Chapter 1

Rose was still trying to process what John was telling her. She had gone numb when he spoke the words, not sure whether she wanted them to be true. She just stared blankly at him. Though he wasn't the doctor, he was so similar. Same slim body, same perfect hair, same goofy smile that came with the matching adorable giggle.

She remembered how angry she was when, 4 years ago, the Doctor had left her with the Metacrisis. Miffed that he though it would make her happy. Yet now she had understood why he had done it. At the time. "I'm part human, specifically the aging part" didn't seem like a good reason. And now it was the most important thing in the world. He wasn't her Doctor, but he was her John.

It had nearly killed her when she first realized that she loved him too. The guilt in her heart telling her she had finally betrayed the Doctor. It was only later that she realized, this was what the Doctor had wanted. For her to live a happy human life, where she could have him, yet not have him. Where she could spend her life with him, and where he would not have two hearts broken in the end. But now the words John spoke put an end to what would have been.

"Rose." John spoke softly, brushing a tear from her cheek. She hadn't realized she had started to cry.

"Shhh, its okay Rose, its okay." he continued trying to calm her.

"How is this okay?" Rose sobbed, pressing her face to his hand. "This changes everything."

John took a deep breath, but said nothing. Rose glanced up and realized that he was just as distraught, and was trying to stay strong for her. Rose reached up and wrapped her arms around him, burying her face in his neck.

"This isn't fair." she muttered. "I was supposed to be with you forever." She nearly chocked on the word forever.

"I know." he whispered, kissing her head. "And quite right too."

If it had been under any other circumstance, Rose would have chuckled at how much he sounded like the Doctor.

John continued. "But our forevers don't match anymore. I can spend the rest of my life with you. But you can't spend the rest of yours with me."

Rose recalled a very similar conversation between her and the Doctor long ago. It was the first time she had met Sarah Jane, and the first time she realized the truth of what he said.

"How is this even possible?" she asked pulling back to look at his face. He had tears in his eyes but held them in.

He said two words. "Bad Wolf."

Roses eyes widened in disbelief.

"When you took in the time vortex and became the Bad Wolf, it must have changed your DNA." he explained pointing to the computer. "It didn't change it completely, but it appears that it has become more, Time Lordish, for lack of a better term."

Roses mouth dropped open. "Excuse me?"

John smiled slightly at her expression. " Don't worry, you won't regenerate." he chuckled, tensions alleviated for a moment. "It has mainly given you a longer life span. How long is hard to say. It is possible this it will be just as long as," he hesitated a moment "as the Doctor."

Rose winced at his hesitation. She new it hurt him that she still woke up crying for her Doctor. Rose decided to change the subject for the time being.

"It mainly changed my life span?" she asked confused. "What do you mean mainly, what else did it change?"

John smiled at her once again, he loved her confused face. She always looked so cute when she did that. "Well, I'm not really sure. But its possible that you may have retained some of the Bad Wolfs powers. After all, you are the Bad Wolf, just as the Bad Wolf is you."

Roses mind was reeling. Powers? Like destroying a whole race? She shivered as she recalled how she felt when the Doctor explained to her what had happened on the Game Station. Though she knew it had saved him, it didn't make her feel any less guilty, even if they were Daleks.

"Will I be able to control it?" she asked nervously.

" I don't know." John replied. "But I do know one thing." he didn't continue, he just looked at her sadly.

"No." Rose responded. She knew what he was going to say.

"You need him Rose. He can help you. He can now do what I can't." He spoke softly. "He can give you forever." A single tear glistened down his cheek. Rose closed the distance between them wanting to comfort him. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him. John kissed her back, but broke this kiss all to soon and slowly stepped back.

"I'll be okay Rose. We both know, deep down, it will always be him."

Rose opened her mouth to argue, but he continued, holding up a hand asking her to let him finish.

"I'm not saying you don't love me, I know you do." He smiled slightly. "But you'll always be in love with him."

Tears ran down her face. She knew what he was saying was true. Even though she wanted to tell him it wasn't.

"So what to we do?" she asked trying to give him a smile.

He returned her smile with a withered one of his own. "We find a way to get you home."