this just poped into my head i swear.

I feel I have to write this down... have to get it out so that even if the ones I once called my friends kill me... they will still know... what truly happened... that I never truly fell, that I had never truly lost my heart… that I was simply…

Lost

When it happened I couldn't believe it.

Myself, Donald and goofy had been fighting a new enemy who, guess what, was after kingdom hearts. Isn't there something else the bad guys can go after? Nevermind, anyway, we were fighting him and nearly had him beat when I went to go into Master form, when the stranger, whose name I never got, did something strange involving darkness, and I ended up in anti-form. At least that's what I thought I had ended up in. after I had succeeded in offing him, I noticed that I couldn't feel the drain from the dive form, and that the form I was in was... off. I was still wielding oblivion for one, but the form had claws as well. I turned to Donald and Goofy, to find them, with complete looks of terror, backing away from... me. It was then what the guy had shouted at me as I had entered this form actually registered. "Be consumed by eternal darkness, and lost to the light forever!"

I took one step towards my friend (are they even my friends now? it seems so hard to see them as anything but... not enemies, but defiantly not allies...) and they fell into battle stances, hesitant ones, like they couldn't believe that I was truly a dark creature now, but still they looked like if I took one step closer I'd be on the receiving end of a Thundaga and an energy enhanced shield. By this time I was really and truly panicking, and I could hear a voice calling me, enticing me with safety and rest and comfort and the general stuff the two who looked ready to give a good shot at offing me usually gave. So I ran. I ran hard and fast towards where I could still here the voice and found myself stumbling into darkness.

Before the curse (what else could I call it?) the darkness would have scared me, frightened me, chilled me to my core and sent me into a semi-permanent battle mode. but then...now I suppose, it felt like coming home, and that scared me more than anything else I have ever faced.

What had I become?

Was I truly "consumed by darkness and lost to the light forever?"

Was I even...? Could I truly still call myself...?

'...Sora...?'