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Chapter One

My name is Isabella Marie McCarthy and I've had a crazy life. I've lived for eighty-five years and a lot has happened in my eighty-five years. I've experienced things many vampires don't experience, ever. I think I should start with my story from the very beginning.

I was born in Tennessee to two loving parents, Renee and Charlie McCarty. I had an elder brother named Emmett, who I miss like crazy. You see, when I was fourteen he went to go chase a bear off, and never came home. Emmett and I were very close. He gave me the nick name Belle and I was the first to call him Em. He was my goofy big bear of a brother and my protector. When he disappeared after that bear attack, we were sure he was dead. It devastated my parents and I. Our life began so much less happy after his death. Mama and Daddy didn't survive much after that anyway. Daddy was killed in an accident and Mama died of a broken heart, I think. Anyway I was the last McCarty alive and I had to make a living for myself on my own.

When I was seventeen years old I ventured out of Tennessee and to the city of Chicago for a new start. I had to give up my parents home to the bank and I was only left with my parent's inheritance, which was not a lot. When I got there I was able to get ahold of an apartment and a job as an assistant for a newspaper, which I was very lucky because during this time was the Great Depression. I changed my last name to Swan, my mother's maiden name, and instead of Belle I was Bella. It was all for my new start as a new person because honestly I didn't want to be reminded of my past.

But it was in Chicago, where my life would change forever. It was where I met the love of my life. He was a vampire, his name was Edward Masen and he was perfect.

I met Edward on the streets of Chicago and neither of us thought we'd fall in love, but we did. Edward was a vampire on a rebellion streak away from his family. He didn't tell me completely why he was rebelling, but he did mention he drank animal's blood. He told me about his adopted vampire parents, Esme and Carlisle. I had told him about my parents, and I did mention that I had a brother that died, but it was too painful to talk about Emmett or even say his name. Edward knew this so he would never ask me any questions involving Emmett. I don't even think he really knew his name, now thinking about it. Edward couldn't read my mind either, and I was the very first person to ever be immune, so I had lots of privacy.

I knew Edward would never harm me, but he thought otherwise. Edward was always so scared about my safety and well being. I thought I would live happily ever after with Edward, but he then left me thinking he would hurt me. Little did he know when he left, he left a child growing inside of me.

A little before Edward made the decision to leave, we had made love. I think making love was a mistake to him because he had given me bruises and almost hurt me in the process, so he felt like a monster. I didn't seem to mind because I just wanted Edward to change me already so I could be with him. Edward didn't want me to have the life he was living, so he left me. I never was angry at him for leaving me, I know he didn't want me to become a vampire and was trying to protect me. I was touched by how much he cared about my well being, but it doesn't mean that I didn't like his choice because I just wanted us to be together forever. But soon after he left I found out I was pregnant.

I was scared out of my mind being pregnant with a half human half vampire child. I decided to venture out for Edward to try to tell him what had happened to me so he could help, but couldn't find a trace of him. I was stumped about what to do, and the pregnancy was making me weaker by the minute. That's when I met Alice and Jasper Whitlock.

Alice and Jasper were a cute little couple making their way through the city of Chicago, and turns out they had the same diet as Edward did. Alice is a physic little pixie that couldn't remember who she was in her human life, and began to live a pretty lonely life before Jasper came. Jasper was once a member of a newborn army and was a militant vampire looking for some peace.

Alice said she had a 'vision' of me awhile back and they've been trying to find me since. I told them my whole story, and in the end Alice and Jasper made the decision to stay with me and help me through the pregnancy.

On September 10th, 1939, my beautiful daughter, Renesmee Carlie, was born. She was named after my parents and Edward's parents. Alice changed me right after I gave birth and I was in pain for two days straight until the fire had stopped. I kept my mouth shut for the sake of my daughter. I didn't want her to hear my desperate cries for help. I needed to be strong for her.

When I was changing for those two days Alice and Jasper took care of Renesmee. When I woke up I learned I had excellent self control and I even found out I had a power. I was a mental shield. I even got to hold Renesmee that day after Alice took me

Alice and Jasper stayed with me after my change and since then we've been a family. Together we became the Swan-Whitlock coven, and they even made me the leader.

Jasper has become another brother to me. We both lost siblings as humans and we ended up finding a family within each other. Alice became my sister, and Renesmee, Jasper, I were basically her first family since she could never remember hers. I was so happy though to have those two helping me raise Renesmee, and I have no clue were I'd be without them if they didn't help me. I would be all alone raising a child, that's for sure. When Renesmee was a child she use to call them 'Auntie Ali' and 'Uncle Jazzy'. She was such a smart child with an interesting power. She could show you her thoughts through the touch of her hand. It was like my power in a way, but backwards. Maybe it was like Edward and mine combined somehow, in a way.

I have met a few vampires in my years, many from hunts away from home. I did meet the Denali coven once when Jasper and I went hunting. That weekend Alice had volunteered to take Renesmee shopping since Jazz and I needed to hunt. I'm sure they thought Jasper and I were mates, but maybe that's because we're pretty close. When we met we were surprised to learn they shared the same diet as us. They told me they discovered it from an old friend of theirs. I believe he was the leader of the Cullen coven. I've never met them, but I've heard they have powerful coven. A thing about the Denali coven is that I am not so fond of Tanya, but Kate, Carmen, Irina, and Eleazar are pleasant. Tanya and I have gotten into many disagreements in the past, so unfortunately that's why I don't visit as often as I'd like. Or maybe it's because of Renesmee. I would always have to have either Jasper or Alice stay behind, or I'd stay behind, when the Denali's would ask us to come visit them. We couldn't leave Renesmee alone especially with the fact the Volturi might get her. We couldn't really trust anyone with our secret. As much as the Denali's were our friends, I didn't exactly trust them 100% because Tanya hated me and I was scared she'd run and tell the Volturi about Renesmee.

I had first heard about the Volturi from the Denali coven. Jasper and Alice never learned anything about them because Jasper was always kept away because of Maria and Alice never learned anything from anyone. She learned how to be a vampire basically on her own.

I have a huge fear of the Volturi and won't risk them finding out about Renesmee. I also really don't want to come across them either because they might pressure me into going their coven because of my mental shield or Alice's visions. Since I'm so scared of vampires telling the Volturi about her, none of the vampires I have met over the years have met my daughter; well, except for two covens. I did tell the Amazon and the Irish coven about Renesmee.

A while back we decided to move to the Amazon after years of traveling when Renesmee was about two. It's where we met Zafrina and her sisters. They became very good friends to us, in fact they became like our extended family, so I was able to entrust them with my daughter. That's where we've been spending most of our life's once we found this secluded safe haven with the amazon sisters.

I met the Irish coven next when we found a wonderful opportunity for our family in Ireland when Renesmee was about twelve. There we made friends with Siobhan, Liam, and Maggie very quickly and soon I was able to trust them with my daughter. They became family to us and in fact Renesmee thinks of Maggie as her cousin and calls Liam and Siobhan her 'aunt' and 'uncle'. They are like extended family too.

We did leave Ireland about two years later, but would sometimes go back to Ireland and travel after that. We mostly stayed in the Amazon. It was a place we could roam freely and be ourselves.

We also met Nauhel and his Aunt Hulien not too long after that; well actually, Alice had a vision of them. Renesmee was so excited to meet another one of her kind and she became fast friends with Nauhel and thinks of him as her elder brother. Though they don't have that mating bond like I was hoping for. I just want my daughter to find someone so she can be happy like I was with Edward. I can see she's lonely at times without a mate.

Renesmee is a beautiful young girl who seems to be frozen at the age of sixteen years old who could easily pass off for a fifteen year old. She reminds me of her father in so many ways. Her temper, her love of pianos and music, and she has his facial features and hair. Renesmee does have my human brown eyes, my stubbornness, love of reading, and the selflessness everyone says she inherited from me. Though Renesmee looks more like her father than me, which I am happy about. She's my little piece of Edward.

Right now Renesmee, Alice, Jasper, and I had a beautiful home in the Amazon and we spending time with our South American friends in the great unmarked land they live in. It's quite peaceful and we don't have to worry about humans as much. It's been a perfect environment for Renesmee as well to learn and grow. It's where she spent most of her childhood.

Honestly, I couldn't have asked for a more perfect life. I have a daughter I love very much, a brother and sister, and extended family. But I am lonely. I miss Edward and it's been decades since I have seen him. You see, I have yet come across my long lost lover, and I don't even know if he's out there anymore. He could have died, but then again I would have felt it. I know we're mates deep down inside, so I can feel that he's alive. I just miss him so much and ache that one day my daughter might have a chance to meet her father.

I miss my brother as well. I still have these wooden charms Emmett gave to me as children that I still proudly wear around my neck.

I can always recall this human memory for some reason. Maybe it was because it was so special to be forgotten.

I was sitting on my front porch watching the sun set on my birthday. I was turning ten this year and honestly I didn't want anything. Our country was in a depression and I didn't want Mama or Daddy spending money on me. They should be spending it on things we needed; like food and clothing. They should be saving it turning a time like this.

As I sat on the steps of the porch I felt someone approach me from behind. I turned around to see it was none other than my big brother.

"Belle I got you something," he said with a big old grin.

"Em I told you, I don't want anything," I scold at him, frowning.

"Come on Belle! I made this especially for you!" Em said, giving me a big bear grin.

"Fine." I sighed and gave into my brother.

"I made it myself," Emmett said proudly as he handed me a necklace with a heart charm that had a flower craved on it. On the back was a B. There was another charm was of a bear and it had an E carved on the back of it.

"Em this is beautiful," I compliment him as I run the charms through my fingers.

"Thanks little sis. I'm glad you like it," He said. I then go to give him a huge bear hug.

I wear that necklace alongside the diamond heart Edward had gotten me years ago, and a small locket with my daughter's picture in it from when she was a baby. I wish I could just see one of them again. That's all I ever wanted.

A/N: Okay so this is a story of mine that I wrote awhile ago. In fact I have numerous FanFictions that I wrote, but some of them I don't want to post and some of them I do but I have major editing to do because the grammar is just horrible. This is one of those stories that I half way completed it but stopped a one point. So I am finally going to post it with some other Fanfics of mine once this one is completed. I still have the Sunrise Saga, Ever Since We Met Trilogy, and Unbroken that I am currently writing and those are my first priorities plus I still need to finish this one up so don't expect it to be updated as often. Anyway in the meantime please review and tell me what you think :)