This is just sort of like a diary entry of a sort if you want to think about it that way but truly that's how felt and still feel.
I hope you enjoy it.
Never Again
It's really kind of surreal, I never thought that it would end but it did.
It's amazing four years of doing this, fours years of marching and playing music at the same time. Having to deal with the band directors day in and day out shouting at you to get your toes up, memorize your music, get to the right set…it will never happen again.
I'll never hear them say those things ever again.
It's frightening in a way to think that I will never step foot on a field as part of the band. It saddens me but not overly for deep down I was and am ready to leave marching band forever but it still hurts to feel that I wont be able to act stupid on the account of the band anymore. That I will never be able to feel that rush of adrenaline during the show, that burst of pride when you put your horn down only to hear the crowd screaming and cheering.
The feeling of accomplishment will of course happen with other things but not as strong as when I first successfully played and marched an entire show. A whole seven minutes of straight playing and marching, it's the best feeling in the world.
That night….Senior Recognition Night opened my eyes to the fact that come next year I would not march, that I would no longer be under the scrutiny of my band directors telling me to do this right, to do this better…to be perfect. It build a lump in my throat after marching my last home game seeing the crowd cheering…it tore up my heart to realize that I would never again see this crowd cheer for me…for the rest of the band, it tore it up so much that afterwards, after the initial shock I let my heart pour out it's sadness.
Half time is game time…it could not get truer than that…
But I will never again experience it…
No more Friday night lights for me.
It's over…
This past weekend was the last time I marched…
And my heart weeps….
For marching band was my passion…
I will never again experience it….
Never again…and I weep…
Well I'm not exactly asking for reviews but it would be nice to receive some feedback even if it has to do with grammar and spelling. Thank you for reading.