Emotion Sickness
A/n: This is a Yaoi/shonen-ai (AKA Homosexual romance) Brad and Bit romance, but not quite, Brad loves Bit, but does he (Bit) even care? I don't know, it'll all depend on what happens in my life, it was somewhat inspired, by my life and a Book I read. (The Blue Lawn, can't remember by whom) But that just made me wanna write it, shonen ai. It was a good book, needed more Yaoi scenes, but it wasn't exactly like that so it was too much and not enough all at once. Just read the book. I give a take on why Brad needs cash. It's sad, I was inspired by "Girl Interrupted" By: Susanna Kaysen. And "Cut" by Patricia McCormick Well, this isn't a one chapter bid, I'll do at least 2 more chaps. Hopefully. ^_^ I wrote this while listening to Ani DiFranco. *purr* Mainly the song "Two Little girls" and DAMN! It is hot at the comp. Oh this takes place when Brad is walking away from Bit in the Episode where Leena's taken hostage by Polta. *gets fan* that's better. Oh and "Emotion Sickness" is a Silverchair song. Now all of you, BOW DOWN TO DANIEL JOHNS!! Damn you! *giggles* Now onto the Disc.
Disc: Don't own Zoids, Don't own Ani DiFranco Or The Blue Lawn, Girl Interrupted or Silverchair to my dismay. I do own Tori though. I have included Silverchair's "Emotion Sickness" in here as well, It's off Neon Ballroom. Oh Buy Diorama when It comes out in the USA it rocks I have it. Now on to the Brad! Ps: thoughts are in '/ /'s and italics…. Lyrics in '~ ~' and bold.
Emotion Sickness: Chapter One: What You'll Never Know
Brad found it hard to walk away from the handsome golden haired warrior, trying his best to push his feelings aside.
~Erupt again, ignore the pill,
And I won't let it show~
/He's so beautiful, but he just can't understand…./ he thought, watching the boy's silhouette across the fiery sky fade, as he gained distance, from the single glance over his shoulder. He walked to the Hover Cargo, which was kept at some space away from the Base, and launched the Command Wolf. It made a small howl as it knew where they were going while Brad inputted that data for autopilot.
~Sacrifice the tortures
Orchestral tear cash flow~
He hung his head in his hands, elbows resting on the controls. The brunette Mercenary thought of his itooshi ((beloved, the one you love, like in the Fushigi Yugi theme "Itooshi hito tameni" great song by the way… ))…. The overconfident warrior who had been toying with his emotions since he'd retrieved Leon for them. He thought of how he looked now, worried and guilty seeming over Leena, a girl he may care for, even though she pretty much hated him. /Worried for her, not me…but then, when you're like me, you can't hope too well./ he admitted, painting Bit again in his mind, just to try and smile and clear away all his misery. Wind gently moving his spiky blonde hair, the sunset glowing in it, the way his sea green eyes contrasted the crimson, the way his lips moved, softer and gentler in that wonderful moment. /At least I can dream that he was worried about me…/ Brad thought again, as the Command Wolf let out a low growl to alert him they were almost there.
~Increase delete, escape defeat,
It's all that matters to you,
Cotton case for your iron pill
Distorted eyes, when everything is clearly dying.~
Brad walked into the large white building, up the stairs with a bouquet of wildflowers, through a series of check points, to a final nurses' station.
"Hello, Mr. Hunter! Tori has been waiting to see you!" The nurse said looking up.
"She's doing okay then?"
~Burn my knees and,
Burn my knees and,
Burn my knees and,~
"Today, she had a little trouble last night, but one of the other girls was able to calm her down. She had another nightmare." The nurse told him as a younger girl, perhaps 14, walked into the room beyond the last check point, smiling, raven hair cut short, wearing a blue dress that stopped a bit past her knees, holding a paper. The Nurse opened the door and he walked inside.
~Emotion sickness
Addict with no heroine
Emotion sickness
Distorted eyes when everything is clearly dying~
"Hey," He said handing her the flowers as she grinned and gave him a big hug.
"Oniichan! ((Brother))" she said happily as he grinned and patted the top of her head. Brad looked at her again, /she does look a little better…/ he tried to convince himself in his head.
~Burn my knees and,
Burn my knees and Pray….
Burn my knees and,
Burn my knees and pray….~
"Look!" She ordered with enthusiasm, holding up a picture of the well kept grounds, she'd painted.
"It's beautiful." he told his little sister honestly, sitting down with her.
"Brad, tell me some more stories, about your battles! And maybe some of that cute boy you like!" She said cutely narrowing her dark blue eyes, resembling her brothers'.
"W-what? What boy?" He faltered, blushing as she smiled cheerfully.
"Don't lie….'sides! I think it's sweet."
"So how'd you find out? I haven't said anything, or am I that obvious?" he asked blushing still.
"No you aren't, Naomi made one little slip and I begged it out of her." Tori grinned, looking much like a fox, as Brad did the same, thinking of his childhood friend. "Now tell me!"
"Okay, all right." He let out a jokingly, over exaggerated sigh and began. "His name is Bit Cloud, he's on the Blitz, team who I've been working for." He paused unhappily, "I don't think he feels the same. I think he likes Leena, the girl on the team."
"Poor Brad, how do you know?"
"It might just be guilt, or maybe genuine worry…..I don't know. But she was kidnapped by the Backdraft Organization. They're holding her for ransom, in an unsanctioned battle."
"Really? Then why aren't you helping get her back?" She asked as he shook his head.
"It's not my problem, plus it's an unsanctioned battle, therefore I don't get points or Prize money, and I need all of it for you—" He started but she cut him off.
"Brad…you have a life too."
"No, right now getting enough money to keep you here is my top priority and this place is pretty damn expensive, but it's worth it, you're getting the right care, medication, attention, help, all things I can't give you….right?" he trailed off sounding forlorn.
"Brad it's not your fault, it's mine!" She said tears welling up in her indigo eyes, as Brad tried to say something but had no idea how to put anything right.
"Tor' it's not your fault you're….you're…"
"Crazy!?" She said as he shook his head.
"Don't say that. You are not crazy. You just have some….problems, and I'm helping you fix them…is that better?" he hoped as she sniffled and wiped her eyes.
"A little…Sorry…thanks…." She trailed off thinking. "But you have to go help them, do it for me. If you really care about Bit, you have to let him know that, even if he doesn't feel the same as you."
Brad Hesitated. "I guess, yeah. You're right."
"Uh huh! I always am!" she said standing with him. "Now go! Or you might be too late!"
"Okay, okay…." He said giving her a hug.
"Will you be okay?"
"Yes, hayaku! ((Or something of the sorts, it means hurry, quickly to be precise.))" She said as he nodded and left.
~GET UP!
GET UP!
GET UP!
GET UP!
GET UP!
GET UP!
GET UP!~
Brad stood alone against the twilight, watching Bit and the Liger Zero trying to fight off all the remaining enemies. He watched them take hit after hit falling slightly. "Bit…" He whispered, before turning and climbing into his Command Wolf.
He struck a deal with Doctor Tauros, he raced into battle taking out Bit's main attacker. . Bit's handsome, smiling face came onto the screen.
"Brad! I've never been so happy to see you! Thanks. " Brad found it hard to control his mild blush and gave a small smile back.
"Don't mention it. Let's go." he said taking off at a run, Liger Zero following closely. "I'll keep the Main Saber Tiger distracted, and you find him and nab him."
"Are you sure?" he asked nervously, aware of the danger he, Brad, faced.
"Yeah! Now go!" Brad yelled veering to the right.
~Won't you starve my brain!?~
The brunette mercenary fired where the enemy was shooting from, striking up dust form the dry desert ground., and Bit took out the now visible Saber Tiger.
The judge reluctantly announced the winner and blasted off. Bit kept his lime coloured eyes locked with Brad's, who couldn't help but blush a little.
"Thank you." Bit aid finally.
~Emotion Sickness…..
Addict with no Heroine……
Good things will come….
(It helps; makes you feel relaxed…(?))
Lessons learned~
Brad tried to stay casual and composed and not to blush as Bit nuzzled his bare arm, laughing about how Brad saved them all. Brad tried to make a spur-of-the-moment rude insult, but it wouldn't come out right, then Doc reminded him about the deal of him getting Bit's next paycheck. He felt a little guilty for it being Bit's but Tori needed it. Bit sighed and made a face, but still rested on Brad's shoulder.
~Emotion sickness…
Lessons learned………~
[end chapter one To Be Continued…]
A/n: So? I like it, my first Yaoi, written that is, but hey it's not too bad. Sure beats "Foolish Games" *gag* I can't believe that came outta me. The first 2 chaps are good but at the end of two *Imitates something making a dive-bomb and crashing into the ground* Eeeyyeah! I'll start two tonite; I have nothing else to do.
You should really read Girl Interrupted, if you like stuff about being in mental asylums et cetera. It's a really good book, I can't judge the movie though haven't seen it, yet. Oh and if you didn't catch that, Brad's imotoo (sis) is in one. That's what I was getting at. Blah, hehe, and by the looks of it yer getting a happy ending. I got a girlfriend! ( I also know because I already wrote it!) Yeah so Kara, *HUG* I miss you! ((after July third: Grr…*hiss*))
Ja' minna-san.