Every where he went, reminded him of Will. Their first kiss in front of the pub, their first date in his coffeehouse. Especially his apartment. Where they secluded themselves from the rest of their world showing their love and affection to one another. He missed the touch of his hand stroking his hair gently. His thoughts raged in fire and screamed out in agony and the hurt in his heart. He missed Will. Never had he thought that he would fall in love so hard. His past relationships were just a blur in his head. Only the few he did fall in love with weren't committed to the relationship that he wanted.
It was Will that he needed this time. His laughter rang in his ears, the sparkle like diamonds in his eyes, felt like shattered glass and tore his heart. Sonny stood behind the counter in a daydream, not paying attention to anything or anyone. He spilled coffee all over his shirt that he was trying to make for a customer. He shouted out in alarm at the scalding coffee which brought him back to reality. He ran to the back room and took his shirt off and wrapped a towel around him when he got cold. He moved behind his desk and sat down to relieve the burn on his chest. He sat there for what almost seemed like an hour. He put his sweater back on and went back to let Lauren know that he was leaving. It was at that time when Chad came in. He avoided his apologetic look and left before he let Chad say a word.
Walking through his apartment, he threw his keys on his desk and looked for something to eat. He found nothing as he scoured his kitchen. Sonny felt lost in his own apartment, the only person that was missing was Will. He longed for him in so many ways possible. He laid on his bed fiddling with his bracelet. He hid his tears from himself, trying not to fall against the edge of the earth. He reeled back to reality when he heard a faint knock on his door that became louder. He didn't want to see anybody right now, but he found himself walking to his door and opened it to find Will standing there.
"What are you doing here?"
"I..uh..I wanted to give your key back." He held the key out to him still holding onto it tightly before he could let it slip through his fingers.
"Why?"
"Well, I thought since you and Brian are together, you could give him the key. Since you slept with him, and got over me so quickly, I thought that it would be best to let you go." Sonny stared at him wide-eyed. He couldn't believe what he was saying.
"Why are you saying this Will? You don't have to leave. I'm not letting you go." He held his hand and looked in his eyes.
"It's better this way. I know that, despite everything we are going through right now, I love you. There is nobody that compares to you and shows love to me the way you do. If it were the other way around, I know you would feel the same. I would give up my child just to be with you Sonny. I'm sorry for being the idiot I am for not telling you before. I will always love you." Will held onto his hand one more time before he left. Sonny stood there feeling dizzy from the words. He sat down at the foot of his bed hugging his knees.
"I love you too Will. With all my heart." He stared at the key in his hand and held it tightly. He finally let the tears fall freely. He needed him. He left Will in the dark when he lost his trust for him. Now, it was Will that was leaving Sonny in the dark with nothing. Sonny was going to get him back. Even if he had to break the walls that was keeping them apart.