So, this is my first fic and I'd be very thankful if you'd rate and review. A certain song called performed by a Serbian band Legende, called 'Ta oka dva' inspired this fic so you should really listen to it, if not for the lyrics, listen to it for the music. Also, I do not own the Harry Potter universe nor do I profit from this, I am just borrowing some characters for fun :)
Just like that, the year passed by, but the pain stayed...
The ghosts from my past often haunted me at night. Most of times, they had your face and they made me think of you...
Because of two eyes, two sparkly pearls, the windows of my dreams...
The first thing that came to my mind were those warm, piercing eyes of yours. Even when I was angry, Merlin knows I could get angry, they were still full of love and I would find myself lost within their calming depths.
That soft, calming voice that made all my worries and dark thoughts go away...
Anywhere and anytime, I heard your voice. I clearly remember how you said two sentences that I wouldn't forget while I walk this Earth. They were both so simple really, three words each. One was the glorious I love you that made me feel like the luckiest man alive. Second one was the cold and painful I hate you that brought tears to my eyes.
That sweet, sweet, smile that pushed into sin...
Your smile was like a drug to me. It clouded my mind better than any spell ever could and made me a puppet you controlled with thin strings.
Every second like an hour...
I sometimes found myself smiling at our memories, but it would all soon enough stop and pain would be all I feel.
Every hour like a day...
At that moment, all my hopes would just crush and fall in a deep pit and I would feel darkness devour me.
When you're not by my side...
A visit from the ghosts of my past always ended like this. Pain and loneliness would slowly spread through my blood and I could feel fear creep up on me.
When you're far away...
Sleep would soon enough envelop me in its embrace but my fear would still linger. Fear of staying alone.