AN: uhm, this is my first fanfic so.. review! :). and please tell me if i should keep going.
Disclaimer: Twilight is not mine, nor will it ever be, im just using Stephanie's characters for my own entertainment.
He was gone. Edward was gone.
If he was gone, so was I.
I never really had given much thought to suicide.I knew it was wrong so I never tried it. It would hurt Charlie too much. But the pain was unbearable. I had to get away. He didn't want me, he said so himself.
So thats why I was leaving, not suicide, just leaving. I had to get away from Forks, away from him.
When he left, he took my heart with him. I wasn't Bella anymore, happy smiling Bella. I was a shell, a cold ummoving shell.
Everywhere I looked reminded me of him, all of our memories, when he loved me.
I shuddered away from the thought. I slung my back pack over my shoulders, slipped on my black and white Converse, and headed down to the kitchen. I searched through the kitchen drawers to find what I was looking for. A pen and paper.
Daddy, I wrote.
When you get this letter, please don't come looking for me.
I just want you to know that I love you.But I have to get away.
Forks, its just way too much. He is everywhere.
Please understand.
Love and more love,
Bella.
By this time I was sobbing. I finished the letter, and stuffed it into an envelope. I placed the letter on the counter where he would see it, I turned on my heel and ran for the door.
" Good bye Charlie" I said as I blew a kiss and opened the door.
I ran down the front porch steps, merely missing tripping over the bottom one.
I didn't take my truck, because Charlie could track me. So I walked down the path that he took me, so many months ago. The same path that he had told me he didn't want me on. I knew I still loved him, even if he didn't feel the same way.
I marched into the forest, I didn't know how long I'd been there, and I didn't care.
I was worthless, unwanted, unloved. Empty. He wasn't here, He didnt want me.So why should I care about what happened to me?.
I realised it was dark out. Charlie would have found the letter, he would probaly send a search party. I had to get out of the forest.Fast.
I ran. I tripped. I struggled to get back up, But I couldn't. Something, unbelivably strong was holding me down.
" Ah, Ah, Ah, Silly Bella. Don't you remember me?" The voice was awful, but beautiful at the same time.
I looked around trying to find the face and body that was holding me captive.
" Bella?...where's Edward?" Pain shot through me as the voice spoke his name.
Somehow, I found the courage to speak.
" He left, hes g-gone" It hurt to speak the truth.
" Well, I guess it wont matter anymore if your dead right?"
Oh, Hell. I knew that voice. Victoria.
Before I could answer, her sickeningly beautiful face was right beside mine, her bright orange hair whipping against my face, her bright red eyes boreing into my empty brown ones.
She lowered her mouth to my neck.
" Mate for Mate" she whispered.
Her teeth bit down on my neck. Fire flowed through my veins, but I welcomed the pain, I hadnt felt anything over the past 7 months.
She lifted my face to hers. " Im not going to finish you off"
Damnit, I was becoming a vampire. Oh, how I wanted to become one when I was with him. But he was gone.
Victoria stood up and left me. I layed there, But I didnt dare scream. The fire coursed through my viens. I couldn't help it, I whimpered.
I wished Edward was here, to take the pain away.
I wished he was here telling me sweet reassurances in my ear.
I wished he was here holding my hand.
I needed to get back to reality, Edward was never coming back. And neither was Bella Swan.
Those were my last thoughts before the dark oblivion over took me.
So... what did ya think?.. should i keep going?