the moment when he couldn't no longer interrupt or distract the younger one's attention. he wished he can, but unfortunately he will never be able to do so.. to hurt the younger one's fiance, as known as his little brother.

even though he was used with watching those moments, but his heart had always refused to be used by those views. at least not for now, maybe not for eternity.

letting out a heavy sigh, he gripped his own brown hairs with his hand, feeling desperate with being hopeless. 'If only...'

The brunette man started to let his thought imagining such a dream he had always wished, he has always desperately hoped for such long time. for the moment, he set his eyes on that younger one.

"Hahaha..." he chuckled bitterly, if only there was someone there, he would hold back his depression to act like he always do. he would smile, using his poker face. just to not letting anyone to realize how deep his feeling was for the King. his most beloved one.

"Wake up Conrad! you should have known it for a long time, that he will never be yours. from the start, he is never meant to be yours." Letting another bitter laugh, the brunette shed a tear down his left cheek. he was a knight that will never betray his king, moreover, it was a king that he has feeling for. just seeing him, it had made him satisfied, at least it was for some few months ago. not for now... because he no longer was able to hold back his love, the real love that had been growing bigger each day he saw those beautiful smile from that black hair young man.

Wiping away his tear, Conrad glanced once again at the place where his beloved one, Yuuri was talking with the blond one, his youngest brother, Wolfarm.

Letting a bitter smile curved on his handsome face, Conrad let out another heavy sigh. Closing his eyes while walking away from that sight.

'If only we were meant to be, Would I be the one who stand there Yuuri...? If only I knew how the thing would be, Would I be the one for you...my love?'

"Hey Yuuri! Listen to me!" The blonde guy said, trying to get Yuuri's attention.

The said man, with his beautiful black hair immediately looked behind to face Wolfram, whom standing right behind him. "What's up Wolfram?" he asked confusedly.

Wolfram just smiled and started to babbling things that Yuuri didnt even know how to react it. he was just listening what his fiance talked about. since he was a good listener to begin with. his caring side would never ignore such people who need him.

Yuuri who was standing there suddenly realize a pair of eyes had been watching them. he couldnt hold back his curiousity to make sure the one who was there, watching him in silent.

As he knew that person who was there, Yuuri couldnt help but feeling something hurt inside his heart, the same look he had ever seen few times, whenever he was talking with Wolfarm, that gentleman would always make those kind of expression. the expressions that he never wish to see.

Yuuri couldnt bring himself to not feeling curious about that look. it was not only once he had seen that same look, if only he was brave enough to ask him directly, he would erase away his doubt and curiousity. but the truth, he would never bring himself to ask that man directly, he was too afraid to know the truth.

As the older man turned away and faded away from Yuuri's sight, he was like being stabbed by a thousand knives straight to his heart. 'Why...? Why are you being like this...? Does you have a thing for me?' Yuuri cried out inside his heart, he really wished to scream those words towards the older guy, the only guy he would allow to be with him no matter.

"Hey Yuuri, are you list-?"

"Sorry Wolfram, I am not feeling well, I would like to excuse myself and go back to my room." Yuuri cut the blonde one, he wouldn't be able to hold back his emotion at the moment. he immediately turned back, not giving shits for Wolfarm's warns. Yuuri was tired, he was tired with this condition, the condition where he was no longer able to be his usual self. the condition where he was no longer able to use his poker face in front of everyone around him.

soon after a small journey to his room, Yuuri closed his door harshly, not wanting to waste his time because he was not able to hold back his tears.

Yuuri hold the necklace given to him, the little present that he got from the older guy, from that brunette man who was always inside his mind and heart.

Tears slowly started to fall down his cheeks as he slowly fell on his knees, the smile from the brunette, from the man he had always loved suddenly pop up inside his mind.

"Conrad..." He whispered between his sobs, there was no one in particular, but at least he could tell the wind around him, to tell them the named of the man he love with his whole heart.

well, this fic is supposed to be a romance, angst and drama fic. I hope you guys love this story ^_^ reviews are welcomed and loved. just tell me whatever u thought ^_^

thanks for reading!