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What I Want You To See
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I want to show you I can be what you want me to be.
But you don't see how much I'm trying.
You only see what you want to see.
What am I to do if I cannot give what you want.
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My only wish is to be who I am.
Not perfect like everyone believes.
I am broken but you can't see.
I am lonely but you can't see.
I want love and attention that only a family can give
but I don't get because you can't see past the glass and into the pain within.
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I wish you would uderstand what I'm going through,
the struggle, the strive to just be.
You don't know what it like to have no one who can be there for me and listen.
I don't just talk to hear myself.
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I want you to see there is a little boy who just wants to be understood,
heard and not be mocked for being himself.
What do I have to do for you to notice me once?
How can I show you that I am more than a pompous who thinks only of himself.
I have feelings like others and do worry, care and love.
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I am not perfect, I am not all good
but I'm definitely material enough to be a brother who favours his family more than either one of you will know.
I want to show you I can be what you want me to be,
if only you'll sit down and listen.
Watch and see that I can be like everyone else
happy and whole without sorrows that crawl all over my body and eat me from the inside,
creating a huge hole.