First SongFic. Not mine, just borrowing from Janet Evanovich and Kelly Clarkston – Already Gone. Items in quotes & italics are from Hard Eight. Listen to the song while you read.
Set Immediately After the HE Deal
RPOV
Even as I pulled Steph closer and inhaled the sweet smell of her hair, I knew this was going to end badly.
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I tried to stay away, keep it professional, friends, but she is my other half, my soul mate. I'm only whole when I'm near her. She brings light to my darkness.
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
Dawn is breaking. I'm going to have to leave soon. I don't want to but I have an early meeting in DC. I hold her closer to me and watch her dream.
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
"I have to go, babe."
The heartbreak in her big blue eyes is killing me. I tell myself, walk away, walk away.
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
"Does this go on the tab?"
Damn. Why did I make this deal? Oh, right, because I mistakenly thought I could get her out of my system.
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone.
"It's the way it has to be." My voice is cool and harsh. Dios, I'm an ass.
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah
"You need to repair your relationship with Morelli." There can be no us right now. The meeting in DC didn't go well. I'm on a plane in 30 minutes.
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
The jungle is alive around me as I silently move through the underbrush. My target is 50 yards ahead. I need all my focus to get out of here alive, to finish this mission, but my mind keeps wandering back to that night. To my Babe. Her sweetness, her moans and sighs, the way her eyes met mine as we climaxed together. I've gotta get her out of my head if I want to see her again. I push the memory away concentrating on the shack ahead.
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I can hear the blades of the chopper speed up, preparing to leave, it's now or never. I take a deep breath, drop low and run launching myself into the chopper as leaves the ground. "Target acquired, we're coming home." Exhausted, I close my eyes.
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
I pull the Turbo into the parking lot and stare up at the apartment on the second floor. It's 0300, but the lights are on. Maybe…maybe I don't have to go after all.