Ok so this has been sitting in my Drive for a while now and I wasn't going to post it for until I finished Rehab ain't that bad (you should go check it out if you haven't). But MistressDaisy94 convinced me to post it. this story is going to switch POV's a lot but mostly from Aj's. If you haven't read I'm the Black Widow you should probably go read it, because you might get lost on what is going on... Or dont whatever I'm not your dad! So to all my Leeana lovers I present to you Stop at Nothing (sequel to I'm the Black Widow) ENJOY :)
Aj's POV
Damn she looks so beautiful in her dress she really does look good in anything. I can't believe we've made it this far! Through all the brightest hours and darkest hours somehow we managed to make it through still in love. I guess Lay was right love is an impenetrable force and if it is pure you can make it through anything together. But I have to say Layla, Michelle, and their little girl Laelynn are just the cutest little family ever I noticed as they both smiled at me as I walked past them. I hope our family turns out as cute as theirs... Then again regardless if we decide to adopt, or if we decide to do a doner our family will be cute especially since me and Aksana will be parents. But that isn't going to be anytime soon because we are both in the prime of our careers.
I snap out of my thoughts when I finally reach the end of the isle and she grabbed my hands.
"You look so beautiful right now I'm so glad you're mine!" She whispers to me.
"I can say the same for you!" I smile back
"We are gathered here today to witness the joining of the true love bond in Živilė Raudonienė & April Jeanette Mendez... Or Aksana & Aj as they are known to the world." Began the priest. I zoned out on what he was saying until it was time to read our vows. "Živilė would you like to go first?" He asked. To which she just shook her head yes and began to search for something in the top of her dress. She then pulls out a piece of paper and looks at it then frowns a little bit.
"Hmm you know what forget that I'm just going to say what I feel in my heart!" She smiled as she threw the paper over her shoulder and then grabbed my hands again. "April my beautiful geek goddess, my one and only, my everything you mean the world to me. I remember when I first laid eyes on you six years ago, you were the first girl I've ever wanted to actually be with forever. And you wouldn't even give me the time of day and if you did you wouldn't talk to me for more than a minute. Little did we know we would end up in the Hilton ballroom in Cleveland, Ohio getting married. I have to say besides Lisa over there you are one of the weirdest, most energetic, cutest, psychopath I have ever met!" She chuckled as she pointed to Lisa who was laughing along with her. "But for some odd reason it draws me in. With everything you say or do just makes me fall even deeper in love with you, and I promise to always protect you everyday until my last breath. I also promise to never intentionally hurt you in any shape or form. And I will continue to put up with all your crazy antics and all your dark moments because that is what people do when they are in love... Oh yea and I promise to walk Devo more often so he doesn't pee on the floor again and so you won't step in it and freak out again." She smiled at the time Devo peed on the floor in our house and I unknowingly stepped in it barefoot.
"Ok April it is your turn." Spoke the priest.
"Živilė my foreign beauty, the light on my darkest days, my very own super hero, the only person who puts up with my nonsense and is still around. You perhaps are the most weirdest person I've ever met. You are the only person I know who puts French fries and chips on your burgers, and if it isn't that then you just eat whatever you feel like. I remember when we first met six years ago, its true I almost never gave you the time of day. And everyday she would try and I would just laugh. But who knew that a drunken one night stand was all it took for this relationship to start? Nonetheless one crazy Monday night is all it took for me to realize I love you, in fact it was this exact hotel, room 525 to be exact. We have had a lot of ups and downs, we've already hit bottom so we can only go up from here. So I vow to always fight for you and protect you too. Heros can come in all different sizes. I promise to always remain loyal to you and every night I will go to bed with you and only you. And I promise to never break your heart intentionally or ever really." I smiled
"Ok great now is there anybody here who objects to the joining of these two speak now or forever hold your peace... Ok well if nobo-"
"I have something to say!" Says a voice that I could have sworn was not invited to our wedding.
"How the hell did you get in here Phillip?!" Aksana growled
"Well it wasn't hard turns out the guard is a CM Punk fan. Besides I don't object to you two getting married... I just think there is something you should know before you put on that ring Aksana." He said calmly.
"And just what would that be, I've already won this battle she is mine!" Aksana smirked
"Well I can't exactly say it but I have a video right here on my tablet. Here allow me to show you!" He said as he pulled out his tablet and the video begins to play...
Damn it! This happens a lot now. I finally fall asleep and I have a beautiful dream of me and Aksana in the future but in the end it always ends with Punk ruining everything with that stupid video. And everytime I see it over and over again it was bad enough that I had to see it once. The look on Aksana's face two months ago, or fifty-seven days ago, or eight weeks and six days ago. Which ever one you decide to chose it's still the worst day of my life December 17, 2013, yea I have nothing to do but count days. And I can never forget the look on her face that night when I looked into her eyes. I saw hurt, anger, disbelief, betrayal, sadness I saw it all. But I saw her heartbreak and it was all because of one stupid mistake I did in a moment of weakness.
I can't help myself but to just wallow in my own self pitty. If I don't have her then I have nothing. Nothing has any meaning to me any more. Eating isn't as fun as it use to be, I can't sleep and if I do it only last for an hour or less before I wake up crying over losing her. Even wrestling doesn't give me that spark of happiness or energy, if anything it just makes me even more depressed. I have nobody waiting for me backstage to celebrate my match win or lose. It always feels like everything takes forever minutes turn to hours, hours turn to days, and days turn into weeks. I hate going out because it's the same thing each and every time from the fans. "Why would you do that to her?" Or "You two were so cute together! She was the best thing that could have happened to you." And "You should be ashamed of what you did to her, all she did was love you!" Oh and my favorite one of them all! "Once a hoe always a hoe! You can't have a relationship for more than three months!" If it isn't the fans who harass me then it's the fact that everything reminds me of her. Everywhere I go I see her face, everytime I think, I think of her. But at the end of the day I'm still heartbroken and alone. I have nothing but myself to blame for this and I deserve every single minute of it.
Soon after that morning two months ago they moved her to the Smackdown roster so now I don't see her very often anymore. But when I do I swear each time she gets more and more beautiful. She seems to be doing ok I suppose, its hard to tell at times. Sometimes when we have Supershows, me and her would make eye contact from across the room and I can see the hurt in her eyes in those three precious seconds before she looks away. I know she knows my life sucks without her but I don't think she cares about me that much anymore. I guess seeing her for a few seconds is better than not seeing her at all. God I miss her so much. Her laugh, her voice, the way she walks, her smile, her curvy body, those beautiful green eyes of hers. Everything about her I miss even the way she would yell at me when I did something she didn't like. Oh and how she would scream out in her native language when I make her cum, I miss that A LOT.
I want it all back! I want to spoil her with gifts. I want to be the one who buys her flowers. I want to be the one she hugs and kisses everyday. I should be the one who she goes to bed with and wakes up with everyday. It should be me holding her hand. I should be the one who makes her laugh. I want to cuddle up with her on cold days, or when it rains. I should be the one to make love to her. I should be hers, not some stupid self professed Internet Champion. Yea thats right I'm talking about HIM! Who does he think he is? He must think I'm stupid, but I can see how they have started to become close over the weeks. I know she is just putting up a front because behind that smile and deep down inside of her there is still hope. Hope that Leeana will rise again and be stronger than ever, she doesn't love him nor could she love anybody the way she loved me. I broke her and I am the only person who can fix her. I know I can get her to forgive me I just have to try. So with that being said I have a few ideas that should work.
Anyways if you did your math right and your memory is good, then you would know it is February 12, 2014 two days away from Valentine's day. That is when I plan on getting my girl and my future back. I don't exactly know how long it is going to take, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get back what was mine in the first place. And I promise to pull out all the plugs, I will stop at nothing to get Aksana back! Even if that means I have to throw my pride out the window and make myself look like a fool, I will do it. I'll do it for love.
Fuck it my pride was gone the minute Punk started to play that stupid video. So I guess that means I literally have nothing to lose anymore.
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Aksana's POV
I remember when I use to think that love was such a beautiful harmless thing. Or at least that was until the day I met Aj, and I decided to seek help from my cousin to help make her mine. It was all rainbows and glitter when I finally got Aj as my own, but life just doesn't work that way eventually it will turn on you and leave you broken. You can't avoid it and you certainly can't see it coming, but when you do it will either make or break you. It just so happens my fate decided to just break me in half and throw me away. Who knew the two people who you put on a pedestal would both stab you in the back together? I sure didn't. I remember people telling me Aj was nothing but trouble and I should just stay away from her, but I guess there was something about possibly taming WWE's notorious love seeking crazy chick that drew me in even more than I already was. And then I did the unthinkable I tied Aj down and she was supposedly madly in love with me like I was with her. Everything she did was just so perfect or cute to me. Until I saw the dirty secret she had hidden for who knows how long. I just want everything to go my way... But as of late a lot of shit has been going sideways.
As much as I hate to admit it I still love Aj and I think I always will. She was my first serious love and like they say you never get over your first love. No matter how hard I try to move on from her I can't but at the same time I don't want to. Its like an on going war in my head of what to do, move on or take her back. Everybody says I should move on but it isn't that easy. Like for an example I know Zack would love to be my other half, I can tell by they way he treats me. He is a total sweetheart and honestly I could possibly see us together in the future... But there is something holding me back from letting it happen. I'm just not emotionally or mentally stable for any intamate relationships right now. And I feel so bad if I'm leading him on to think I have deep feelings for him, but for now I just see us as friends. Even if I were to try... I still love Aj but I can't go back to her, I don't want to get my heart broken again. Everything just feels so weird without her.
I remember how sometimes at night, after we had Thanksgiving break together, Aj would wake up out of a bad dream she would try to act like she wasn't scared or anything. Everytime it seemed she forgot I was holding her and I can feel her squirming around and hear her whimpering. I should have figured something was up, because she would always tell me no matter what she does she will always love me. The signs were right in my face the whole time, the way she would awkwardly shift whenever I mentioned Victoria. Or how whenever I would text or call somebody she would ask if I was talking to her. I was so blinded by love to see it, but man did she do a good job of acting like it never happened. So now I really know why she was crying that day when I called her. But how was she able to sit and lie to me like that everyday. I guess I was just another pawn in Aj's game of getting what she wants. And if getting Aksana to fall hard for her and then break her heart was on the list... Well she can cross it off the list because not only did she break my heart but she managed to make me hate my own bestfriend.
If you were to ask me how I'm doing I would probably tell you I'm doing fine. I would lie and say she isn't on my mind anymore, but in reality I unfortunately think about her every day when I wake up and before I go to bed. I guess I'm just so use to waking up with her in my arms, spending the day with her, and falling asleep with her in my arms. Its still hard to go through all my daily rutines because more than half of them invlove me and Aj doing something together. One would think I would be use to doing things alone, but I guess I'm the odd one out. Sometimes I have dreams of me and her in the future post our wrestling careers. Yea we had a beautiful house in the suburbs of Tampa and two beautiful children who look like mini versions of ourselves. Even baby Devo had his own little family. But its too bad that will probably never happen if it weren't for my backstabbing bitch of a cousin Victoria.
Yea I said it she is a backstabbing bitch! She keeps trying to apologize to me but I don't want to hear it. In fact I don't give two fucks about what she says to me. Everyday she calls and everyday I ignore it. She knew how much I loved Aj and she just had to go and sleep with her behind my back. And the best part about all this is she was someone I looked up to, my bestfriend, my sister, and she fucks me over. And now all the love I had for her is gone, I don't care enough about her anymore to feel some type of way towards her.
But I can't put all the blame on Vic because it's just as much Aj's as it was hers. For all I care Aj could apologize all she wants and I can forgive her, but I don't trust her anymore. You can't have a relationship without trust. Since that day two months ago they moved me to the Smackdown roster. Good thing because I don't know if I would be able to handle seeing her a lot like if I were on the RAW roster. But when they have the supershows I sometimes see her sitting on the crates or in catering and she looks so cute when she wears her glasses with her hair down. Sometimes I catch myself staring at her and then she would look up and we would make eye contact. I can tell she's hurting just like I am. I noticed in all her matches she seems to just not care anymore like she isn't feeling it that much anymore. She looks like she hasn't slept in weeks, and she looks skinnier than usual. She looks miserable, and I know she can tell I miss her too. But I can't let her see that so before she has a chance to see it I look away. I'm still hurt and in shock about everything that happened. If there is one thing I remember my mom telling me is to never show your emotional emotions out in public save it for when you are alone then you can cry them all out into your pillow. There are some exceptions to it but you should never ever cry out in public, because if you do that then people will think you are weak and vulnerable. So yea sometimes I cry about her but I regret nothing about our relationship it was the best six months of my life.
I know most people probably think I absolutly hate Punk for what he did. But to be honest I have to thank him to some degree. If it weren't for him I would have never found out what happened. Of course I wouldn't say it to him personally it would only inflate his ego even more than it already is, and I don't want to have to deal with that. I honestly don't know what I want in life anymore. At the end of the day we are both broken and too scared to do anything about it.
well what do you think? Yes this story is going to be a roller coaster of emotions. the first two chapters stater of slow but pick up in the third chapter. Yea so I guess we just have to wait to see how this all plays out. Remember if you kill a cow you gotta make a burger -Joz anybody catch that allusion to a different story that I'm writing but haven't posted?