Title: True Love
Rate: PG-13 (so far, some very very mild language, and refrences to stuff)
Summary: After the crap filled episode 'As You Were,' which only added to the fuel of my 'intense dislike' or Riley. Right. *It just made me
hit him with a big hard rock or two or ten. Maybe a boulder...ok. I'm done with that.*
This starts out with Buffy having a conversation with Tara once she finished dumping Spike. That night. They are having the conversation
in her bedroom. It goes on into Hell's Bells, and I kinda took the liberty to rewrite everything else, and a couple of other things.
Disclaimer: if I owned Btvs, I would never have ended it the way the Great Joss did, but I don't. So i'll stop whining Joss does. What can I say?
Reviews: Yes please. Please be nice.
"So, uh, I heard that R-Riley came by. Dawnie told me about it. H-how was he?" Tara nervously asked Buffy, who was busy looking down
at her hands. Buffy was on the bed, and Tara was sitting on a chair.
"He's great. Him. Riley and his wife," Buffy said, in a distant voice. *Perfect, they were more like perfect*
"Oh right. S-sam, right? Dawnie says that they were really cute," Tara said, still nervous. Buffy was strangely quiet.
"They were perfect in every way. The whole, her hand fits his, their bodies are made for eachother, one heart, one head for two bodies,
typa thingy. Ya know. Just the way they'd look at each other. It was so obvious that they were in love. Like me and Angel, or you and
Willow..oops. Sorry," Buffy said noticing Tara flinch at the mention of her ex-lover's name.
"It's fine. I'm okay. Did you like Sam??''
"Strangely, yes. She's great. I'm happy for him," Buffy smiled, sadly and then said more to herself than Tara,"They were perfect in everyway.
So great. I was jealous."
"Of Sam?"
"No. Of both of them. Of what they had. And, and it made me think. Think about myself, my life, my...about Spike...and me. I...Tara, I ended
it. Ended things between us, Spike and me." Buffy swallowed hard, and blinked away the tears that were surfacing.
"Why?" Tara was stunned. The way they acted at her birthday, Tara was sure that something would've gone on.
"Because, I saw Riley and Sam! Like I keep saying, they're perfect. They're great. I...I'm sure that after they have sex, that he holds her, and
they sleep in eachothers embrace! And Spike and me, we...we just, I...I leave, I leave him. And, it hurts me, because I know he wants to hold me.
Hell, he's tried, and I...I leave," Buffy stopped, trying to fight the tears. She took a deep breath and continued on, "We, we've had conversations,
but once they start getting too deep, once he gets close, touches a nerve, I go. I getup, I...I kick him, I put him down, and I leave.
That's hardly a relationship, and not even Spike deserves that. I can't love him. I use him, all of the time. I hate me, I hate me for hurting him.
It kills me, and that's what I said, and then I left, again," as soon as she finished, the dams in her heart broke, and she started sobbing hysterically
and uncontrollably. Tara went to comfort Buffy, but she had flung herself onto her bed, and was sobbing loudly. Tara just stroke her short blonde
hair.
*she needs this. needs to cry, get it all done with. But I still don't know about this, about her leaving Spike.* Tara looked down at the
small girl, and sighed.
Suddenly, the door opened. "Buffy I need-Tara...I mean, Buffy. What's wrong?" Willow said, her face a mix of surprise at seeing Tara,
and confusion at seeing Buffy crying on her bed.
"She's just very, very tired. She, we watched a,...uh...a movie.. A-and um, she it was sad. Very sad. And she just, yea," Tara looked down.
"Just a movie and tiredness? Hm." Willow said, but knew not to push. They'd tell her later.
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Rate: PG-13 (so far, some very very mild language, and refrences to stuff)
Summary: After the crap filled episode 'As You Were,' which only added to the fuel of my 'intense dislike' or Riley. Right. *It just made me
hit him with a big hard rock or two or ten. Maybe a boulder...ok. I'm done with that.*
This starts out with Buffy having a conversation with Tara once she finished dumping Spike. That night. They are having the conversation
in her bedroom. It goes on into Hell's Bells, and I kinda took the liberty to rewrite everything else, and a couple of other things.
Disclaimer: if I owned Btvs, I would never have ended it the way the Great Joss did, but I don't. So i'll stop whining Joss does. What can I say?
Reviews: Yes please. Please be nice.
"So, uh, I heard that R-Riley came by. Dawnie told me about it. H-how was he?" Tara nervously asked Buffy, who was busy looking down
at her hands. Buffy was on the bed, and Tara was sitting on a chair.
"He's great. Him. Riley and his wife," Buffy said, in a distant voice. *Perfect, they were more like perfect*
"Oh right. S-sam, right? Dawnie says that they were really cute," Tara said, still nervous. Buffy was strangely quiet.
"They were perfect in every way. The whole, her hand fits his, their bodies are made for eachother, one heart, one head for two bodies,
typa thingy. Ya know. Just the way they'd look at each other. It was so obvious that they were in love. Like me and Angel, or you and
Willow..oops. Sorry," Buffy said noticing Tara flinch at the mention of her ex-lover's name.
"It's fine. I'm okay. Did you like Sam??''
"Strangely, yes. She's great. I'm happy for him," Buffy smiled, sadly and then said more to herself than Tara,"They were perfect in everyway.
So great. I was jealous."
"Of Sam?"
"No. Of both of them. Of what they had. And, and it made me think. Think about myself, my life, my...about Spike...and me. I...Tara, I ended
it. Ended things between us, Spike and me." Buffy swallowed hard, and blinked away the tears that were surfacing.
"Why?" Tara was stunned. The way they acted at her birthday, Tara was sure that something would've gone on.
"Because, I saw Riley and Sam! Like I keep saying, they're perfect. They're great. I...I'm sure that after they have sex, that he holds her, and
they sleep in eachothers embrace! And Spike and me, we...we just, I...I leave, I leave him. And, it hurts me, because I know he wants to hold me.
Hell, he's tried, and I...I leave," Buffy stopped, trying to fight the tears. She took a deep breath and continued on, "We, we've had conversations,
but once they start getting too deep, once he gets close, touches a nerve, I go. I getup, I...I kick him, I put him down, and I leave.
That's hardly a relationship, and not even Spike deserves that. I can't love him. I use him, all of the time. I hate me, I hate me for hurting him.
It kills me, and that's what I said, and then I left, again," as soon as she finished, the dams in her heart broke, and she started sobbing hysterically
and uncontrollably. Tara went to comfort Buffy, but she had flung herself onto her bed, and was sobbing loudly. Tara just stroke her short blonde
hair.
*she needs this. needs to cry, get it all done with. But I still don't know about this, about her leaving Spike.* Tara looked down at the
small girl, and sighed.
Suddenly, the door opened. "Buffy I need-Tara...I mean, Buffy. What's wrong?" Willow said, her face a mix of surprise at seeing Tara,
and confusion at seeing Buffy crying on her bed.
"She's just very, very tired. She, we watched a,...uh...a movie.. A-and um, she it was sad. Very sad. And she just, yea," Tara looked down.
"Just a movie and tiredness? Hm." Willow said, but knew not to push. They'd tell her later.
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