So, this is my first fanfic. I apologize if it's not awesome enough, or if I've wasted your time, but I would really appreciate any reviews. I want to make my next story better than this, though I must admit, this came out pretty sweet. Or, in my opinion anyway… so, please, please, please read and review. I don't want to babble on and on, so I'd like to finish up this author's note. Okay, er. Happy readings? ALMOST FORGOT. This takes place right after Hermione declines Ron's offer to go to the Yule Ball together.
Disclaimer: I do not own any Harry Potter-ness, whether it be the characters, plotlines, or anything at all.
This entire situation is complete and utter rubbish. I'm so confused and have no idea why I'm upset. How could I possibly be upset? For heaven's sake, Victor Krum, the Victor Krum, the man every single girl has her eye on, asked me to the ball. He asked me, Hermione Granger, which apparently sent shockwaves throughout the entirety of Hogwarts.
I'm the clever one, but that doesn't make up all that I am. Why can't he see that? Excuse me, I didn't mean for that to slip out. I meant him, in the general topic, of course. I meant him, as in, Hogwarts, as a whole. I wasn't implying that I wanted a particular person to realize that I am more than just a person to help with homework or study with exams with. In fact, that that statement could be assumed, it never crossed my mind.
I just wish that I could be a little prettier, or maybe even a little less smart. Maybe then everyone would understand that I, Hermione Granger, am an actual living, breathing person who has feelings. In fact, I do have feelings. I can even prove it. I like Ron. Yes, I said it.
Since I've decided to go the whole "confessions" route, I might as well continue. Being that I like Ron, I guess there is an actual, concrete reason as to why I am upset. He did ask me, to the dance you know. I only refused because of Krum. I think. I guess it could have been because Ron was so inconsiderate and simply assumed that I was incapable of finding a date and wanted to go as friends because he pitied me. Then again, he looked like I had just slapped him in the face after I told someone had already asked.
I'm not sure whether it was because he desperately wanted to not be forced to attend alone, or if he actually likes me. I really shouldn't flatter myself. I'll only end up getting hurt in the end. I'm doomed to have that as my fate, aren't I? I'll won't ever be pretty enough, or likable enough, or perfect enough for Ron. In fact, Ron deserves better than me.
Wait a second. Did I just say that?
I'm way better than Ron. I have the guy every girl in the school wants. For crying out loud, he's a star Quidditch player. Ron will never amount to anything, except, of course, the ability to always have my heart.
He always will, won't he?
His eyes will always be there
Staring straight through me
Always shining through the darkness
Lighting the path I will always follow
It was, by choice, I was unaware
It was obvious to see
Even the stars shone brighter upon us--
I never cease to thank their presence
I'll always feel there could be someone
Better than his simple self
I'll always think so silently
But loud enough for him to tell
And that will always be my weakness
To not settle for what I truly need
Frivolous titles may be for many
But I only wish for his presence
And maybe I have no idea what this is
Maybe it's just friendship and that's all
Maybe it's something more entirely
And maybe I'm simply delusional
But I'll never know until I cry
For what is lost I'll never hold
But rejection will always paint our fate
And of failure, I never wish to know
And yet if nothing else, I reckon
If this is truly meant to be
He'll be sitting, staring thoughtfully up at the stars
And waiting there for me
