Author's Note:

Okay, so I'm incredibly new to the world of Lost Girl and Doccubus. I just finished eating up all three seasons in the last two weeks and I must say, Doccubus is AMAZING! So in celebration for the return of Season 4, I wanted to write this story. It sort of struck me while watching the first eppy of the season. After the disappointing back half of S3, I decided I'd write what happened after 'Fae-ge against the Machine,' a little differently. I'm usually a reader, but I couldn't help myself so I decided I'd try my hand at writing. Anyway, hope you all enjoy.

Summary: It's been 8 months since Lauren disappeared the night she agreed to go to dinner with Taft. Bo and the others haven't seen her since. As the days drag on, Bo starts to lose hope that she'll ever see Dr. Lauren Lewis again. What happens when she and Kenzi finally see the good doctor, only to find that she has no idea who they are and goes by the name of Karen?

Chapter 1 – I found you.

Eight months. That's how long Lauren had been missing. Eight months, two days and 16 hours to be exact. Bo had been sitting at her kitchen counter for the last two hours drowning her sorrows with a bottle of Gin as she stared blankly at the refrigerator door. After another unsuccessful day of trying to find Lauren, Bo needed something to make herself feel better.

Ever since the night Lauren went missing, the Succubus never gave up hope, but as the days turned into weeks and the weeks turned into months, she started to lose that hope. Her and Kenzi's searches became less and they started to take work as "Private Hot-Vestigators" again. Bo couldn't help but blame herself for Lauren's disappearance.

'You weren't exactly the best girlfriend, now were you?' Bo thought bitterly as she took another swig of Gin. She sighed and finally decided it was enough drinking and head to bed for a mid afternoon nap. Bo saw the couch and decided that was much closer than her bed.

8 Months Ago…

As soon as the door closed behind Tamsin, Bo sighed. She really didn't mean to miss out on Lauren's special night, but she didn't have a choice.

'Yes, you did,' the voice in Bo's head told her. 'You should have tried harder!'

The Succubus shook her head and made her way into Lauren's kitchen to put the bottle of Champagne back in the fridge. On her way back to the couch, Bo spotted what she assumed was Lauren's award. Picking it up, she smiled as she read Lauren's name on the award. She couldn't help but remember how excited Lauren had been earlier about the award. As quickly as that smile appeared, it went away as she started to feel guilty again. Bo placed the award back on the table and walked over to the couch, plopping down on it. Checking her phone again, it was already 9:43pm and Lauren had yet to call her or send her a text.

Bo started to feel a little worried. She knew that no matter how mad Lauren may have been at her, she was sure her girlfriend wouldn't be out this long without at least sending her a text. Again, the Succubus tried the Doctor's phone again. It went straight to voicemail.

"Lo, I know you're probably still mad at me, I'm really sorry hun. Please call me as soon as you get this. I need to know that you're safe. I-it's getting late and I'm worried about you...Please call me."

Just as Bo ended the call, her cellphone rang. She checked it and saw that it was Dyson. At that moment, she didn't really want to deal with him so she sent him straight to voicemail.

"Sorry Wolf-man, but you're not exactly the person I want to hear from right now," Bo said aloud to the empty apartment as she threw her phone down beside her and leaned back against the back of the couch. As time ticked by with still no Lauren, Bo started to become increasingly concerned. There was definitely something off and Bo could feel it. It was now past three in the morning and not once did Lauren give Bo any indication that she was alright.

Not being able to wait any longer, Bo stood up from the couch and decided to go back to the Dal, she needed to talk to Trick. Before she could make it to the door, Bo remembered she didn't have her car.

"Shit!" She hissed. As she sat back down. She decided maybe now was a good time to call Dyson. He answered on the first ring.

"Bo, I've been trying to call you all—"

"Dyson, Lauren's missing!" Bo cut him off.

"What?!" He replied, sounding a little stunned.

"Lauren, she hasn't come back home since last night and it's almost 4a.m. Dyson, I think something's happened to her!"

"Maybe she's at the lab or something…" Dyson replied sounding annoyed.

"You know what? Forget it. I'll call Kenz to pick me up," Bo answered sharply catching Dyson's annoyance and quickly ending the call. The Succubus knew that wasn't happening since Kenzi was definitely not in the land of the living right now. Frustrated, she grabbed her cell and decided to take a cab instead. If anything happened to Lauren, Bo would never forgive herself.

When she arrived at the Dal, she found Trick in his lair reading. He looked up and his face quickly tuned to that of concern as he saw the worried look on his granddaughters face.

"Bo? What's wrong?" He asked.

"I think…I think Lauren's missing and it's all my fault!"

"Did you check the lab? You know what she's like Bo, she—"

"No. She can't be at the lab. She would've answered my calls because I've been trying to call her and text and tonight was her award night and I should've been there but this whole Dawning thing was just…I just know she's not at the lab Trick. I can't help but feel like something bad has happened to her and it's all my fault!" She said finally taking a breath.

"Bo…Breathe," Trick told her. "What happened?"

"Tonight was Lauren's award's night and I missed it because of this stupid game thing today! When Tamsin and I got to her apartment she wasn't there. I assumed she went without me, but I found her award at home so she definitely came back home. None of her stuff is missing so she can't have just up and left. What if she was kidnapped Trick? We have to find her!"

"Award night? The Fae never award humans for their work…" Trick replied sounding a little shocked.

"I don't think it was a Fae thing," Bo said.

"What?" Trick asked abruptly. "What do you mean it wasn't a Fae thing?"

"I'm pretty sure this award thing was a human…" Bo trailed off realizing how odd this seemed. She hadn't even been aware Lauren had published anything within the "human world" since she started working for the Fae. When she looked at Trick she could see how serious his features had become.

"I think you're right…" He said quietly.

"Why do I get the feeling you know what's happened?"

"I don't, but whatever it is, it can't be good."

Present…

"Heya Succu-face! Started without me huh?"

Startled Bo woke up from her nap. She groaned and narrowed her eyes up at Kenzi as she stood next to her with the half empty bottle of Gin in her hand.

"Aw Kenz, just an hour longer?" Bo replied as she proceeded to turn the other way and go back to sleep.

"What the fuck?!" Bo yelped as Kenzi delivered a good hard, stinging, slap right to her ass.

"Come on Bobo, you promised me a day of shopping 'til I drop! This sexy little Russian ass does NOT shop alone."

"Nor does she come cheap," Bo mumbled as she rubbed her stinging cheek.

"I also happened to have my eyes on some very nice puppies at the store the other day," the younger woman replied ignoring her comment.

"Besides, we have to meet a client at like 5:30 this afternoon and I want to get in as much Kenzi and shopping time as I can before we meet them! Now get your ass up off the couch and get ready."

Bo groaned again and sat up slowly, hissing at the stinging reminder of her butt cheek.

"Alright, alright, just no more ass slapping. For a small little thing you sure know how to slap an ass," Bo said standing up.

"Oh honey, I know you loved it," Kenzi said giving her a wink. Bo just rolled her eyes and made her way up the stairs to get ready.

For the first time in a long while, Bo actually found herself enjoying her shopping spree with Kenzi. She even managed to buy herself a dress or two with matching lingerie and shoes to go with it. They had been shopping for two hours and Kenzi had already managed to stuff ten shopping bags into the car.

"Ah, Kenz? How are we going to fit the rest of your shopping? At this rate, we'll have to hire a truck and I don't think we'll even be able to afford a truck to take these home," the Succubus asked as they made their way into another clothing store.

"Bobo. Bodacious. Bobalicious…will you lighten up? Besides, I just want to get me this sexy sexy ass dress and then my shoes and we'll be on our way. Girls gotta do what a girls gotta do to look this good!" Kenzi replied as she gestured to herself before she continued towards the dresses. "I also know you're enjoying this as much as I am. I saw you eyeing out those fuck me hooker boots Bo Dennis!" she continued giving Bo a knowing look.

"Har har, just hurry up will you? My feet are killing me and I'm starving!" Bo replied.

'In more ways than one,'she thought quietly to herself. It had been almost too long since she'd last fed and her inner succubus was getting antsy.

After another hour and a half of shopping and a full trunk and back seat later, they finally managed to make it to the diner they were to meet their client at, with half an hour to spare. It was a little busy, but they managed to find a quiet little booth at the back.

"God, I'm starving! Mama needs a burger and fries followed by a big ass chocolate milkshake," Kenzi exclaimed as she plopped unceremoniously into the booth. "Argh aaaand my feet are killing me, but it was sooooo worth it!"

"You never cease to amaze me," Bo said as she slid into the booth opposite. "So what time is this client coming?"

"I know. I'm amazing. Anyway, she said she'll be here in half an hour so for now I plan on putting myself into a food induced coma."

As if on cue, the waitress appeared at their table. Bo just ordered a Turkey sandwich and fries while Kenzi made good on her word and ordered herself a burger with fries and a shake.

"So..." Kenzi started, "Want to explain to me why I found you on the couch with a half empty bottle of Gin on the kitchen counter earlier? I mean I'm not judging. Just curious…" she finished while giving me a cautious look. For a moment Bo considered lying, but she knew Kenzi wasn't that stupid.

"Lauren," she replied simply.

"Oh honey…" Kenzi said giving her a sympathetic look.

"I'm not giving up Kenz."

"…but Bobo, it's been eight months," she said timidly.

"I know that. Don't you think I know that? I just, I can't give up on her Kenzi. I don't believe that she just up and left without so much as a goodbye. I know her," Bo replied. "I just can't give up that easily."

Just then, the door opened and a short woman with big round glasses entered the diner. Kenzi turned around and waved the woman over.

"That's our client?" Bo asked raising a quizzical brow at her friend.

"Yup," the smaller woman replied before she stood up and greeted the woman and introduced her to Bo. When they sat back down, Kenzi was sitting with Bo, facing the door. The woman was plump and looked to be in her early 50's. She had short ginger hair that framed her face and was dressed in something that remotely resembled what Kenzi would call an 'old lady dressing gown'. Bo could feel Kenzi trying to control herself from making a comment.

"So…Mrs. Jacobson?" Bo started.

"Ms. Marks, actually," the woman corrected her, "but you can call me Annie."

Next to Bo, Kenzi was trying hard not to laugh, only managing to disguise it with a cough. She had no doubt the younger woman would be thinking about 'Annie' the musical. Bo narrowed her eyes at her friend and nudged her with her elbow.

"Alright, Annie, what can we do for you?" the Succubus asked.

"It's my Mr. Blobby," she replied.

"And ah, what exactly isthis Mr. Blobby?" Kenzi chimed in as she sipped on her milkshake.

"My dog. I think he's been seeing someone else."

At this, Kenzi and Bo both looked at each other in disbelief.

"Ah…your dog? Your dog is seeing someone else?" Bo asked making sure she heard correctly.

"Yeah, you see, every night he always out, he doesn't come back until the early hours of the morning."

"Wow, sounds like he gets out more than I do," Kenzi quipped. Annie gave her a dirty look and then continued.

"So the only explanation for why he's doing this is because he's seeing another person. Am I not treating him well? Do I not feed him enough kibble? I must be a horr…" Bo began to tune out as the woman continued her story of how her dog was seeing someone else. Just then, the door to the diner opened again and a woman with blonde hair walked in. At first, Bo didn't pay much attention until the woman turned around. The Succubus couldn't help let her jaw drop.

"Lauren?" She said loud enough to stop Annie from talking.

"Ah Bobo, you alright?" Kenzi asked from beside her. Bo just sat there watching as Lauren took off her coat and took a seat at the counter. At that moment, she just couldn't believe her eyes.

"Hellooo, earth to Bo?" Kenzi tried again, snapping her fingers in front of the Succubus' face. Bo shook her head and finally noticed Kenzi in front of her.

"Kenz, it's Lauren," she said pointing in the direction Lauren was sitting with her back to them.

"What?" Kenzi asked whipping her head around to look in the direction Bo was pointing. Bo couldn't take it. Quickly, she ushered Kenzi out of the booth and made her way over to the blonde. As she got closer, Bo could hear Lauren laughing at something the waitress just said and she couldn't help but smile at the sound. She missed it. She missed her. Bo took a deep breath and placed her hand gently on the blondes shoulder.

"L-Lauren?" she asked quietly. Lauren stopped laughing and turned around slowly to face Bo, a bright smile still on her face.

"I'm sorry, do I know you?" The blonde asked looking a little confused.

"Lauren, it's me! Bo!" She answered a little taken aback.

"I uh…I think you have the wrong person…uh Bo? My names Karen, Karen Beattie," she replied.

"Doc, is that really you?" Bo heard from behind her. "Oh my god! It really is you!" Kenzi said and to Bo's surprise, the smaller woman lunged forward and gave 'Karen' a hug. When she realized what she had just done, Kenzi pulled back and quickly composed herself again.

"Umm…I mean, it's great to ahh…see ya Doc. I'm sure, Bobo here's missed you heaps. Great. Good. Can someone say awkward? I mean, wow…" She said trailing off.

"I…uh…" the blonde started, but Bo cut in.

"Kenz? This is Karen. Karen this is my best friend Kenzi," she said gesturing between the two of them. For a moment Kenzi said nothing, but after several moments, she finally did.

"Well…that was interesting, anyway, I'll uh, leave you two at it, I'll just be over there showering myself with some milkshake. Um…good to meet ya Karen," she said slapping the confused woman on the shoulder before making her way back to our booth.

"She's er, interesting," Karen said with a chuckle. Bo cringed a little at the thought of calling Lauren, Karen. She also couldn't get over the fact that this 'Karen' looked exactly like her Lauren. This had to be the same person. Bo could feel it. She didn't know how, but she could.

"I'm sorry, it's just you look like someone I know. Someone we both know," Bo finally managed. "I better get back to my table in case Kenz really is having a shower with her shake," she said quickly before turning to go.

"Wait!"

Bo shivered when she felt Karen's firm grip on her wrist as she stopped her from getting any further. A memory of her and Lauren's first night together quickly flashed through the Succubus' mind. She turned around slowly as Karen let go. Bo couldn't help but notice the look of shock on the blondes face. It seemed like even she didn't know she was going to do that.

"W-what was her name again? The one that looks like me I mean," she asked after clearing her throat.

"It's Lauren. Lauren Lewis," Bo said with a sad smile. Karen nodded her understanding.

"Well, I uh, I hope you find her…Bo," Karen finished as she reached out and squeezed Bo's hand. For a moment they just looked at their hands only to be interrupted by the clearing of a throat from the waitress behind the counter. Bo quickly let go and muttered a quick 'Thanks' before practically running back to the booth.

Karen Beattie. Her Lauren had become Karen Beattie. Bo couldn't stop thinking about what had happened earlier that day. She finally found her Lauren. Only it wasn't Lauren anymore. This Lauren, or Karen, looked more relaxed than the Lauren Lewis she knew. The woman she saw today seemed more carefree, confident and had her head held high. Bo didn't know how to feel about it.

The entire time they were at the diner, Bo couldn't help but steal glances. Every little mannerism Karen made was all Lauren and more than once, Bo couldn't help the little tinge of jealousy she felt every time the blonde would laugh at anything the waitress said. Even Kenzi commented on Bo staring daggers at the waitress at the Diner. Bo knew this was her Lauren. Her voice and laugh still sounded the same.

Bo sighed out loud.

All this time searching for Lauren and just when they finally meet, she remembers nothing. What happened? Who? What? When? Where? How? So many questions were running through Bo's mind and she didn't even know where to begin. However, there was only one thing that she did know for certain. She was going to get her Lauren back. She was going to do everything in her power to make her remember again. Bo had found her and she wasn't going to let her go again.