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One day, six hours, and thirty-seven minutes ago I lost the love of my life. I will do anything it takes to get her back. I don't care what it takes. No matter how many buildings I have to burn to the ground or how many times I have to fight Jonathan to the death I will get her back. Clary deserves better than me, but I swear by the angle that I will drag that monster to the depths of hell if he lays one finger on her.
I pull my knees to my chest and shudder, trying not to think about all the things he could have done to Clary. Why oh why did I have to leave her up on that roof with him? Why didn't I volunteer to stay up there with her? Why couldn't I have just seen that he would wake back up and hurt her? The demon wanted to posses me, Clary wasn't even involved, but now they have her.
Salty rain-drops fall from my eyes and I hastily wipe them away with the back of my hand. I hadn't cried since I was a boy and Valentine broke the neck of my hunting falcon, but ever since I walked up on that roof and saw Clary and Jonathan missing with spattered blood on the ground, I've been worse than a girl after a Nicolas Sparks' movie.
I hold in another sob. Clary would have loved that comparison. I have to find her and the Clave is doing next to nothing. I have been out all day and night along with a few others looking for her but there isn't even any evidence besides the blood on the roof to lead us anywhere. The only reason I'm in my room now and not out looking for her is because Alec and Izzy locked me in here, saying that I needed to rest.
I grip my hands tight together until my fingernails make my palms bleed. I let out a vicious cry before punching a hole straight through my wall and into the next room. This is so maddening! Why should I get to rest when Clary is probably going through hell right now? Why does the universe hate me so?
"Jace?" I hear an alarmed voice peep out from the other room who I punched a hole into. Oh yeah I forgot, Alec lives next door.
"I thought you needed another window," I spit maliciously wondering if Clary has any windows where she is. What if she is locked in a windowless room, like some kind of cage? The thought makes me shudder.
"Jace," Alec says, turning into that parental tone that he always used to use on Izzy and I when we were kids and he declared himself the oldest and therefore, in charge. "You know you're going to half to fix that later."
"What does it matter Alec?" I scream. "Clary's gone and no one is doing shit to find her!" I yell. Alec lets out a huff from the other side of the wall. Isabelle says that I am being difficult, that throwing temper tantrums isn't going to help anything. Then what is, Isabelle? Going on halfhearted search parties throughout the city when they are probably out of the country be now?
Suddenly my door flies open and Alec and Isabelle are running in with worried expressions on their faces. I hate that look. Everyone has been giving it to me since I looked around on that roof and broke to the ground when I saw she wasn't there. The sympathy mixed with worry. Like they feel sorry for me, but they don't want to get to close for fear of how I will lash out.
"Jace, punching holes through the wall isn't going to make them find her any sooner." Isabelle says flatly, she is almost in denial over the whole thing, just like Simon. I have never been close to Clary's mother, but at least she feels the same way I do.
"Then what will?" I shout, my chest rising and falling at a heated rate. I lock with Isabelle's eyes and see no answers. This breaks something inside me. No one even knows what to do to get her back. I press my hands into my face, not caring who sees me cry anymore. "What if it is already too late? What if he has already killed her?" I ask roughly.
Suddenly Isabelle's arms are around me, and I feel Alec sit awkwardly on the edge of my bed.
"You can't think like that," she says. "If Jonathan wanted to kill her, then he would have right then on the roof and left her body for us to see. He took her for a reason Jace," I let myself fall against her, not sure how much comfort her words provide me.
"We are going to find her Jace, I know it." Alec says from his perch on my bed.
"Don't lie to me Alec!" I snap at him. "You don't know that! What if we never find her? What if she lives like a prisoner for the rest of her life just because I wasn't thoughtful enough to stay up on the roof with her that night?"
"Jace this isn't your fault, nobody could have known that this would happen," Isabelle tries to reassure me.
"I should have just stayed." I snap with finality.
"Jace," Alec starts, when I suddenly leap out of bed and start heading for the door.
"I'm going to find her." I say with force, blind determination to find my familiar red-headed love driving me forward.
"Jace!" Both Isabelle and Alec cry as they grab my arms and try to hold me back. I struggle against them but unfortunately with the combination of two against one and me not wanting to hurt them, I can't get past.
"You really think that you are going to find Clary in your pajamas after you haven't slept for days and just battled a Demon?" Alec hisses as he puts his full weight into holding me back.
"You need to rest Jace! You're never going to find her, or be able to fight Jonathan in this condition! You can look for her in the morning, after you get some sleep!" Isabelle commands.
After minutes of me pushing against them, I finally give in and let them throw me onto my bed. My thoughts in a haze as all I can think about is Clary, how she talks, how she walks, that cute little face she makes when I say something that I know will annoy her.
"I brought some of Hodge's famous sleep potion. It should knock you out for a little while," Izzy says.
I glare at her, not wanting to take it. What if something happens while I'm out? What if they find Clary but they can't get her back because their best fighter, me, isn't there? No, I am not taking that. I cross my arms in refusal.
Before I know what is happening Izzy lands a hard kick to my shin. I open my mouth to complain when suddenly Alec is pouring the contents down my mouth. I begin to choke, but the liquid slides down anyway. Isabelle and Alec stand over me looking like they just had to give their child a shot. I sneer at them as my eyes start to drop.
"You needed this Jace," Alec says. "Come find us when you wake up and we'll go out with you." With that the two of them leave my room and I am all drugged up and alone.
I fight off fresh tears as my conscious mind slowly starts to shut down and Clary comes back to mind. I'm sorry Clary. I'm sorry that I ever let this happen to you.
My eyelids feel like lead as they crash down, my breathing starting to turn even no matter how much I try to fight it. I am seconds away from being taken by dreams when suddenly an unforgettable, lovable, and complimented by red hair, voice rings through the room.
"Jace?"
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