Я буду любить тебя всегда Я буду любить тебя всегда

The words kept running through my head, over and over like a broken record. Haunting and sneering at me, those taunting words Dimitri left me with. I knew what those words meant.

I shall always love you… I honestly could spit in his face and this very moment and yet at the same time I wanted to thank him. He showed me just how weak I had become when I thought I was in love with him. I whipped the unneeded tears from my face in disgusted. It's was like a beautiful forest after a fire, after the fire it was ugly and grey but then soon turned greener and bigger with time. I was a new person. At the moment I was covered with ash and grayness but would quickly leave the ash and grayness behind and move forward.

As much as I wanted that to be, I don't think it'd be that easy.

Four years later…

I quickly slipped from Eddie's grasp and lock my own on him, trying to sweep his feet. He dodged, I threw both my hands flat against his chest sending him backwards on the mat yet again.

"Point for Hathaway and still Zero for Castlie!"

"Bitch!" Eddie said to me.

"Your point?" I asked raising my eyebrows.

I laughed when he said nothing but just glared at me. I grabbed a towel whipping the sweat off my face and neck and retreated to the locker room. I showered and dressed into jeans and purple tank top and a to big shirt over it and tied in in the back then finishing the look with neon yellow and black puma tennis shoes. I brushed my hair, I had got it cut. My hair was not to my lower back but now just to the end of my shoulder blades, I also got front bangs. My body has changed over four years too. I still had all my curves but I was not just muscle, I don't have an ounce of fat on me. I pulled my hair into a high pony tail that stopped at the nape my neck now not my shoulder blades where it did before I had it cut. I don't miss all that hair. I really like my look now, I think I'll keep it. I grabbed my gym bag and walked out at the same time Eddie.

"Hey, what are you, Lissa and Christian doing for Christmas?" He asked

"I think their going to Tasha's this year sense they didn't go last year." I shrugged. Ever sense Dimitri took Tasha's offer they went to Tasha's every other year. They didn't want them coming here in fear of Dimitri life. I wanted to keep it like that too. I haven't heard anything about Dimitri in four years sense that he left me. I could live with that, I hate that poor, sorry bastard to my very core. I mean I don't hate Tasha it's not her fault that Dimitri took her offer, it's all his so I won't let me anger and hate get pointed at the wrong person. I had asked them to speak of me in front of Dimitri and Tasha and to tell them just how well I'm doing and how great I am. I wanted to rub in Dimitri's face that I can live without him and still enjoy life to fullest.

"Well, in that case do you want to come with Mia and I to Hawaii this Christmas?" he asked. Him and Mia were together and I think that their very serious. They are madly in love like how Lissa and Fire Balls(Christian) are and how Dimitri and I were. I can tell by how they hold hands and smile at each other and just stare at them and then notice that they're in public and how they blush when we tease them how head over heels they are over each other.

"Are you serious?" He nodded.

"Yes! Thank you!" he smiled.

"Thank Mia later, she came up with it. We just noticed how you never do anything for Christmas the times that Liss and Chris are gone and plus we have a few more friends coming along." I hugged him, he was momentarily shocked but then hugged me back. I can't wait now. Christmas when Liss and Fire balls weren't home seemed to always just drag on.

"When are we leaving?"

"Tomorrow so a day after and Liss and Chris." Okay awesome that means I'm going to have to tell Alberta so she could get someone to cover my rounds at night.

"And for how long?"

"Two weeks." Even better!

Mele Kilikimaka, Hawaii!

I went to Lissa's house that she and Chris had at the court.

"Hey! Guess what!" I side coming through the door. I knew that Lissa and Chris weren't getting it on because I couldn't feel any strong emotion through the bond.

"Um, Rose! Don't come into the living room!" she sounded panicked. I stopped short and stayed where I was. Lissa came rushing in and lead me outside on the side porch.

"Okay, promise me something?" she asked. I nodded slowly, I was trying to get into her head but she had me too closed off. I could feel her but that was it.

"Take a vow and repeat after me, 'I, Rose Hathaway shall not kill anyone besides who I, Vasilisa Dragomir gives permission too." I repeated and she nodded to herself and took a deep breath, calming herself and lead me in to her house. She pulled me into the living room. She was blocking my view. She stepped out of the way and I nearly jumped him. Him as in the Russian Bastard sitting my seat. Russian Bastard as in the damned Dimitri Belikov.

He did a double take of his own when he saw me. He stared at me and I let him. I pulled my Guardian mask in place. He stared but soon his stare focused on my face, no not just on my face but on the giant scar on my right cheek that started at my temple and ran door into my cheek in a perfect swirl. I was on a mission and Strigoi had got a hold of me and she had used a knife marking me forever. It was my first fight after Dimitri left me. I accepted the scars, it was apart of me. It just showed what I've been through in the last four years just as the rest of my scars did, they are a map of my life, each one having its own story and bravery put into it. His eyes traveled to my chest where another very large scar showed. I put me hand over my chest covering the scar from him.

"Hey, is there a sigh on my chest saying 'Read me'? If so please tell me." I snapped harshly. Christian choked on a laugh as he took a sip walking into the room with Tasha.

"Shut it, Fire Balls." He glared at me over the rim of his hot chocolate.

"Yes Ma'am, boss lady." he said all too sweetly, sarcasm drowning his words. I smiled sweetly back at him and walked over and pinched his cheek. I turned to quickly to see his face. I saw Tasha, I smiled and said

"Hi, Tasha! Long time no see!" I said smiling a real smile unlike the fake smile I gave Christian.

"Hey, Rose!" She stepped forward and wrapped me in a hug. I hugged her back, I could tell she was surprised. Like she was expecting me to be seriously pissed at her. I wasn't I refused to be. Like I said it wasn't her fault she doesn't know that Dimitri and I ever where together when she offered it is all Dimitri so that's the only person I'm going to blame.

"I thought Lissa and Christian were suppose to go to your place." I said.

"Yea, but I thought it'd be better to come over here sense we haven't been forever so I thought I'd surprise them. I did I guess." she said almost carefully. Lissa came in and looked over at Dimitri then at Tasha making sure the haven't been punched or kicked or anything like that.

"So, are you teaching any Moroi protection program classes I know your one of people to help give it the final push." She nodded taking a sip of the hot chocolate Lissa had made for everyone.

"Yea, it's so cool watching the kids learning something they thought they'd never learn. I'm so happy Queen Tatiana gave it a yes." she said smiling broadly. I sat down on the chair turning toward Tasha and away from Dimitri. I could feel his stare drilling into my back. I wanted to turn around and call him every name in the book but kept my cool-barely- and listened to Tasha talk about MPP(Moroi Protection Program). I nodded along with her and gave a few comments. I looked at the clock and set down my mug and stood up, straitening out my shirt and jeans.

"Oh, by the way Liss I'm going with Eddie and Mia and some there friends to Hawaii for Christmas. I'm sorry I didn't know Tasha was coming or I'd would have said no but I said I'd go already, is it okay if I still go?" I asked.

"You're a grown ass women, Rose don't have to ask me. You know that." Lissa said.

"And you're my charge. I'm making sure so if wanted me to stay." I said.

"No, this would be your first vacation, you need one. Go. " she said. I smiled and came over and hugged her. I turned and punched Fire balls in the arm and said

"I'll send you a post card."

"Bitch." was all he said. He wanted to go I could tell but with his Aunt here it prevented him from going.

"Yep, your truly!"

I went over and hugged Tasha bye.

"Well, I have to go pack. Two weeks in Hawaii for Christmas! Yay!" I cheered. "Bye y'all!" I said walking out ignoring Dimitri.

I made it to my room and let a tear of pure anger slide down my cheek.

How dare Dimitri think he could just show up anytime he fucking pleases!

I got out my suit case and looked for my summer clothes which I had packed away in boxes so it was out of my way in September so I could make space for my winter clothes. I packed three swim suits one Red the other black and purple and the last one purple and blue swirls all three bikinis. I packed a bunch of short shorts and tank tops with flip flops and three party dresses and one sun dress, three pairs of heels and two pairs of nice sandals. And along with some really nice bras and panties. Okay, I was set. I put in a corner of my room and changed into night clothes and flopped in my bed. Thank god I'm leaving tomorrow, I don't think I would have survived being by Dimitri any longer. And I was only by him what an hour and a half tops? Like I said, Thank god!

I turned off my light and let the sweet waters drag me under.

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