I was always curious about the whole Lapis/Tsui-Ling thing since not much of it was clearly explained in the anime. So now I started a fic on it...I hope you like it! Pls review!

Lapis Pov

While I was sitting on the desk of what was called my room, plenty of things went through my head. I existed for 6 months now and I slowly regained most of the humans memories whose life essence I carry inside me. She really had a beautiful and careless life, that girl called Tsui-Ling. She was in love with a young handsome man who did anything for her to make her happy. She was happy, she was happy because he was with her. My master told me the story, that Tsui-Ling and that wind magic user were lovers. He told me that Kazuma, before he gained his strong powers recklessly attacked Armagest, which lead the previous leader Erwin Lezsaar to use Tsui-Ling as a sacrifire to summon a powerful demon. Kazuma was unable to save her because that time he was too weak. It gave Erwin pleasure to see Kazuma suffer. Apparently, I exist due to a mixture of the demon who was summonded by her power and her remaining life essence. I regain memories of her day by day. I see her life in my dreams. My master once asked me what was the last thing Tsui-Ling thought of before she died right infront of her boyfriends eyes. I didn't actually had a clue that time, but hearing the story I guessed that she must have really been angry at that time. I mean he promised her to protect her forever, but he didn't, instead he dragged her into all this and attacked a powerful modern magic organisation of which he sure as hell should have known he wouldn't be able to defeat! It was his fault that Tsui-Ling got in trouble in the first place and to the worst he didn't even safe her when she got killed! Wasn't such a thing unforgivable? Wouldn't anyone wish to kill his so called "lover" if something like that happened? That was what I thought all this time. But I was wrong. I recently regained Tsui-Ling's last memories...she wasn't mad at all. She was just glad that atleast Kazuma managed to stay alive, she genuinly believed that he tried his best in saving her. But there was something else, the reason she wanted to stay alive wasn't for her own selfish desire. It was because she wanted to be with Kazuma forever, she wanted to love him till the end. She was scared that, was she to leave him behind, he would go insane. These were her worries, she didn't want to be apart from him, that's why she wanted to stay alive so badly. It was beyong strange I couldn't follow her feelings at all. Perhapbs I would if her memories keep flowing insde me...

Suddenly someone knocked on the door.

"Yes?" I said.

"It's me." I heard the familiar voice that belonged to my master saying.

I instantly got up to open the door for him. He stood infornt of me and looked at me. I looked up at him, he was a very tall man and always put on a serious face, expect when he experied the joy of hurting others, which like he told me, was a thing that could make even me happy. I tried it out and put on a fake smile whenever we managed to make others feel pain, yet I wasn't actually happy about what we did. I felt nothing. My heart was still empty. I don't know what feelings are and I wonder if I ever would...

"Lapis, some trash we need to take care of appeared."

"Will we head out now?"

"Not right now. Before that I want you to do something else."

"What is it Master?"

He put out a white lacy bra and a matching white lacy panty.

"Take a shower and put this on. Dry your hair let it loose."

"Yes Master." I answered.

He asked me to do this kind of thing many times, I already got used to it. But I really didn't understand the reason behind all this. When I asked him, he told me that it is something that makes him feel good.

I removed my clothes and went into the shower. When I finished I dried my hair as my master ordered me to and I got into the lingerie.

I walked to the living room were he was waiting for me shirtless. As he saw me he got up and starred at me hungrily.

"So beautiful..." he commented, strocking my cheeck.

His fingers wandered down my skin, it tickled. He pressed his lips against mine and I, as he ordered me all other times opened my month for him. He kissed me long and hard. He lifted me up and I felt something hard poking me. Why was it like that? Was this his magic? I didn't get it at all. He continued kissing me all over my body, as he laid me on the bed. He removed my lingerie and did it to me. I really have no idea what it's called, and as for the oh so great feeling master Bernhardt told me about, I couldn't feel anything at all. When we were finished he laid down.

"Go to bed Lapis, we will have to fight tommorow." he ordered.

"Yes master." I replied while I stood up to go into my room.

When I closed my eyes I had another flashback of Tsui-Ling's life.

"Kazuma! Hurry! We need to get back to the restaurant!" The pretty brunette shouted as she carried a lot of bags out of the supermarket.

The young man came out of the supermarket, he carried even more bags.

"I am coming!" he said as he smiled.

Tsui-Ling smiled back at him.

They called a taxi and went to the restaurant.

"I am so happy that you are working for us now, things are a lot easier like this you know. I always had to carry all this stuff by myself. Now I am happy to have a big strong man like you help me!" Tsui-Ling smiled happily.

"Anytime. You can always rely on me." Kazuma smiled back.

End Flashback.

I opened my eyes. Smiling. Laughter. Why? Why did they do that? What made them so happy? I couldn't understand. But what I knew was, that Tsui-Ling indeed was a very happy person. She didn't hate Kazuma, she loved him, even though he wasn't able to keep his promise in the end. She loved him. Something was bothering me...what was it? Why did I feel like this? It probably is guilt...I felt guilty because I have been lying to Kazuma. I shouldn't have done that... I am such a fool... My master said it would bring me happiness to make Kazuma feel miserable, but it truly didn't. I sighed and closed my eyes again, trying to fall asleep.

I should forget about all this, it doesn't matter at all now. I can't redo what I did. He is our enemy anyway. He tried to kill Master Bernhardt! I wont forgive him, I will continue to torture his heart...I will... suddenly everything around me went black as I fell asleep.

The next morning...

I heard someone knocking at my door.

"Yes?"

"It's Ilya. Master Bernhardt asked me to wake you up, please get ready."

"I will be ready within half an hour." I replied.

"Allright." The maid said and left.

I got up and took a shower. I got dressed in my usual red outfit with the black pantyhose. I wondered what kind of fight today's would be like. Come to think of it, Master Bernhardt didn't talk about his battles in advance. Expect when it was about Kazuma. But that was probably because that case revolved around me. I went down into the living room and saw my master already awaiting me.

"Good morning." he greeted.

"Good morning master." I greeted back.

"Let's go then." he said.

"Yes Master."

When we were out of the mansion he took me under his coat and we teleported.

We landed on a large place, there seemed to be a fabric before. It was dirty and empty.

"Finally you are here, Bernhardt Rhodes." a voice suddenly said.

"Hmph. Of course I am. There is no way I'd reject a challenge like that." my master replied with a smirk.

"That's a beautiful piece you got there with you. How about I take it if you loose?"

"You will loose for sure so I don't have any problem with this deal. If I loose you can take her."

I looked at my master shocked. Why would he do something like that?

"Master..." I stated frightened.

"Do not worry Lapis, I am confident. I wont loose against this wimp. I've never lost against him. He is a weakling."

He sure was confident, I just hoped he wasn't joking!

Suddenly the other man came out of his ambush.

"Good evening beautiful lady. I am thunder magic user Yuuichi Matou, pleased to meet you." He bowed as he greeted me.

I just starred at him without saying a thing. Thunder magic huh? Sure as hell he wont stand a chance against my master. Luckily there was nothing I had to worry about...

"You probably think I am still as weak as I used to be Bernhardt. But you are horribly wrong. I trained hard every day. Just to defeat you. You piece of shit."

"Hmph, show me what you learned then and stop the small talk, scumbag."

My master turned to me.

"Lapis, stay back for now but back me up if things turn out badly."

"Yes Master."

"TAKE THIS YOU LOWLIFE!" Yuuichi yelled as he fired an attack at my master. My master quickly created a barrier which blocked all of his attacks.

"Tzz,still this old trick." Yuuichi said.

"As long as you come at me with that kind of weak attacks I wont move."

"Very well." Yuuichi replied with a smirk. He closed his eyes for a moment and fired an even bigger attack at us, which broke Master's barrier! That kind of thing never happened! Who was this guy? Why was he able to destroy Armagest's barrier?

As the barrier was destroyed, I and my master were thrown back by the great power of his thunder. We were laying on the ground.

"Lapis." My master ordered me.

I stood up and ran towards Yuuichi with my sword. As I tried to slash him with my sword he kicked my stomach and fired an attack at me which sent me flying at a wall.

Ouch. That hurt. I felt something wet running down my head. And when I touched it I realized that it was blood. I felt dizzy, but I couldn't stop now. I had to help my master. I tried to get up, just then Yuuichi put chains around my hands and feet.

"Hahahahaha." He laughed evilly.

"How do you like that beauty? If I were you I wouldn't go up against someone like me, so watch what you do. Otherwise I am afraid I have to kill a beauty like you..."

Shit! I was totally trapped now. I couldn't move at all. Master, do something!

My master fired a heavy surprise attack at Yuuichi from behind which caused Yuuichi to fall to the ground. Yay! Atleast he was a bit injured. But that didn't stop him from firing more attacks at my master. I watched the two men fighting for quite a while. It seemed like it would end in a draw.

"I think that playtime is over now." Yuuichi suddenly said with a smirk.

"I will kill you right now you bastard." My master replied angrily. He was heavily injured, I've never seen him that injured before. The guy we were dealing with was really very strong.

"Master!" I shouted.

Master Bernhardt turned around to look at me.

"You shouldn't fight if you are that heavily injured. Go home and get some rest! You can save me later!"

"Lapis..."

"Oh? That's quite a nice idea. Atleast I could have some fun with her then. But after all I think it would be more fun if I killed you before that."

"Try it..."

My master closed his eyes and took two cards out of his coat. He was going to use his strongest attack now! He would certainly win with this attack, but it would weaken him a lot!

I closed my eyes as the big explosion hit Yuuichi. He probably died. My master won! But what did I expect? He is the best after all!

I suddenly spotted a hand crawling out of the dirt. It can't be...It was Yuuichi. He didn't die at all!

"You scumbag, such a thing wont kill me! IT WONT KILL ME!" He yelled angrilly.

When I looked around my master was nowhere to be found.

"Bernhardt! Stop hiding! Where are you you bastard!" Yuuichi yelled.

"Beeeeeernhaaaaaaaardt!"

"Shit! That coward escaped! I can't feel his presence anymore!"

NO WAY! My master would never leave me alone like that! This wasn't true!

Yuuichi turned around to look at me. When I saw his hate filled eyes my legs started to shake. He wouldn't do something to me would he?

"Bernhardt! Wherever you are now you bastard! If you don't come back now I will kill that little treasure of yours! I WILL KILL HER YOU HEAR ME?"

My whole body started to shake, master where are you? Please come back and safe me!

"Hmph. You coward. I will kill her off right now." Yuuichi turned around and fired an attack at me.

"Nooooooooooooooooo!" I yelled in fear.

Master please! Please safe me master! I can't believe he would leave me like that, he would never do such a thing...he...

I suddenly felt that my hands and feet were realeased from the chains and then I felt myself laying bridal style in the arms of a male. It had to be Master Bernhardt! He didn't leave me alone after all! I smiled lightly.

But when I looked up it wasn't Bernhardt at all.

I couldn't believe my eyes when I looked at the man.

"Ka-ka-ka-zu-ma?" I managed to say.

He smiled at me. Why why? Why did he save me? I was the one who tried to make his life miserable! This...this is a dream right? I felt my eyes getting heavy and then everything around me went pitch black.

Kazuma Pov

Oh no she fell asleep. There were plenty of things I wanted to ask her. I looked at her face. She looked so beautiful. As beautiful as when I met her for the first time...her? No I am talking about Tsui-Ling. These two are certainly not the same person,right? It couldn't be. Tsui-Ling is dead, she was eaten by the devil. Also Lapis behavoir is completely diffrent from Tsui-Ling's. Tsui Ling was always happy, she would laugh and smile like there was no tommorow. But Lapis was emotionless...

"Shit it's the wind contractor!" I heard the boy who tried to kill Lapis panic and he quickly teleported away.

Geez. If you are such a coward, you shouldn't fight at all. I decided to fly back to my hotel room, of course I would take the girl with me. I wanted to know more about her any why she looked like Tsui-Ling. I got sad thinking about Tsui-Ling, I missed her so much. She was the only person who liked me the way I was. She didn't care whether I had any powers or not...She loved me the way I was. I wondered how it was possible that Lapis looked exactly like her. The only thing that was diffrent was the eye colour. I wanted to know why she looked like her. She must have some part of Tsui-ling inside of her after all. Yes certainly she has. And that is, why I saved her. I also believe that she is quite innocent in the whole thing. She was born into this world just a few months ago, and she probably believed everything Bernhardt said. I was the bad guy in her eyes. I wanted to clear this misunderstanding with her. When I reached my hotel room I laid her down into my bed. I treated some of her wounds carefully. Poor girl, she was getting dragged into such things by that bastard Bernhardt.

I went to take a shower.

Whe I came back I saw her stirring inside her bed. She got up and looked around the room confused.

"Where am I?" she stammered.

"Enemies hands." I replied teasingly.

She instantly got up.

"Kazuma Yagami!"

"I am just kidding...How are you feeling? I treated most of your wounds but if it still hurts take some pain killers."

She looked at the bandages as if she had never seen such things.

"This wasn't necessary. My body heals quickly by itself."

"Stil it would be bad if you lost too much blood."

She suddenly got up. Nope I wouldn't let her go yet. I needed to get her to talk somehow.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"Home. Master Bernhardt must be worried."

Sigh. Why did she think of him as such a sweet and innocent person?

"I don't think so."

She turned around and I saw a sad look on her face.

"You don't know anything!" she said in a calm voice.

"Why did he escape and didn't save you when you were almost killed then?"

"Why did you not save me back then?"

That hurt. It really did. I again was confronted with my weakness. And with my mistakes of the past. I ran a finger through my hair. I felt tears forming into my eyes, but I was able to hold them back.

Lapis Pov

This was weird. What was I to think now? Did he kidnap me? Or did he really save me because he didn't want me to get hurt? This was confusing! But to be honest...I was really thankful to him...he saved me. If he didn't came I would have died. It was the truth, Master left me. But if I told Kazuma that, I would have to rely on him. I mean I don't have any place to go to, expect Master Bernhardt's.

For now I wanted to thank Kazuma.

"Thanks for saving me." I said as I looked away.

Kazuma who seemed like he was in deep though suddenly looked up at me.

"Oh you're welcome..." he replied.

He looked troubled. It was probably because of what I said. Dammit! I didn't want to hurt him anymore...Should I tell him the truth? It probably would be the best.. I felt a bit guilty before but now this feeling has gotten even worse...now that he saved me...

"Kazuma..."

"Yes?"

"You know...I was lying..."

"What about?"

"About Tsui-Ling's last thought..."

He looked at me expectant.

"She never wanted to kill you..Kazuma...she loved you until the end..."

He looked relieved. I saw him smile.

After a few seconds his face went serious again.

"How do you know all that though? Are you Tsui-Ling?"

"I..."

"Tsui-Ling? No, you couldn't be her...she died...she really died...Why do you look like her?"

"Kazuma...I am a mixture of the demon she was sacrificed for and her life essence...that is why I look like her...I also keep on getting memories from her life. A part of her is still alive inside of me. But I am a diffrent person...I am Lapis."

"I see..."

I had to apologize, he wasn't a bad guy at all. The only reason he was unable to save Tsui-ling back then was his lack of power. I could see in his eyes how much he regretted it. And there was something I also regretted...I wanted to let it out...

"You know. I am really sorry for what I have done. I did something horrible...You probably wont ever forgive me..When I heard the story from Bernhardt I didn't had any memories of Tsui-ling's life. But what I heard made me angry and I was sure she would want to kill you in the end. When I found out how wrong I was I felt guilty. And now that you saved me I feel even worse. I thought Bernhardt cared about me, but he just left me to die..."

"It's okay. Bernhardt used your innocent heart. I am not mad at you at all. I hate him though and I want to kill him really badly."

"I should go now, I have caused you a lot of trouble, you probably don't want to see my face anymore."

I turned to leave but I suddenly felt his hand grap my arm.

"No. Don't go. Where will you go? You don't know this place. Stay here."

What? Why?

"But..."

"It's okay just stay here..."

I looked around. This wasn't good. But what other choice did I have? I would just have to wait until Bernhardt would pick me up. But would he?

"Thank you." I replied emotionless.

"I will introduce you to the others tommorow."

"Others?"

"Yeah. You need to socialize. You need to see how beautiful life can be. Killing people didn't really make you happy did it?"

"Ah, I don't know whether I was happy or not."

"You don't know the feeling of happiness yet. But I will show you. I will for sure."

That was chapter one. Thanks for reading and please review!