Kaoru's POV
My soul is ripping apart
My heart is shattering
My love for you grows stronger and stronger
Our bond has fleeted in the palms of our hands
Our friendship has sunken
We are no more
I am no more
I deny this fact again and again
But I know we are done
Life, love, us
We have ended to the extinct were I can't bear to see your face anymore
It hurts
The pain
Oh the excruciating pain
Take my heart full of woe and make it into nothing
Take the pain from my agonizing body and set me free
I can't stand to see this fact
Oh please help me
Help this dying soul off this cold ground full of red liquid
I know when time comes it is my destiny. No. My fate to surrender
But the memories
The pain
The woe
The hatred
All destroy my meaning to live
We grew apart much more then we were supposed to
Do I blame you?
No.
I blame myself...
For loving you...
For wanting more and more from you like...
feeling your warmth...
Hearing your voice...
Needing your comfort...
I shall say that I am weak
I know and to think of this fact kills me
Every waking moment I fall deeper and deeper and deeper into the pits of sorrow, just waiting for you to grab my hand
It's a sunny day and I walk alone as always
I see lovers
And friends
And families
There all together loving life
While...I'm here alone
I was crossing the street and saw a couple fighting
Once again it was about nonsense
I wasn't paying attention until I heard a car honking and the screeching of tires, then the next thing I knew everything turned black...
The next time I woke up, I was on a hospital bed, and the person right next to me was the person whom I've loved so dearly and also who has caused me so much pain and suffering.
I smiled wondering if he will be able to see my sadness behind it.
I rested in his chest just wanting my pain to stop and for all the suffering memories to end.
He woke up and asked me if I was okay
I responded with a nod
He looked concerned and embraced me
Tears started to form on the corner of my eyes and I embraced him back.
We parted and looked into each other's eyes
Right at that moment I wanted to kiss him, and all he said was if you left this world then I too would leave.
Hearing him say that made be really happy but still...
Just knowing that I'm the one causing all his sadness made me want to just disappear.
I couldn't stand to see his sad face,
I don't know what to do anymore
I wish that car would have taken me away from this world...than just maybe everything would have been okay.
So sorry for not writing in soooo long, the regents and finals are coming up and I had to prepare for those, I might update Kaoru get pregnant (I know I know I've promised to update a while ago but the stupid writers block came back). I'll try to keep this promise and update next week or on Memorial Day :)
Hoped you liked this story.
Sayonara :)