Note: This is my fanfiction. Stephenie Meyer is the one that owns the books that inspired this story and the only thing I own in this fanfiction is the character named Kaitlyn. Thx for reading, hope you enjoy!!

Breaking Free

Jacob's POV

I lie in my bed, staring at the ceiling through the darkness as thoughts race through my head. As always, they are about the past and about her. Not a moment goes by when she doesn't cross my mind, but it was harder to deal with at night... no distractions to occupy my mind. A tear escapes my eye, I did miss her, I missed everything about her; the way she smelled, the sound of her voice, the warmth of her smile, even her clumsiness... but I had to end the confusion and torture for us both. I tried to convince her that she'd be better off with me, but she just wouldn't listen.

After all that leech put her through, she still picked him. The blood-sucker put her life in danger more than once from other leeches. That stupid leech leaves her, walks out of her life, leaving her a broken mess for me to piece back together like a puzzle. He runs off to end his own life, of course, she'd try to save him, even if it meant her own life in exchange. Then he knocks her up, only to make her get rid of the unborn child. After everything... she still stands by his side! I would've never put her through any of that, but that wasn't enough. The thoughts of our last conversation flash through my head.

"Bella, please don't leave me." I say to her while looking at the ground. I couldn't look at her torn expression. I didn't want to force her into staying, but I didn't want him to have her.

"Jacob..." She says, I can feel her eyes on me and I can hear the pain, the sadness in her voice. I look up to meet her eyes.

"Please... I... I love you too much to see you throw your life away! I'm not asking you to be with me, even though... I do want that more than anything... I'm just asking you to not be with that... that... leech." I felt the venom as I spat out the last word. I hoped it wouldn't upset her, but I just couldn't like the guy, he was my sworn enemy after all. I can feel the fury burning in my eyes. I try very hard to convince her that he's not good enough for her, that being with him is a huge mistake.

"Jake... I know how you feel, you've told me a hundred times in a hundred different ways, but I love him. Everything you feel for me... I feel for him, so you know how hard it is for me to even imagine my life without him. Jake, I do love you, you're my best friend, my personal sun! You were there for me when I needed someone. You saw through the fake smile to see everything I tried to hide. You mended my broken heart and taught me to feel again... to love again..." She puts her head down to stare at the ground, the fury in her eyes disappears and her tense body relaxes. She brings her eyes back up to meet mine, I see the strong sadness in her eyes, but at the same time, I can make out the determination too. "Jacob, loving you is not enough, not when Edward is still willing to have me. I'll be his until the day he doesn't want me anymore... even then, if that ever happened... it would take me a lifetime to get over him and move on. I'm sorry Jake, I know what you want, but I can't give that to you... please understand."

I lower my head, running my fingers through my hair, trying to hide the hurt I felt from hearing her words. She's told me this more than once and I should be used to hearing her undying resolve for that blood-sucker, but it still causes me a great deal of pain. "Bella... I know." That's all I manage to get out. We both stare at the ground, listening to the silence, feeling the light breeze surround us. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. I could feel the hot boiling anger serge through my body. The pain swelled so much that I felt like I was going to explode. I jerk my head up, a hard mask on my face, tense hatred glowing in my eyes. This had to end! I felt my whole body shaking. She looks at me with fear written on her face, she senses that this conversation wouldn't end well. I lash out with both my hands, one grabbing her shoulder and pulling her closer, the other snatching her face so that she couldn't look away.

"Listen. To. Me. Bella..." I spoke every word slow and demanding. "You can't have it both ways. When you leave here today, that's it.. don't come back! Don't call, don't write, don't visit... La Push is off limits for you now. If we see each other outside La Push, just look the other way... pretend you don't know me. You pick him then you can't have me... I can't take this, it's tearing me apart!" My hand drops from her face, but she continues to stare at me. I remove my other hand from her shoulder and take a step back. The look on her face confirms that she was expecting this from me. She simply nods her head to show she understood me and then walks past me to her car. She opens the driver side door only to turn to look at this broken man standing in his yard; shaking, heartbroken, and on the verge of exploding from all this torment. She begins to speak, it's almost so soft and low that even I can barely hear her.

"Goodbye... You'll always be in my heart... Jacob." She turns, enters her car, and closes the door. She starts the car and begins her journey back to his arms. I turn, running as fast as I could. Suddenly I explode, pieces of clothing scatter everywhere. It was easier to handle this pain as a wolf. I run as fast as my four legs will take me, as far away as I could go.