Firts Fanfiction!! :S
I don't own House, or the Song (by Ne-Yo)
All the nights is the same, leave the hospital, arrive home, open the vodka bottle and get drunk, that's the only way to forget you are not with me, the only way to forget that I'm just the "one-night-stand", that you just only used me like a toy, a way to have fun, at the begin that all it was, fun, I didn't realize that I was falling for you, that I not just wanted your lips on mine, I NEED to feel you near me.
I just wanna be NUMB
I don't wanna feel a thing
I don't want reality
actually, reality stinks
When you are with me, and he calls you, I feel so bad, I realize that you are not mine, you love him, you don't realize the way you make me feel, and I can't stop you from go and have a real life at his side, he can give you things that I will never be able to give, you and he have a life, and I'm a time bomb.
How about we just pretend
That your cell phone didn't even ring
And that I wasn't on the other side of the door
Listening to everything, tell me another lie
When am at work, I see you with him my heart just start to feel a punch, a pain. And it just stop when I know you will spend the night with me, that I will feel your warm body next to mine, I will hear your heartbeat, that beautiful sound, the beat that gives me a reason to wake up everyday.
I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie
Please make me believe (make me believe)
That there's nobody for you BUT me (for you BUT me)
When I ask who were you talking to
Tell me it was KIMBERLY
Before you walked away, I told you the true I told you "I love you" and you ran away, I just wanted you to tell me that you love me too, I just needed a little lie, a little hope. A little hope to help me to be able to keep on my feet, to try to avoid that reality that is killing me, that is taking my life little by little.
Tell me THAT last night you didn't leave
After you thought I was asleep
Krept back in that 6:45
Tell me it was just a dream
When I woke up the mornings after, and I don't see you next to me, I start to cry I even if I don't want to…. Is something I can't help. I dream about having you next to me every morning, dream about spending all my mornings by your side,but I just dream.
Baby I need (I need), desperately (desperately), desperately (desperately)
To believe you
'Cause I won't be held (won't be held), responsible (responsible)
For what what (what what), what I might do
I need you to tell me you love me, that you will spend the rest of your days beside me, but is just something impossible, I can't continue living this way, I need to get away,I need to take you out of my life, to take you out of my heart and dreams, but when I think about leaving you, I realize I can't, I prefer having you some nights than just not having you around, about not seen those eyes that give me the light of my miserable life.