Disclaimer: Not mine
Fandom: Curse of Chalion
Summary: Roya Ias to Dy Lutez. Because not everybody in Curse of Chalion got an happy ending.
Missing
Where did you go?
You were always there for me. When I spoke, you listened. When I hurt, you comforted me. Whe I felt happy, you were there to share my joy. When I turned you were right behind me.
And now…
What did I do?
No, no – what did we do?
Because you were just as much a part of it as me and Ista. Just as much – and maybe more. For we – Ista and I – we just hoped for a solution and you were the one to offer…
Why did I accept? I could have refused, I could have said no… No, I couldn't. Because it was you right to offer, your right to decide. And I could not have refused your offer for I am a roya and a husband and a father…
You knew it. I could not leave it. Even when you... I could not stop.
Forgive me.
I do not even know if what we tried could have helped in any way. I do not know if the curse could have been lifted – from me, from my family, from my land. I do not know. I am sorry. I do not know if I could have done anything differently. I do not know if anything can help my family. Myself.
And at this moment I cannot find it in me to care.
I miss you. As stupid as it sounds for a man grown – I do not think I can live without you. At least not really.
I miss you.