If only I weren't so scared...If only I knew that you cared.
I wouldn't be so alone anymore.
My thoughts want to hold you, like my arms.
My mind wants to caress yours, like my lips...But I can't, I am cold, sad, lost and indifferent.
I know I should speak out, but the words disappear.
Just like magic, they come and go...
But I don't want you to know how I came to be this way.
It hurts, but I think about it everyday.
The fights, the hate, the abuse I took it.
How they told me it was for my own good, and expected me to believe it...I'll never know.
Maybe that's why I'm so cold.
Maybe that's why I'm scared...who knows.
Yet with one word, a look, a hug.
You warmed me to life.
You brought me to the world I wanted and held the door open.
You defended me and took me by the hand.
You led me into this world where I now stand.
But you aren't here anymore.
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me here alone?
Couldn't you see that I want you, and no one else?
Did I drive you away, to some place far from here?
So many questions for love to answer, so little time to gain the truth.
Author's Note: A poem I wrote after a breakup with a b/f. I sat down and started flipping through random googled imagery. This is also how I came across DN. I saw a fanart (though I didn't relieze it at the time) of a broken hearted Misa standing over L's grave with a beautiful boquet of both red and black roses. I had to write something for it. so this came out