Neither you nor without you
I sleeptodreamof you,through the nightto witness
I'm not lyingwhen I say,that this loveis real
I love youno matter,what historydecides
Thatwould give my lifefor you,never goto doubt.
So long ago they had a relationship, if one could call that could finally say that he knewperfectly to the person beside her sleeping right now, three years and were somewhatand although many fans said it easier for the fact that they had idealized him, the realitywas something truly different.
The fights, shouts, insults and even the occasional hit, but by one, was something you could see more in that relationship all the things that his most ardent admirers could have imagined, to give the reason for each day the writer woke up with that sexy side even with a smile on his lips, when the reality was very different because they had more nights when he had to sleep on the couch so as not to disturb the writer, to give the reason for their blonde pick out her job to go to dinner at a restaurant either and have a nice evening, when the reality was that on rainy days had to go running to the department for not catching a cold and while coming to the store to buy something to prepare a dinner that was not going to be tested by the blond and he feared ill, but perhaps no wiser than he had endeavored to make decent meal for over a year.
Things were very different from what they imagined their followers, the truth there was not much to look forward, not even the nights when they shared the bed of the fact that sex was only for the writer, but he had no right to ask unfortunately a lot since it was he who got into the writer's life and accept it as it was, but he could not want a little more from him, felt he was reaching its limit and the word "Breaking" haunted by head more than ever, though that could be broken if there was never anything together.
But hey, I knew that did not matter, something was going on with your writer and not know it was, I knew I could not be good as a time to forward the writer had been more distant than at other times, but the weird thing is he no longer ran to go to sleep on the couch, that was good, no?
Shuichi slowly rose from the bed as it was morning and I could not spend more time in bed, was awakened at six in the morning, which they never did when I had to go to work that day and had free if that insurance K knew he would go to put it to work, went to the bathroom to shower and then look in the mirror, which was not like a lot, had dark circles how little sleep, his beautiful eyes amethysts and not as bright as before, he knew then that he was paying, he knew that already cost him more than ever fight for the love of his life and that hurt the soul and it was killing him, could not afford it, no sir, he loved Yuki had to keep trying, after all three years are not easy, so I had to keep trying.
And it is only love, I do not want to hurt you
Not cause you any pain, you'd better believe me
If you do not say that I love you ...
With those thoughts took a shower and wait for the writer woke up to ask her out, even a ride to the park.
After three hours Yuki Eiri was waking up more slowly, something he felt sore and tired, without the headache, got up and went to the bathroom take a shower to see if he relaxed, he doubted much, lately was having a lot of work as I needed to hurry in order to have a good holiday, had been preparing for some time with something that does not let his thoughts alone, between that and the job was exhausted when he saw "ten, hell I doafternoon "rush into the bathroom and dressed the same way even with a sharp stab in the head and uneasiness in the pit of my stomach, went to the kitchen for breakfast but was not looking forward, meeting with a pink ball waiting for him with a smile.
- Yuuuuukkkiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ! - Shuichi is the courage but manages to avoid making direct crashed to the floor - waaaa! Yuki bad.
- No humps baka, I have no time - said to go to the fridge.
- We will not be like Yuki, now I have the day off, do not be mean, invite me out! - She said as she stood and rubbed the damage caused by the fall.
- Or that he was crazy to get you a ride.
- Are not going to take a walk, going to invite me out, nor was it to dog me out for a walk - annoying told the truth if he was hurt.
- Because sometimes they look.
- YUKI'S ENOUGH!, So it costs me to be a good day and go for a ride! - Shuichi could not help but start to drop tears of frustration.
Because I have the heart too wrong for wanting
But you are to me, because I'm still well
Same fool in love, that love will be quiet
Just for you to be happy if it's with him and not me
Neither you nor without you.
- See dwarf, do not start with your whining that I have no time! - Yuki was beginning to feel impatient and increasingly evil, truth and did not want to talk, but since I woke up the headache would not let him, more pressure to work toward the poor Shuichi retaliate.
- NEVER GOT TO ME! - Cry and could not help but cry.
- DO NOT HAVE TIME FOR YOUR whining - even cry, forgetting some breakfast and walk past the singer to go out but a hand stopped him.
- NO YOU NO YOU WILL! At least tell me because I leave aside this time, ah! It is not the job because you still have more than two months to deliver the novel and almost have the final, so it's no excuse not to give me a miserable day!
- YOU DO NOT CONTROL ME! Listen stupid brat, I have roamed, I hate your berrinchudos starts, do not ... - he could not continue because I suddenly felt a sharp pang that pierced the head, had to put their hands in the mouth because he also came a bad cough , fell to his knees and dirtied the floor with blood coming from his mouth.
- YUUKIII! - Shuichi is worried about the state of the writer, ran and took the phone to call an ambulance, while calling could see how the writer gradually fell into unconsciousness, the ambulance less than ten minutes late in arriving to attend the writer, Shuichi was nervous and scared, except that he cursed himself for having put at risk again Yuki, as it apparently was again a stress attack, the third that caused him, it was assumed that he must care for and cure , came out with was that he was hurting.
Called Thomas to tell what happened, came to the hospital and to his surprise was not reprimanded anything, unlike you said everything would be fine, really felt weird but appreciated the gesture, I honestly do not need to be told what they already I knew it was all his fault.
He decided to go for a bite to eat and had not eaten it and it was rather late, when he returned he would enter the room I hear voices of the writer, apparently the blonde had awakened and was talking to someone could identify the other voice , the other voice was ... Alex.
Truth hurts so bad, I live in the gloom
Knowing that you are not mine, and always in mind to be
No lack sincerity, not a matter of cowardice
What I am try, but I know that I'm doing wrong.
Alex was a friend of Weimar New York author was almost a year living in Japan, occasionally going out with Yuki to take a drink as he commented, had said little to him but enough to know it was a smart person and good manners, but also wrote books of a historical and this time I was in Japan because he wanted to speak of that country.
- But look how are you, this is not possible - could be heard talking to Alex.
- Alex sorry I could not go to our commitment - Shuichi was dumb, the writer spoke so calmly, you could see the tone of trust and affection?
- That's not important, look at your face you look like you have not slept in months.
- This is too much for me, and not take it anymore - he said wearily, to Shuichi he felt a lump in the throat.
- You have to tell you can not be this way, the truth is that I do not feel bad about having to hide it - "what?" Apparently these two were hiding something and was not good, then he knew that his suspicions were true, every time the writer went away more and more with Alex, that meant ...
- But not now, when you finish the novel give it, I'm so tired, and soon end off all this - "end?, Breaking" apparently was not wrong, break the word was already written in his destiny with the writer - Alex thanks, I do not know what I would do without you right now ...
And it is only love, I do not want to hurt you
Not cause you any pain, what I do is the best
If you do not say that I love you.
He did not want to hear more and went to the apartment, went straight to the room and is done in bed, do not stop mourn until the next day he received a call that afternoon saying Thoma gave high to Yuki, that if I pick, told him that if he could do it since at that time was a setback, he lied, the blond entrepreneur did not refuse, he went straight to the bathroom and look in the mirror again, "this time they must surrender Shu, you're hurting the force be with you "had already taken the decision not regret it.
Yuki came to the department rather annoying to be back with Thoma, expected to at least look out and Shuichi had not gone to visit him, that it charged and collected thought the writer either.
I arrive at the department meeting with all dark, is given by Thoma requested and entered the apartment, did not turn and walk in darkness nothing until he ran into a red candles on each side of the bedroom door, on the floor he could see white petals,smiled, apparently wanted to make peace Shuichi a very interesting way or delicious, whatever be seen, throwing off his jacket on the couch and walk on the petals up to the bed where Shuichi was waiting with a room decorated put candles in various places with red, white petals on the floor and in bed, which was covered with red silk sheets, in it you could see a Shuichi who was lying covered with a sheet of red silk your hips down.
- Yuki, make me yours - "even for a last time."
The blond did not wait and took off her clothes slowly being naked like the Shuichi, approached him about it and starting positioned to devour those lips by little, until they were red and down the neck, her nipples and end at Shuichi member, after the first orgasm of Shu was through the mouth of Yuki, Shuichi answered the blonde member while it was being prepared.
When he was ready the writer was lying face up and the amount Shu, self penetrate, when he was finally used to the invasion began the ride in an exciting, well did until she had her first orgasm Yuki and Shuichi his second night, then continued trying different positions until either finally broke down and fell asleep.
Because I have the heart too wrong for wanting
But you are to me, because I'm still well
Same fool in love, that love will be quiet
Just for you to be happy if it's with him and not me
Neither you nor without you.
That night Shu surrendered ever had, all he had said "I love you" that although he could not get any that night Shu said goodbye to the love of his life, although the writer did not know it made him feel a strange feeling, a hunch, but decided to ignore it and sleep.
The next day Shu was not at his side, recalled that day was a concert so it should already be on the label to the finishing touches to the songs, decided to take a beer and start writing, I would not go to the concert but would on television and televisarían it being the anniversary of BadLuck, wrote as I listened because I knew that night would have to celebrate.
It was time for the concert, Eiri was listening to the songs of Shu during the whole concert, but the one most expected was the last because it always came out with a new song which was dedicated to him, when he knew it was time to keep what I had written and out of the computer to pay attention to the lyrics of the song.
- Japan, good night! - Shouted the most animated Shuichi could - I wanted to thank you for being with us tonight celebrating a year of BadLuck, three years is easy to say, huh?- Said a smiling Shuichi, but Eiri could see a face something sad - this is the last song written eh, and as always I dedicate to the love of my life - I keep silent for a moment and whisper under the gaze - for the last time - said more to himself, but everyone I hear it, but apparently ignored the fans and asked for the song.
Hiro and Suguru Shuichi looked at from his station, it was not uncommon at the last minute Shu gave them the lyrics and melody of a new song but this time it was only the melody, Hiro knew something was up with his friend but he would not ask when was ready talk, Suguru would not get where they called him but after hearing the last thing the singer said the two were concerned.
- The song is called YOU OR OR WITHOUT YOU! Enjoy it! - After it gave the signal for the music began to sound, the two Shu members were confident because they always know how to get into the songs so they knew that would be fine.
I sleep to dream of you, through the night to witness
I'm not lying when I say, that this love is real
I love you no matter, what history decides
That would give my life for you, never go to doubt.
Yuki paid attention to the letter, and Shu's face at that time was being focused, it seems that song contained the most pure and true feelings of the singer.
And it is only love, I do not want to hurt you
Not cause you any pain, you'd better believe me
If you do not say that I love you ...
If, Shu felt that it hurt the writer, to be at his side in this way, for having put his life without being invited, as she did love him ...
Because I have the heart too wrong for wanting
But you are to me, because I'm still well
Same fool in love, that love will be quiet
Just for you to be happy if it's with him and not me
Neither you nor without you.
The writer asked many times to leave him but he never did, he stayed even against his will, he thought that with his help the writer achieve love, to make him happy, that was silly, after the conversation he had Yuki Alex realized the damage they did, it was best to let him go, but never forget.
Truth hurts so bad, I live in the gloom
Knowing that you are not mine, and always in mind to be
No lack sincerity, not a matter of cowardice
What I am try, but I know that I'm doing wrong.
When he realized what was happening, the truth, he was dying, had given up earlier would have saved much pain for both the writer and the same because every time I passed the time it hurt more and more enamored , so now it hurt to the point of the soul to bleed.
And it is only love, I do not want to hurt you
Not cause you any pain, what I do is the best
If you do not say that I love you.
Yes, now let him be free, not hurt him with words of love, because the writer did not want to hear from him, keep his love for him.
Because I have the heart too wrong for wanting
But you are to me, because I'm still well
Same fool in love, that love will be quiet
Just for you to be happy if it's with him and not me
Neither you nor without you.
It's time to say goodbye, it was time to finish any illusion that it was formed, no more nor bother him to get to the level in the hospital for causing a stress attack, no more pain for your writer.
And it is wrong that I have the heart for wanting too
But you are to me, because I'm still well
That fool in love, that love will be quiet
Just for you to be happy if it's with him and not me
Neither you nor without you.
Could not be with him because I hurt so he said goodbye to him, but he would not be without him because never forget him, loved him and that nothing can change.
So the music ended, Yuki did not stop to see the singer's face with tears, he meant by that, because those words was going on, could not understand, I wanted answers and would, as the Baka come talk very seriously with him.
After that came the concert ended, three hours and the kid did not appear.
- But Eiri fool you, he must be hiding in the house of his guard dog - she scolded himself for what he got up from the couch where he was waiting, I take the car keys and went straight to the exit, as the door was opened with an emerald-eyed blonde standing at your door.
- I have no time so do not bother Seguchi - would stretch out when the employer with a hand on it, the writer stopped short - that is?
- Is for you to Shindou-san - the writer take it doubtful - I'll be in the office - no more turned and left.
Yuki knew that the last thing he said was if I needed anything, I was not sure why but appreciated the information.
The writer returned to the couch, opened the envelope and before you read the letterdecided to go for a beer to remove the nerve that was starting to give.
- Let Yuki, it can be, certainly nothing wrong - and said with beer in hand, sat back and took the blade between his hands, began to read.
Yuki Eiri
You have to ask what that song meant ...
The truth is not much to find it, what you say is true, though it pains me to accept mymistake when entering that way in your life, without question, without warning, with all mythings and yet nothing to offer you really covet, that was stupid ...
I know I've hurt and I do not forgive, I had sworn to heal your wounds, heal the heart,which ended up being more damage you did, even the doctor comes to sending you the truth I'm so sorry, I did not intention that the love I have hurt you, forgive me ...
That's why I made the decision to leave your side forever, I will leave Japan for a while,but when you do not return seeketh not worry about it, lives happily with who love theend, do not restrict and gives all that this beautiful heart has to offer, make no mistakeas I did, but you know I was very happy at the time he thought he could help, in partbecause I do not regret what I learned to love, but I also knew what it is hurt by love.
I'm going to hurt you no more, but I'll never forget, last night I told you I love you all I could and this is the last thing you spend, "Yuki Eiri I LOVE YOU" and now I say goodbye I will never forget you
Shuichi Shindou.
And it iswrongthat I have theheartfor wantingtoo
Butyou areto me,because I'm stillwell
That foolin love,thatlovewill bequiet
Just foryou to be happyif it's withhim and notme
Neitheryou nor withoutyou.
Eiri Yuki Then let the first tear that night ...